Kingdom Hearts: Signs of Zodiac IC

[Joshua Tamashii]

"Don;t worry about them. It's something you have nothing to do with. It's my fault and it'll be something I have to correct" Joshua said to Amaya calmly" And I know he ment no harm but I don't like being called anything but my name... you being the only one other then Elyse who can get away with doing so."

Turning towards Rose he looked at the date before cursing out loud
"It's that day already?! Damn I didn't get anything cause, well... I didn't expect to find her so soon" He said, actually looking a bit worried" I'm so sorry Amaya, please forgive me."

Elyse watched Joshua, looking confused
"Mama, why Unca Woshwa scawed" She asked

"Because I don't want to hurt your sister's feelings Elyse. Also I'm not scared, just a bit nervous." Joshua said, scratching the back of his head as his face was slightly red

"Why your face wed"

"It's not!"

"Buh it is"

"NO IT'S NOT!"

[Ryuuku Minamoto]

Ryuuku watched Reno's conversation with Joshua and laughed a bit, it was quite funny to hear that, Jambalaya...that was a funny nickname. He actually liked the one Reno gave to him, Akaeye, it sounded pretty nice, he shrugged everything off and then looked to the oldest member of the team, he then moved in Nagi's direction and with a warm smile he said.-"I suppose you're the leader of the team so...since we didn't get any time to talk I'll just introduce myself, Ryuuku Minamoto at your orders."-He bowed his head and then gazed at him-"Pretty much like all of you I was sent by the King to aid you all in this quest."

[BioHazard]

After the Keyblade warriors learned the skill of Keyblade Gliding it was already late in the midday. The rest of the day most of the them took it easy and rested. The people who didn't reside in Radiant Garden were able to sleep at the houses of other inhabitants. Reno, Joshua and Amaya all slept in their own house. The next day arrived. The Keyblade warriors could do some training in the morning and midday but they scheduled to leave at the end of the midday.

((Just a short post for a TS))

[Joshua Tamashii]

Joshua was in one of the smaller garden sections of the city with Amaya and Elyse. Elyse still didn't know her sister well and Amaya still didn't know Elyse very well so he had taken the two out for a play date, bringing along some of Elyse's favorite toys and letting her lead while he and Amaya followed. He mostly stayed silent and let Elyse and Amaya talk to each other. For the first time Joshua seemed at ease and was enjoying himself as Elyse dragged them every which way, mostly playing catch or just watching the fish swim in a nearby pond. He had to stop her from falling in a few times but otherwise he left her and Amaya alone.

[Letter Bee]

((Collab post between me and Joshua))

The Next Day

When Joshua had threathened Reno with a kick, Ascot saw red. Yes, he liked Joshua, a little. He also liked Amaya. It was, as mentioned, easy for Ascot to like people, which had helped him find his niche in the group. However, the person Ascot felt most protective for was Reno. In the short time that he had known the hetrochromatic boy, the young Keyblader had felt an affinity for him, a bond that spoke of friendship, of joint goals, and even of brotherhood. While Ascot had only known the Magus for a day or so, he felt protective of him in a way that he hadn't felt for other people, and, in his earlier thoughts about who he wanted to protect, the only thing that had kept him from deciding to protect Reno was the fact that the white-haired child had demonstrated that he was able to protect himself.

This, however, this was different. Reno was directly being threatened, and this time, it was by a person whom he had trusted, enough to betray the group. However, not wishing to ruin Amaya's birthday, the boy had decided to hold back until tomorrow, when he can confront Joshua privately. After sleeping on it in the Gummi Ship, Ascot went outside, looking for the eyepatched boy. After a few questions to the helpful populace on Radiant Garden, he found him and Amaya at one of the city's parks. Resolve flooding through him, Ascot went toward the Keyblader/Gunblader, and spoke:

"Reno meant no insult when he called you 'Jambalya' yesterday, Joshua. If you haven't noticed, he does that all the time, and no one has taken offense. He doesn't even notice that he calls people by food names or puns, as I saw earlier, on his journey with me," Ascot was trying to control his temper now, and spoke further:

"Not even Thomas takes offense, and he's the one most easily annoyed of us," the boy inwardly hoped that Joshua would listen to him, but also inwardly despaired. "So, please, don't assume that Reno meant to attack you, verbally."

