Black Rainbows

[VioletWhirlwind]

Blahhhh...last post was too short. But I have to keep Reni's posts separate, as they tend to get long, and I really don't have any plans for Strychnyne atm...other than he's keeping to the shadows and raising more zombies *shrug*

Will try to get to Reni's post tomorrow or something, but just a heads up...I will be gone from the 24th to the 31st, with no guarantee of computer access during that time, though I may be able to get on my parent's computer for a limited amount of time. Also, next week is going to be insanely busy, what with Christmas preparations and work and stuff.

Ok, gtg now to put lights on my tree...

[Pachamac]

You don't need to worry about that, Vi. I likewise probably won't be posting from now until the new year, as I'm currently busy as heck and not massively inspired atm to write. But when things get a little bit less hectic and busy I'll be able to resume posting more.

[Rexaura]

Hey guys! Sorry for the long absence. Finals kicking my butt and all. Just writing up a quick post right now to update the hospital scene.

Hope everyone enjoys their holidays & breaks & all!

EDIT: Sorry that took so long;;; Especially for a short post lol. (About time I wrote something shorter than a page long! LOL) Hope that gives Ash a good lead though!
& Have to get back into my motivation for writing again, ugh.

[VioletWhirlwind]

Should I add a new post, or wait for the update?

[BandageKid]

OOC: Nah wait for the next post.

I have to be honest, I think the RP has become far too overwhelmed with characters and subplots @_@
We need to cut back on some characters and stories. But I don't know how to tie things up without treading on toes at this point in time.
Thats's why some other posters are finding it difficult to contribute at this point in time.

What I'll do is write the next post and I'm going to suggest that some things be put to an end, into remission or stalled.

[Pachamac]

Hey Katy~

I sent you a pm over fb. Have a read and tell me what you think. It explains my viewpoints at the moment and offers some solutions for where to proceed next.

-Ash

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Also AHAHAHA my post count is bigger than you~

[VioletWhirlwind]

Ok. I for one am willing to have my necromancer fade into the background again. Honestly not sure what to do with him for now anyway (other than zombies). The main point of bringing him in at this point was to release the zombies, which he's done. XP

And Freedom...not sure about her either. I'll concentrate mainly on Reni and Foul for now.

Edit: I mean Faul. Reni's nickname for him is rubbing off on me. XD

[Rexaura]

Haha, there are a butt-ton of characters in here right now. Honestly I'm unsure whether or not I enjoy seeing so many folks & subplots running around lol. As much as I enjoy them, perhaps it is overwhelming for an RP like this...

The three SEO experiments I've introduced will just be minor antagonists & will all probably be dead by the time Circle II closes, though I've created them with a meaningful role in mind, not just for creating characters, if that helps relieve some thoughts. Baltimore will bolt by then as well. & Since the problem's been brought up, I'll give a head's up now, I do plan on bringing in a new major character sometime soon (Katy I think I've mentioned this before in a PM over Facebook? If not & you'd like to know about it, lemme know), & I thought out a lot of things for said character way back in October, so his appearance won't be totally random. He & Forrest are gateways for me to help progress the plot, since after Ash's second leave I realized I really didn't do diddly-squat for it.

SO WITH ALL THAT SAID, I also have plans to knock down the major character count on my end as well to balance that out. lol

Also Vi, I had a small idea of how to tie in your nechromancer's appearance with the plot in probably my next post or the post following that, to make it seem less random & actually help me further characterize one of my guys slightly lol. (It also bounces off what you've said about Strychnyne earlier but never mentioned IC.) If you don't have anything else in mind for him, then if it's okay I'll PM you about what I've been thinking on him probably before my next post. Which in the end may or may not kill him in the end, if you'd like to get rid of him lol. I just kinda don't want him to pop up and then die/vanish all of the sudden, haha.

[VioletWhirlwind]

Heh. I wasn't going to kill him...just kinda make him disappear for a while (unless what you've got for eventually killing him is good) . But sure, shoot me your idea.

[Pachamac]

Not sure about the zombie stuff in the Hotel. I was hoping to do more with Strychnyne but that's a recent subplot introduced that I'm not sure the rp needs or can maintain. I like the Circle II issues so far, with either stopping the bomb or going to their base and collecting evidence/rescuing Reni but throwing some sort of zombie outbreak on top is mental and a bit too much. Maybe we could cut that. Wasn't really planning on doing anything with Warrick, just giving a name to a face.

Cutting out my blind character. I like him and have ideas for him but I'm scrapping it, unneeded.

I don't know. Even after doing that I look at everything I've got to manage and I still can't do it or bear the burden for it. I love this rp but it's gone nuts. A lot of that was my fault and getting enthusiastic for it, but I see how much I've contributed and how little some other players have done and it really is quite ridiculous. Kate spoke to me in a pm over fb about trying to consolidate this rp and I'm all for it but I'm not sure how. The writer part in me doesn't want to retcon anything or just leave anything without getting resolved because the storyteller in me hates, hates, *HATES* that, but I'm genuinely at a loss with how to proceed from here. I have a lot of characters, and I know I could handle my own. But like I said before when I left twice, I have way too much to do on top of that and compared to what other players have contributed, it's difficult to go on.

