Life...

can be so unbearable at times. Harsh. Unforgiving. Painful.

Excuse me a moment. I just... need to get this out. I'm not seeking any kind of attention by this. Frankly, I don't care what any of you think. This is just me trying to get this out before I lose my head.

Today I lost someone very special to me. My Cousin and my very first best friend.

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Heh. We grew up together and though I'd never admit it to you, I always looked up to you. You were always so cool. Everything I wanted to be. Even later in life, I couldn't help but wish I had half the guts you did. You found what you wanted in life and took it by storm.

Haha. Sleeping over at your house when we were younger, even though we lived right next door to one another. Playing Power rangers. You were the best White Ranger. lol. Then coming up with the most insane ideas of shit we could do, even if it drove our parents mad. Heh. Even those awkward moments of growing up as boys. Finding your dad's porn stash. Haha. Man... and even when we did have to go separate ways in life, I never forgot those nights that you were there for me when I needed you most. Hiding under the blankets while a shitstorm brewed all around us. Teaching me how to play video games and, "Adam! You don't have to move the controller with every thing you do!" haha. I had a bad habit of that all the time. Took me forever to stop. Exploring your spooky attic when you moved into that new house. I still haven't seen as many bats in my entire life.

I think, even when I moved away, I always missed hanging out with you most. Then we got older and discovered IM. The weird conversations we had about women and other nonsense. You always liked the older ones. hahaha. Experience, you'd say.

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Life is just so unfair. That beautiful girl of yours. Already lost her mom. Now she won't get to know her awesome dad either. She will always be on my heart. I hope and pray she grows up just like you. I have the highest hopes for her. and don't worry./ If I get the chance, I'll chase those guys away too, for ya. Though, I wish you could do it yourself.

I hope one day, my kid will find a friend like I had in you.

You were my cousin, but more than that to me. A best Friend. A brother. A hero.

You will forever be missed. You have a family here that has always and will always love you. Someday... I truly hope we meet again, but until then, you always have a place in my heart.

R.I.P. Thomas Newsome

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I'm very sorry for your loss Guru *hugs*

:'( I'm sorry.

*Inhales and exhales deeply*

My sincerest condolences.

Praying for you and your family, Guru.
You have my sympathy. I think we all know what it's like to lose a loved one.

T.T -hugs Guru-

I love you Adam and I'm sorry for your loss. <3
I wish I could give you a big hug!!! :C

I wish I could hug you right now.

My sincerest condolences, that is a feeling that no one should ever have to feel.

Sorry dude, I can only imagine how much that sucks. :(

You have my sympathies for your loss. But grieve not, my friend. For though you can not carry on as you once did, you will always carry the memories of the ones you held so dear. Cherish them, never lose them, and they will live on in your heart and mind always. They may be gone, but they live on through you and everything you've learned from and become because of them.