Joshua looked over at Ascot. His expression was hard to read but he listened to the younger keyblader and his explanation before shaking his head, and replying:

"Apparently it's a habit he has then, and a bad one too" He said" That boys head is up in the clouds Ascot. While it might be good at times, sooner or later he's going to hit the ground and he's going to hit it hard. Better to shatter his delusions early when he can recover then to do it later when shattering them will mean shattering his entire reality." he said in a flat tone "I have nothing agains the kid, but I'd say for his own good, and probably for the sake of others, we ground him. A good kick to the face might be a nice start, if a harsh one. But in this case the harsher method might be the better method."

"You're not a psychologist, aren't you? Because that is a bad idea, and based on psuedoscience, 'common sense' that isn't common sense at all, and an assumption that 'insane' is equivalent to evil. Yes, Reno doesn't think the same way we do, but people should only interfere when 1.) he hurts himself, and 2.) he hurts others. His naming habit can annoy people, but it's not hurting anyone, and nor is it going to in the future. Again, Reno meant no insult. So just leave it, okay?" Ascot was outraged now, and part of him was wishing to pummel Joshua, but the boy still held himself, breathing in and out. But part of him was now trying to assess Joshua's strengths and weaknesses, at least, what he observed about them.

"Again, Reno isn't hurting anyone, so let it go."

"... You're rather mad I threatened to hurt that child aren't you?" Joshua asked "Still you're wrong on several things Ascot. I never said the kid was insane, nor did I say he was evil. He's simply not grounded in reality and lost in his own little world. However such a world can not and will not last, especially given our job as keyblade weilders. This isn't a job for the weak and light hearted. This is a job for those who are willing to make sacrifices and end the existence of those who threaten the worlds. Sora's hands weren't exactly clean when he died. Sure Braig, Dillan, Even, Aeleus, Ienzo, Lea, and Isa all came back but what about Marluxia, Larxene, Luxord, and Demyx's original selves? They never came back. They hit the dust and were gone.

Killing heartless is rather easy. It's like killing an animal that threatens your life, you don't think about it. But what happens if you have to kill another human being or some other sentient creature. People always hesitate to kill another person. And from what I've heard the first kill is always the hardest on the killer. If that kid were forced to kill someone I wonder how long his delusions would last. And if they kept on going and killing didn't bother him, I'd kill him myself becuase that would mean he could kill any of us and not hesitate about it."

If that was intended to make Ascot feel calmer, it didn''t work. Right now, the boy was tempted to stab Joshua with his Keyblade, but decided to hang back for Amaya's sake. Instead, he decided to make one last try at talking, although the words now came with fiery anger, with a terrible threat behind it now.

"You weren't there. You weren't there when Reno fought beside us, fought for the worlds as well. You weren't there when he stood against floods of enemies, or almost singehandedly won against the main enemy, a Tiger, who, though empowered by Darkness, was most certainly not a Heartless. Let me make this clear: yes, Reno is lighthearted. And yes, one can say that he sees the world differently from how other people do, but he's not weak. If anything, Reno is the most brilliant of us all, strong in courage and of fortitude, with a heart of orichalcum hidden behind that friendly exterior. He hates killing, but if he ever has to, he'll endure it if it's for the worlds and those that he loves."

In those words were a sense of trust in Reno, a trust that surprised Ascot as much as it comforted him. He was prepared to defend the other boy's reputation, even to the point of risking a painful duel.

"I won't let you hurt him, if you even could," the last part was a self-reminder that Reno can probably take on Joshua by himself. Then, another surge of resolution came over Ascot, now that the metaphorical gauntlet had been thrown.

"No, I won't let you hurt him." And with that repetition came a tone of assurance; a belief that Ascot can fight Joshua; not necessarily win, but wound the other boy enough that he wouldn't think of coming after Reno, or insulting him behind his back.

Joshua Raised an eyebrow at Ascot comments
"My, my, grew a bit of a backbone have we" He said. His tone wasn't agressive or insulting, but rather calm and friendly "Bout time. But that's a topic for another time. We're here about Reno aren't we? And you're right I wasn't there with you. However I don't care either. That enemy you fought, while intellegent, was almost a heartless and an animal in the literal sense. Reno would probably fear as guilty killing it as he would killing the average heartless. Place an actual human life in his hands. We'll see how he reacts. As for you stopping me Ascot, well, if I do hit him I'll be once and done until he ticks me off again. Sides you never know what a hit to the head can do for a person."

"You don't know Reno, so stop acting like you do!" Ascot finally raised his voice, angrier now. "Let me make this clear: leave off him!"

"And if I don't?" Joshua asked calmly.

