Lilly sat in the middle of her bed, looking around her room, that was cluttered with clothes, and other stuff that she didn't even know why it was in her room but for some reason, she would never get rid of it. She was in her lalaland, her mind would always be thinking, thoughts, ideas, would always be twirling around in her head, her mind would never go to sleep. A soft sigh escaped her lips as she blinked her eyes than stood up from the bed, she kicked things out of her way as she walked towards a calender on her wall. Today was the day, she would be going to a group therapy session for depression. Lilly knew she was always depressed, she ignored it though, it wasn't that she was in denial, she just wanted to be normal. She snorted, like she would ever get close to being normal.
Lilly looked towards a fish tank, though instead of it holding fish, it held a single male Chinese water dragon. "How are you doing today, Draco?" She walked up to the tank and pulled Draco out; the only reason she got Draco was because she didn't want to be lonely at home whenever her friends couldn't come over, or if she didn't have any kids to babysit. Draco was her comfort pet. "So do you think this depression session will do any good?" She asked him though he only stared up at her. Lilly started to walk towards her closet when all of sudden, Grace zoomed into the bedroom.
"Lilly!" Grace shouted on the top of her lungs as she jumped onto the bed.
Lilly jumped with a soft scream of surprise, she glared at Grace, she hated when she would randomly come over without telling her, and without knocking. "What do you need?" Lilly asked.
"We should go out shopping. I need some new clothes." Grace explained as she flipped through one of the books that cluttered Lilly's bed.
"I can't." Lilly stated.
"Why not?" Grace asked as she crunched up her nose.
"Because I'm going to be busy babysitting." Lilly lied through her teeth. She hated to lie to her friends, really she hated to lie to anyone. Even though she had been lying to everyone about her depression, because whenever it was one of her gloomy days, she would say that she either didn't feel good, or was tired.
"Oh, well how about tomorrow?" Grace asked.
"Maybe tomorrow." Lilly smiled at her. Lilly hated smiling, because she hated her smile, she always looked fake and stupid when she smiled, maybe because all of her smiles were fake.
Half an hour after getting ready, talking to Grace, and getting a can of Pepsi out of her fridge. Lilly was on her way towards the therapy building, she wasn't sure if she would be able to do this, she never talked to anyone about her feelings or emotions. Lilly would whether listen to people about their own emotions than talk about hers. Lilly drove down the road, frowning as she tried to follow the directions. That was one of Lilly's bad habits, she would end up getting lost, that was one of many reasons why she hated driving. Finally, though she pulled up to the building, climbed out of the car, and headed towards the door. As the black haired girl walked down the hallway, she smiled sweetly to anyone that she went past, even if Lilly was in a depressed mood, she would whether see other people happy than see herself happy.
Once Lilly found the right room, she opened the door, and walked inside. A soft smile was on her lips as she walked up to one of the seats, and sat down quietly. All of the people that was in the room, looked like zombies, they all looked like they were to their end. Did she look like that? Lilly looked down at her pale hands, she looked like a little girl, while the other people looked older than her. She wondered if she was the youngest in the group? Lilly looked up to one of the walls, it was covered in posters, and she silently read to them to herself waiting for the meeting to start. She wondered how many people would come, she wondered if everyone would tell their stories. Would she be able to tell her story? It wasn't the worst story, but every word she had to listen too, really effected the fragile girl. One of her ex-boyfriends had slapped her across her face, another one had even threw her across a room, but that wasn't as bad as the words that would slice through her. Though it seemed, that since she moved out of her parent's house, her depression got a little better but not by much.
Lilly looked around the room once more, she wondered when the meeting would start, she took a deep breath as she tried to calm herself down. All of sudden though, a girl left the room, than another girl started to throw up her guts, Lilly bit her bottom lip, not sure if she would be able to help, there wasn't much she probably could do. A man went to the girl who threw up, asking if she was alright, than another girl gave her a cup of water. Lilly stood up and walked over to the small group, she kneel down beside the girl, and placed the back of her hand on the sick girl's forehead. "You're burning up." Lilly looked towards the man. "Could you please go find a cold washcloth or towel?" She polity asked him than looked back a the sick girl before she dig through her purse until she found a wrapped peppermint. "Here, suck on this, it always help me when I have an upset stomach." She slipped the small candy in the girl's hand.