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[Genkai]

Somebody kill me...this college thing is making me suicidal right now.

-falls over from depression as a post for her RPs won't even save her-

[Snowflying]

Hey! Bad Genkai. No feeling suicidal over school; life may be acting stupid right now, but I'm of the belief that you can find purpose no matter what direction your life goes in. Just...try to make the best of your situation, and don't get too down on yourself, okay? And I know it might not be much consolation, but Blond and I are always here for you. ^^

And um, to all...I have some craziness to get done (as in, big projects worth lots of points) before school is out, so I won't really be able to post until...Thursday? Or Friday, perhaps. I'd write it now, but posts take me a while and I should really stop procrastinating.Thankfully we can all post now, so perhaps Blond or even CB (if he's still around) could post first.

[Genkai]

Thanks Snow. I'm trying, it's just really hard. I've spent plenty hours crying within the past 24 hours and it's not looking much better but I am trying...-sighs- This is all my fault, my biggest pain is letting my parents down again. I should have been out by now, I should have not put myself in a hole of crap piled on...but they're being supportive. It kinda makes me feel worse though.

And yes, school. Don't turn into me! Do your work! And CB should post here...I told him he ought to keep you all in the loop. (I kinda wish Bela would have done the same as well to see bye at least) And thanks, it's nice to know I have support...even if I don't feel deserving of it but I've had enough self-pity so I'm trying to do something. Blargh.

[Snowflying]

Hey, I cried a whole bunch last night, too! ....>_<. I had quite a bit due today, so I freaked out and stayed home. Gonna turn it all in tomorrow, hopefully, then spend that day working on another project. When I'm done with all that I'll pretty much be done with high school (just a few more tests in the coming weeks), but the sad thing is that doesn't even motivate me anymore. But yeah, I'll try to keep going 'til the end. Pretty soon here I'll get working on a 10-12 page paper! Yay! /shot

Glad your parents are being supportive though; mine are being somewhat helpful as well. Having support is always good, even when you've really screwed up. Especially then, actually.

Oh but hey. You know what's weird? For as lazy as I've been this school year, I may end up being salutatorian for my class. My class only has, like, 34 people, but still. I...don't want to be salutatorian though, giving speeches scares me. TT.TT. Perhaps I'll purposefully do poorly on these assignments to bring my grades down a bit. XD

[Genkai]

You got senioritis. XD It has no cure, I still have it to this day heh, at this moment. And the end of the year is stressful. But eh crying on campus around people or in an office talking to an academic counselor, not so fun. It was more comfortable in bed with a pillow. But yeah, in a month, this will be all behind us. Hopefully. ^^;

The only annoying thing is that people say 'I've been where you are and it sucks but stop feeling sorry for yourself' etc. It's like...yeah I'm sure you've fucked up your life but you haven't been in my "exact" spot and don't know how bad I feel so...yeah. :/ I know it's a bad day when my parents are the ones trying to cheer me up while I blubber like an idiot. Heheh.

Ohh is that like a "valedictorian" or something? Sounds fancy. Does the highest person in the class have to talk or something? That would freak me out. Public speaking...-shudders at the thought-

[Captain Bravo]

So, I'm just making a mark here to let y'all know that I'm alive... or something along the lines of.. ^^;

Before I post anything I need to read the last several posts, and then I need to make some time to post...

[Snowflying]

Yep, soon school will be over~~~~ Course, can't get excited about that until I finish this crap. Getting excited too early will just make the senioritis worse. DX

Hm...well, I won't tell you to stop feeling sorry for yourself, because I'm doing the same thing. XD. I don't want you to be so sad, though.

Well valedictorian has the highest grades in the graduating class, and salutatorian is second. Did your school not do that, then? Hm. Well, the person who's going to be valedictorian is really predictable; she's like, uber-smart - we've all had her pegged for valedictorian since elementary school. But as for salutatorian, a lot of the people who could've been in the running for it this year opted out of taking some advanced classes. But I took them, and it's pushing my grades up...both valedictorian and salutatorian give a speech at graduation, and I reeeeeally don't want to...>_<

EDIT: Well hey there CB. It is good know that you're still alive; I'm pretty sure most of us were worried about that at some point. XD

[Genkai]

@Snow: Yeah I can't look forward to going to a new school if it's in jeopardy now can I? :/ So I understand your stress with the projects, but trust me, (haha) you'll be better soon. Soon everything will hit you, in a good way! Or a super anxious way...gosh, starting college, I'm trying to get out. ^^;

While taking time to cry is nice (to an extent) it's best to try and get over the crappiness. Boy that sounds tough though...

And nah, our HS had like an honor roll thing (so I've heard...) but I think we don't do public speeches unless it's from the Student Body President and then we have teachers speak for the most part when we graduate. But wow, that sounds like pressure. Well you took a risk going into those classes, you should eh...get sick or pull back the A+s. XD Otherwise conquer the fear. but that's like a last resort type thing.

[Snowflying]

Welp, then you're just going to have to do your best to get into that new school! And if it ends up being impossible, I guess that's what was meant to be. I'm going to have to do my best to get through these last few weeks without everything falling apart. Thank you for the encouragement though; I really hope I like college better than high school.

It is tough. Very. DX. I'm struggling with that this very second. Speaking of which, I should probably hop off here soon...often I deal with the crappiness by procrastinating and getting nothing done, but that doesn't help me at all. XD

Yeah, I took risk going into those classes...but I didn't realize so many people weren't going to be taking them, or that I'm actually doing better than the people who are. XD. I may just end up having to get over the fear, but dang, I don't know if I can do that with all the stress I have already. >_<

[Genkai]

I suppose so. And I hope you don't overwork yourself come college, a lot of people do. (wish I was one of them) But remember, many people don't get out in the "four years" thing. So just have fun, college is supposed to be fun. I think. :| So take classes you want and the stress won't be so bad. That's how it was with my Digital Des-gin and Creative Writing class.

Ha...yeah I need to get back to my essay but....urhg. Just don't go on tumblr, you'll never get off. But you, go work. Once you get going, it should hurry itself along.

I wouldn't worry about it until it becomes a clear deal, you might have to do it right? But try getting a massage or going yoga/stretches. I've found those help me. Of course I find writing useful but I've hardly gotten to do any lately. >__>'