"The canyon where Sora fought the 1000 Heartless. Now." To clarify further, Ascot spoke: "We'll fight there, and I'm going to teach you to leave Reno alone."

"Done" Joshua said before he and Ascot were inveloped in Darkness, only to appear at the canyon" Mind you Ascot, you're taking this as if I threatened your own family. Why so serious about this? People fight, people disagree, people hit one another. What's the point in fighting me over something this minor?"

"I don't have a family, not a traditional one, anyway," Ascot spoke, letting the implications of that statement wash over Joshua. "My parents died in an accident, the people who raised me were merely mentors and friends; not having room for a true adoption. My fellow students were merely friends, as well. Right now, the closest person I have to a brother is Reno, and even then, we're divided by coming from different worlds. But right now, being the 'closest person I have' is enough, at least for now."

"So you lack a family and adopt others as you're own eh?" Joshua asked before sighing and drawing his gunblade while taking up his casual battle stance"Alright then. Let's see how powerful that conviction to protect your adopted family is compared to my conviction to protect my friends and adoptive family."

Ascot nodded, and launched his Shotlock at Joshua, launching a series of speedy projectiles at the Keyblader/Gunblader. If he had the time, he would muse on how Joshua Tamashii and himself had similar backgrounds, but right now, it was the time for action. Once his Shotlock had run out, he cast Haste on himself, and ran towards the eyepatched boy in a zig-zag, so as to throw off his aim. His strategy was simple: get in close to Joshua, and hit him before he casts any spells or dark powers.

Sadly Ascot had gravely underestimated Joshua. The shotlock was easily counted by Joshua casting several Reflect spells which then exploded after Ascot had cast Haste on himself and gotten a little too close to him.

The young Keyblader, no stranger to pain now, grit his teeth and endured the damage, using his adrenaline to brush off the pain. Once he reached Joshua, the boy attempted an Aerial Slam, hoping to launch the eyepatched boy into the air like Reno had with Shere Khan, hopefully interrupting any more spell casting.

"Impressive" Joshua commented, seeing Ascot not even being bothered by the explosion before vanishing and appearing behind the young keyblader, swinging his gunblade in a downward arc at Ascot's back.

Ascot wasn't blind; if an enemy can teleport, it would do so to a place outside his line of sight, either the back or flanks. So he used Spark, causing a ring of Light Magic to appear around his body, hopefully damaging Joshua before his blow could land. Not merely that, but although Haste hadn't worn off yet, he cast the spell again to preserve his advantage in speed.

"WOW" Joshua shouted, getting hit by spark but instead of landing on his back he landed on his hand and flipped back onto his feet "Impressive reaction. Not that painful but impressive. Still, if you can spend your time casting a spell while you have Haste, and trust me I recognize Haste when I see it, it would've been better spent attacking me while I was still recovering."

"True, I guess I panicked," Ascot spoke for the first time since joining battle. He then threw a Fire in the general direction of Joshua's voice, not knowing that his opponent was protected against such spells. But even if he knew, the boy would still have used the ball of fire as a distraction for him to get close and use a Slapshot, which, though a weak move, would by time for his Shotlock and Aerial Slam to be usable again.

"Panicked or didn't think through" Joshua replied before blocking Ascots Slapshot with his gunblade and summoning his keyblade breifly to block the Fire spell with his other hand. The keyblade only appeared very breifly, with not enough time for Ascot to finally see what Joshua's looked like but it was long enough to block his spell." Clever, but I've been trained better then that."

"I noticed," the boy spoke before jumping back, out of Reflect's range, and striking with his now-refilled Shotlock, sending out another stream of tiny bombs at Joshua.

"One trick pony eh?" Joshua asked, casting reflect again, but also keeping an eye out for whatever trick Ascot would pull off next.

This time, Ascot used Dodge Roll to move to Joshua's left, then seemed as though he would begin his zig-zag run again. But this time, at the last moment, he would use High Jump, and then, from the air, strike downward with his Keyblade at his opponent, hoping that gravity would increase the force of that blow.

Joshua didn't react to Ascot moving to his left side as he knew Ascot was there. Joshua was used to people trying to take advantage of people striking from the left since he was missing that eye and couldn't see that side very well. So he simply listened and heard the sound of Ascot's feet leaving the ground
~~Above~~ he thought before doing a small skip back to avoid the blow.

Ascot's Keyblade hit the ground, but as soon as he impacted, the boy launched another Fire from his left hand, this time at Joshua's feet. This was to interrupt any spells he might make, so that he can resume a zig-zag run again, and manage to land a hit on the other boy; Aerial Slam was good to go again.

