{[Amyisakilljoy]} Jealousy is the worst thing of all {[Thedookienut]}

[thedookienut]

Ben looked round when Kat walked over. He passed her a smile and considered stubbing out his cigarette, but thought against it after a while. He rubbed his forehead and sighed. "You seem happy?"

[AmyIsAKilljoy]

Kat smiled "That's because I am totally drunk off my tits right now..." she chuckled looking at him. "What are you doing out here? It's like...really really late...like three in the morning late."

[thedookienut]

Ben raised an eyebrow and shrugged. "Couldn't sleep." It was the truth. Not something he told Kat often enough now that he thought about it. He was never too sure how she'd take the entire truth though.

[AmyIsAKilljoy]

She nodded "I don't think I'll be sleeping any time soon either, mind if I chill with you?..." She asked. She looked out at the city, trying to calm down slightly a bit.

[thedookienut]

Ben shook his head. He wished he could be as happy as she was now. He'd wrecked that chance a good while ago. "Where'd you get off to anyway?" He asked a short while later.

[AmyIsAKilljoy]

Kat shrugged "Uhh... a place called...uhh, legend or something. I dunno..we went to lots of places. They were all pretty similar...I think.." she said trying to remember, everything had been a blur really.

[thedookienut]

Ben looked over and smirked, although there wasn't much happiness in his smile. It was humour, yes but there wasn't much of his true joy left. Highschool had pretty much ruined him in that respect. "Glad you'd had fun."

[AmyIsAKilljoy]

"what's going on with you Ben?... You aren't really you anymore. I don't love this you, I love the old you... The one that loved me back." she said. She was one of those drunks that spoke their mind, but also went from happy drunk to sad drunk fairly quickly,

[thedookienut]

He looked at her and shook his head. He was hardly going to tell her he'd spent the last two years drugged up to his eyes and resulted in fucking his brain up. Instead he just looked at her and smiled. "I'm just stressed." It was a reasonable response, he thought.

[AmyIsAKilljoy]

"We're all stressed Ben...But we get past it. You can't just not go back on stage and leave it up to me, Adam and Warren to do your work for you... it's your job to get on that stage, no matter what shit you're going through. This band is slowly but surely falling apart Ben, and whatever we're all going through has to come second if we want to keep going..."