Esper's Prose and Whimsy Tavern

[Esper]

I am in death. I am in birth.
I make you feel bold and daring.
I make you feel weak and fragile.
At best I am gentle as the breeze.
At worst I am violent as a storm.
I am intangible and misunderstood.
I take many forms, but known in them all.
I see your darkest depths, I see your highest hopes.
When you dream, you dream with me.
Because I am your power. I am red and chaotic.
Capable of a touch to drive one mad.
You might never understand me, but without me
You will find you lack.

[Esper]

Tonight is kind of a low point for me. Not sure what I am feeling, but I know I want to let it out. I got a D in Math and if I had passed it I would have got an AA Degree. Really it's my fault for not studying harder at a subject I know is my weakspot, but I lost my normal level of cool during the final and basically forgot half the stuff that was on it. That so much isn't the problem. I can logic my way through most word problems, but I also had to demonstrate them. That and the fact the Tests were 90% of the Course Grade caused me to bleed points over ridiculous things like labeling ft. or defining a problem when the teacher had it right in front of him.

In the end it is my fault, because I let my pride get in the way and for that I am very angry at myself. Next semester I will fix it and hopefully not delay myself further over such a senseless thing. No point in getting down about it though, because I won't let a small thing like this hold me back from what I want.

P.S. To not let yourself be human is the greatest error that can be made.

Dunno just came to me. Maybe someone can apply it to something.

For all that is human in me
But not forget all that is not
With eyes locked to the future
Success is my natural high
But how I can plummet to Earth
When my advancement is denied
So every now and I again
I might stumble and might fall
But with spirit and strength
With insatiable thrist and drive
I will not accept less than my perfection
Until I earn my wings to fly.