Joshua sighed. This was almost an unfair fight. He had alot more combat experience, as he had trained under Leon but had also trained with and against the other members of Radiant Garden as a result. Fighting Cloud had taught him how to fight foes much stronger then him. Fighting Yuffie taught him how to fight faster foes. Tifa taught him how to read feints and avoid getting fooled. Yuna had taught him how to fight ranged opponents as well as how to fight two-on-one or worse odds. Overall he had the better experice but Ascot had better speed.

"This is a major pain in the ass" He muttered before raising his gunblade in the with the blade pointing behind him. When Ascot dashed forward Joshua pulled the trigger while swinging downward, causing his blade to move fast enough and hard enough to force Ascot's into the ground" Tell me Ascot, if I stripped you of your speed, what do you have left. Also, you're running yourself dry with all this spell casting and offencive stuff."

"True that; best to ramp things up a notch, then," the boy then, swift as a lightning bolt, lashed out at the other boy with his left hand, his Kalis manifesting at the very end of the strike, which was aimed at Joshua's right shoulder. Should that blow fail, Ascot would draw back and unleash another surprise, one on which his hopes hinged.

Ascots blow did land but he never got the chance to move back as Joshua grabbed the other boy's arm and held him in place as he proceeded to plant his knee firmly into Ascot's gut. Whether or not the blow succeded mattered little to Joshua as he kept Ascot's arm in an iorn grip
"Now I'm the one in control" He said, looking down at the younger boy.

"Spark." Ascot chanted with the last of his strength, causing a ring of lights to surround him again. Before said ring faded, he would cast Cure, causing the damage Joshua had done to him, as well as some of his exhaustion, to go away, allowing him to detach himself from the Keyblader/Gunblader anew. Then, he can unleash his surprise.

Joshua reacted little and stood his ground in the middle of the light ring. True he was hurt now but unlike Ascot, he had plenty of energy left.
"Last move Ascot. After this I declare checkmate" he said

Ascot used his Shotlock again, but this time, on the ground, causing a spray of dust that obscured his movements, then, he began running around again, casting Haste one more time, then Fire, and then a Dodge Roll to Joshua's right, hoping that the concealing spray protected him. He had to win, he had to protect his new adopted brother. Then, he rolled again, this time towards Joshua, before trying Aerial Slam, which he hadn't managed to use last time, on the other boy. If he can just land a single blow, get Joshua up into the air...

No, best not to trust in that. This time, when Joshua made his countermove, Ascot would use his superior speed, and his Kalis to parry said move, whether it was with the Gunblade or the Keyblade. After that, he would use the aforementioned superior speed to kick Joshua in the gut as he had done to him just a short while ago. His hopes were in melee, in getting close to Joshua and interrupting his moves. He needed to do this!

"I win" Joshua said the moment Ascot kicked up a dust cloud. Raising a hand he summoned Vaelfor, who blew away the dust cloud with a single beat of her wings, allowing Joshua to see Ascot, who laughed another Fire spell at him before charging in from the side. Valefor rose up in the air and began charging energy while Joshua remained still. The Fire spell hit him but just the barest second before Ascot hit him with Aerial Slam Joshua used Dark Slide and his counter was swift and decisive. He pulled his gunblades trigger, causing the blow to move faster and be more powerful as it landed on Ascot exposed back. Joshua held it back enough that he wouldn't sever Ascot's spine but the cut would be deep enough that Ascot wouldn't be able to move, let alone think clearly, after it was made."Truly predictable Ascot, truly predictable."

Except that, as it turned out, Ascot's back was protected by a plate of armor, as was the rest of his body; Ascot had conjured up his Keyblade Armour in the middle of the battle - there was precedent, Terra, Aqua, and Ventus also used their Armour at the beginning of their battle with Master Xehanort. Not merely that, but as soon as Joshua disappeared, he had jabbed behind him with his elbow, his magically-augmented speed allowing him to meet the Gunblade head on, with a now armoured Elbow.

"Second Wind," spoke Ascot, as he conjured up his Keybade Glider and began trying to hit Joshua with its wings, hoping to try and concuss him that way.