Post size is also way too big and I'm at fault for that as well. I joined another rp in the last two weeks as a break and only having one character in that is an absolute godsend. More than that, though, the other rp is active. At least one new post from *every* player *every* day. It's difficult to maintain interest in an rp that is so sporadically updated. I understand why, there's so many plots going on with so many characters that it takes time to write and takes time to be motivated in the first place to write it, as well as read the big posts. I don't know. I want to continue this rp and I think I could, even with everything that's involved, but I'm concerned with the level of feedback and involvement given by other players in doing that. Some are skilled, some aren't. Ideally everyone would be able to, but they're not, and it's this disparity that makes this rp difficult to continue. Skill level between some players is too high.

And I just want a break and be able to chill. Again I love this rp, but right now it's become more of a collaborative novel than it has just being an rp. Some people who I'd prefer not to collaborate with. And all of that is my fault. I dunno, I had high expectations and they were, essentially, too high.

I'm considering starting another rp that's smaller and tighter in focus at a casual level, that is frequently updated and focused more on just having day to day fun. I'm being mindful about who could or couldn't join it, too. Thinking about only inviting some players who I know are at my level and could achieve something like that, as well as going at a co-gm approach where everyone's encouraged to add to the plot and people who have the potential for that, not just one or two players doing everything. I found a couple of fantastic players in that new rp who might be interested in doing something like that as well, but I'm still thinking about it. Maybe make an interest check and explain what I'm looking for in an rp and players, and invite the people who I know could match that. Also see what ideas/genres people are looking for in an rp, and go with something everyone likes with the hope that it can remain active. Kinda getting tired of babysitting weaker players or being overwhelmed by better. Just looking to have some relaxing fun where everyone's of a decent standard. I think that's why Kim left as well and why James took a break. This rp's fucking ridiculous. (I realise real life comes in the way as well and that's unavoidable. But I also think that if the interest and enthusiasm for an rp is strong enough then players would want to post in that rp, regardless of how busy things get. Still, my heartfelt wishes for people who are busy in life that everything goes great for them.)

That went offtopic, sorry. A couple of players in this rp do meet my crazy high level of expectations so if I do go with the idea of making a new rp, expect a link and note from me and if you're interested, cool, if not, no worries. It'd all be pretty experimental stuff with regards to co-gming and making sure people are flexible and communicative enough to work with one another and express what they like and don't like about things. I cannot stand people who aren't willing to communicate and take criticism, it's unbelievable. I'm not perfect at all which is why I want and need people to tell me how to improve, and be able to actually talk problems out.

Still wanna do BR, just have no idea what the hell to do with it and have zero motivation to move it on. Dunno. Still learnt a heck of a lot from this rp and had a fantastic time so it's not been a waste. Just want to do an rp now that's not so much of a learning curve and is just fun again.

-Ash

And just to give a headsup, this rp requires a MASSIVE, RADICAL OVERHAUL. Again the storyteller in me hates that option, but it is NOT a case of 'characters being thrown back to being minor, but still having their stories eventually told blahblahblah' because it's still way too much work. I've tried *twice* to do that after quitting twice, and even going with that outlook it does not work. I gave it my fair dues and at least tried it, and unfortunately it's not workable. Which is why it's making me have to debate what to do with it. Just going with the idea of, for example, having the necromancer fade away for now but be back later, or having K's 3 SEO characters go minor and cutting character size later (by the end of Circle 2) or whatever IS NOT GOING TO WORK. I have honestly tried that, and even working to reach that is exactly that. Work. And I'm not pointing those out as the only examples of what's wrong with the rp. There's a shitlot. Just giving an example of things that do and don't work.

It NEEDS a massive, radical, overhaul, which in itself is a ton of work. And again, the storyteller in me HATES that idea and thinks that going through with that is an obvious sign of how the rp has failed and will always constantly nag and annoy me. I am anal about details, hence me always mentioning even the minor characters. And when you go with the case of enacting massive change it makes me wonder why not just do a new rp anyway.

I don't know if this rp is salvageable. I hope it is but I am honestly at a loss with where to go from here and anything drastic, as much as it is crucial, will forever annoy me. (Hence why my pm to Kate kind of implied putting BR on the backburner simply because I don't know what to do, and I don't really want to think about it either. I love this rp but shit it's gotten way too hard. =/)

I want people's thoughts to this from everyone. And I mean EVERYONE. If I don't see and recieve constructive criticism or ideas/answers to this from everybody then I'll have to walk away because that would at least show that not everyone is committed or interested enough to give it their all, and I cannot be carrying around other players who are not matching my level of consideration, enthusiasm and work for this rp.

I'm gonna have to decline the idea of a skype call with Kate and James, not because I don't want to, but because it should not be down to 3/4, out of however many players we have to sort this out. It requires everyone. That's what bothers me the most.

Love you all~