Jeanie was already fumbling at the buckle on her seat belt when Jason motioned her over to Todd. She’d been a fool, mentioning his awful morning when he’d already said he didn’t want to talk about it. She felt terrible and flew to him, her beat-up white keds kicking up the dust from the side of the road.
“Oh Todd! I am so sorry! You must think I am stupid and mean for mentioning it when you told me not too.”
She threw her arms around his neck, pulling him into her softness and peppering his head, cheek and ear with kisses before laying her head down on his shoulder. She was careful not to squeeze tight on his wounded chest and add physical injury to emotional injury. This was the sort of thing she always did, this heedless opening of her mouth and spilling of secrets. She’d just wanted to talk to Jason, to tell him something he didn’t know, to be helpful and offer insight and thus make him happy but in that action she had made Todd unhappy. She mentally kicked herself, waiting for Todd to shrug off her arms and look at her like she deserved to be looked at.
She closed her eyes and savored the feel of him in her arms as if it might be the last time she felt it because he was going to push her away, she just knew it and if the world was going to end she didn’t want to be alone.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t think I just spoke will you forgive me? You’ll have my help no matter what but I just want you to know how sorry I am.”
She felt him crying and felt twice as bad for her careless words. Her mind scrambled looking for something to say to make him feel better but she came up with nothing so she continued to hold him and rub his back and hope that it was enough.