"You sneaky little backstabber" Joshua said while avoiding the Keyblade Glider. Seriously the thing made too much noise not to be noticed."So what now Ascot. Conjure up an army? Call Reno to help you? Or are you the big brother in this, for lack of a better term, relationship you have with him? Are seem to like being a protector. The fact that you're so desperate to win shows that. Youre using every trick in your book yet I have yet to use half of mine. Constantly casting Haste on yourself, since your too incompetent to fight without without it. Donning armor so that you don't have to fear taking a blow. Not exactly big in the courage department now are you? "

"If there's no rule against it, and if it's not too cruel, I'm using it!" Ascot cried out, trying desperately to hit Joshua with his Glider. "Pragmatism isn't cowardice!"

"My, my, such a child" Joshua said, avoiding the glider and even jumping onto it breifly before jumping off again" Throwing a tantrum... you see that's where I woud succeed in protecting those I hold dear now while you... you would fail and they would get hurt or worse... they would die."

"You act like you're so superior, believing that you have the right of it, that you can just do anything you want, say anything you want, threaten anyone you want 'for their own good'. You believe that everyone around you is useless, that they're a hindrance to your goals. Well they're not! We could have helped, they could have helped. You didn't have to push everyone away, just because you want to be alone! You spoke before of having friends, why can't you think of acquiring more? Instead you make it clear that you dislike each and everyone of us, not telling anyone what you really wanted, making yourself sound selfish instead of independent. Well I don't like being pushed away, especially by someone whom I would feel better liking!"

And with that, Ascot used another Spark, hoping that the Glider's presence would expand its circle and assail Joshua.

"And you used your Summon first, if I don't recall."

"... Ascot what the difference between a regular fight and a fight with personal feelings?" Joshua asked. Spark didn't touch him since it centered around the caster and Joshua was well away from Ascot

"All I know is that you're wrong about Reno, that he's not who you think he is..." Ascot said, finally dispelling his Keyblade Glider and Armor. "Why can't I convince you?" He forced himself to calm down, knew that if he didn't, Joshua would win. But the strategy he had hoped for had lost; Joshua was clever enough to wait for Ascot to come for him. True, he had flashes of cleverness like Spark and his Kalis, and the obscuring dust idea wasn't bad, but, dangit all, Joshua was good.

He needed to try and get himself into a Zen-like state, abandon the offensive, wait for Joshua to come for him. In retrospect, he should have done that long ago, but, he had underestimated the other boy. So, he took another stance, and spoke his last words:

"One day, I'm going to convince you."

Joshua laughed lightly

"Understand Ascot" he said, turning his back to the boy while raising his hand "I don't hate all of you guys. I hate myself"

With that he lowered his hand which was met almost instantly by their surroundings glowing brighter. Then a rain of energy bolts landed around Ascot, each bolt causing a medium sized explosion. Joshua had Valefor hold back enough to knock Ascot out and damage him a good emount but the attack would not kill him.

You can use Chocobo as a meat barrier, you know, spoke a voice in Ascot's head, which was met by a small burst of refusal as the first bolt hit, then the second, and the third, and the fourth. Finally, Ascot seemed to disappear in the rain of energy, and when said rain faded, it was only Second Chance that saved him, barely keeping him concious.

"I thought...I can do it. I thought I can do it before Thomas or anyone else could. Sorry, Reno, but it seems that you have to protect yourself if Joshua carries through on his threat. Dangit all..." Ascot would have cried, but didn't want to do it in front of Joshua. Instead, he spoke:

"You don't have to hate yourself now. At least my helping you had a positive result." And then, he collapsed, finally giving out.

After Ascot finally passed out Joshua walked over to him, being cafeful not to fall in some of the newly made craters. He took out a potion and poured it into Ascot's mouth, waiting for the younger boy to come back around. True he would be sore for a while but it was better then being dead.

The boy woke up quickly, saying:

"Ugh...I lost. It seems that I have a lot to learn." He then looked Joshua in the eyes. "You're still wrong about Reno though; he's one of the strongest of us; stronger than you or me."

"And, if anyone's going to be hating themselves, it should be me. You managed to save the person you love; I, meanwhile, adopt people as my brothers yet fail to protect them."

"I only saved her recently," Joshua said "When it really mattered though I failed her. I deserve to be unhappy for at least twice as long as she suffered."

"That's not true!" Ascot was outraged again, but this time, not at Joshua, but for him. It was easy for the boy to change moods, depending on the needs of those around him.

"Listen Joshua, you're not a bad person. You're strong and skilled and you do care about Amaya, and she does care about you. So please, don't say such things about yourself." It was also easy for conviction to enter Ascot's voice, so easy that a joke about revolving doors can be made. But, yes, Ascot was genuinely sincere about what he said, which was surprising, actually.

Joshua let out a slight laugh before standing up and turning around and saying:

"You're too kind Ascot" He said" Don't lose that kindness as you grow up."

"Thanks, Joshua," Ascot spoke greatfully, "I'll try not to."

END

[NanashiAmaya]

Amaya enjoyed her first birthday back from captivity. It was werid without her father. She hated the fact he was consumed and did what he did. At first, she felt sad not having her whole family there but she was suprised at how happy her mother and sister and Joshua was without him around. She was surprise of all the people that she meet and the presents she had received out of the blue.. she cried inside of surprise from how much she had missed and how much people had cared she returned.

The next day amaya went to the park with her sister and Joshua. Amaya didn't know really what to say that Elyse would answer right without confusing amaya as it seems Elyse was more concern of having fun and enjoying her time to play. Amaya found herself sitting beside Elyse watching the fish as amaya named each one for Elyse. She looked over her shoulder seeing ascot finally found them. She sighed feeling this wasn't a happy meeting seeing ascot and Joshua soon left.

Amaya got. Up wiping herself off before picking up Elyse "let's find Joshua "she said to Elyse taking their time finding Joshua and ascot in the middle of the fight. She sat at a distance waiting for them until her eyes widen hearing Joshua say something that really sat her off. She had Elyse stay as ahe moved to Joshua before she lifted a hand slapping him across the face with all the force she could bring herself to slapping leaving a dark hand mark "if you think you should suffer for as much as I have then you have changed alot more and proved I don't know you like I thought... it is not like I wat you to suffer I am not alive to cause you to wish to suffer." She said " what happened isn't suppose to be a burden for you to handle. No one knew that night I would be taken like that ...It wasn't. Your fault, it was mine, I knew that night something was off but I couldn't sleep"she said "don't ever EVER say you should suffer because I suffered a little bit of beatings here and there. You.need to focus on the here and now...this is not just your battle,everyone is in this...even you can't do this all alone..."she said in one breath panting as she turned around. "Reflect on the fact you have friends and you are stuck with them and this battle is not just ours and they bare there own burdens, face the fact you don't.have to fight by yourself anymore"she said picking Elyse up walking away humming with her eyes closed

[Joshua Tamashii]

The last thing Joshua expected after the fight was Amaya to show up. He wasn't expecting her to slap him with the force she did or for her to yell, though her voice wasn't really that loud, the way she did either. He had forgotten how she got when she got angry. He watched her leave for a few seconds before turning to Ascot
"I suggest you don't move for a bit then head back to the town ASAP for proper treatment" He said before running after Amaya. He kept a bit of distance until they reached the entrance into Radiant Gardens, at which point he ran up to her and gently grabbed her shoulder" Hey... listen uh... can we maybe talk about... what I said back there... please?"

Elyse kept switching her attention from Joshua to Amaya, slightly curious about what they were talking about and also confused about it as well.

[NanashiAmaya]

"Don't touch me...why should we talk...it wont solve nothing, I know your heart has darkened a lot since I left but never should you of all people shouldn't be suffering of something you didn't cause "she said getting her shoulder free from his grip as she turned towards him wiping her eyes "what you said about Reno is not from your happiness but anger ..
atleast he remembers you existence,even if it means a werid name. I understand you like to just not have friends or having to have gone through what you did or even do what you had too. However, this is alot bigger then us Joshua Ann's the more you fight change the deeper your own darkness consumes you...Ifear a lot for you cause I don't know how deep your heart is for it might be too far for even me to reach...I don't want to see you this way Joshua .."she said gently quickly wiping stray tears away as she hated crying infront of him the most cause afterwards she feels pathetic for crying in the first place

[Joshua Tamashii]

"Amaya... damnit don't cry" Joshua said, reaching out and helping Amaya wipe away her tears"... Maybe I have been acting like an idiot. Pushing the others away is something I probably shouldn't have done and something I mgiht regret later but... I suppose I've always been that way and it got worse after you vanished. I'll admit I blame myself for that. You say it your fault though. I say it not your just like you say it's not mine... maybe we should admit neither of us is at fault. Also I don't know how far into darkness my heart has gone but I assure you of this. No matter how deep it goes I will always see your light and return just to be able to see it again. Even as a heartless I came back to you did I not?

Also I'll make a promice to you here and now. I promice to be friendlier to the others and try, key word is try here, to put up with Reno. Forive me if I fail on the last part."