Relationship Vent

[★LunaLight★]

Ok, so basicly I'm being taunted by the image PF showed me that nothing really comes to mind when I think about someone I really love. I've had a bit of a strange idea of what consitutes love, because a lot of my relationships never had a lot of stimulation, and I never really cared for it. Everyone I've ever dated, was just someone who I loved to be around. They were the kind of person I wanted to be with me to share all the little things and big things in life with. In the end, I what I really want in someone is just to be a lifelong partner. I want someone who is always there, for everything. Someone who I can look forward to seeing after a hard day. Someone who can enjoy life alongside me. And it makes me a little sad inside, that I don't have someone like that. Nobody really ever cares to gain that kind of insight on me. I haven't met many people in real life who really hear the entirity of all the things I say, because in the end, I feel like nobody wants to care about me that way. I'm still a child in a lot of ways, and I really don't know if I'm going to grow out of it. I like who I am, but because of my choices, alot of people never end up seeing me as anything more than a passing friend. I was really depressed one month after entering college, because all the people in highschool who I thought cared about me, suddenly have lives of their own to deal with, and I'm not a part of them anymore. I sometimes think, does anyone really care about me enough to try to figure me out...

[Foxes]

Ok, so basicly I'm being taunted by the image PF showed me that nothing really comes to mind when I think about someone I really love. I've had a bit of a strange idea of what consitutes love, because a lot of my relationships never had a lot of stimulation, and I never really cared for it. Everyone I've ever dated, was just someone who I loved to be around. They were the kind of person I wanted to be with me to share all the little things and big things in life with. In the end, I what I really want in someone is just to be a lifelong partner. I want someone who is always there, for everything. Someone who I can look forward to seeing after a hard day. Someone who can enjoy life alongside me. And it makes me a little sad inside, that I don't have someone like that. Nobody really ever cares to gain that kind of insight on me. I haven't met many people in real life who really hear the entirity of all the things I say, because in the end, I feel like nobody wants to care about me that way. I'm still a child in a lot of ways, and I really don't know if I'm going to grow out of it. I like who I am, but because of my choices, alot of people never end up seeing me as anything more than a passing friend. I was really depressed one month after entering college, because all the people in highschool who I thought cared about me, suddenly have lives of their own to deal with, and I'm not a part of them anymore. I sometimes think, does anyone really care about me enough to try to figure me out...

How old are you again?

[★LunaLight★]

How old are you again?

18

[Kyuki]

Awww Luna, *hugs*. You just need to make lots of new friends in college! ^.^ Since I finished school, my friends have kind of dropped me, but I know when I start college, I'll get a fresh start. In order to be happy in life, one must live in the moment, look forward to the future, and never let anyone try and keep you in the past. <3 You have a great life ahead of you, and you will make a guy/girl very happy someday. Just keep your chin up, and live life for yourself, don't worry about silly relationships. One will come when you least expect it. c:

[★LunaLight★]

Awww Luna, *hugs*. You just need to make lots of new friends in college! ^.^ Since I finished school, my friends have kind of dropped me, but I know when I start college, I'll get a fresh start. In order to be happy in life, one must live in the moment, look forward to the future, and never let anyone try and keep you in the past. <3 You have a great life ahead of you, and you will make a guy/girl very happy someday. Just keep your chin up, and live life for yourself, don't worry about silly relationships. One will come when you least expect it. c:

*hugs*, I know everything will work out. I just need to keep my spirits up. I know I have these feeling looming inside me, but there is a lot more than just that. I'm still a very happy optimistic person, but occasionally I have to sort out thoughts like these. I can't pretend that I'm not sad, because I am. But sadness has its perks, because then you get to have friends reassure you that everything is gonna be alright, and then you get right back up guns firing.

[Kyuki]

*hugs*, I know everything will work out. I just need to keep my spirits up. I know I have these feeling looming inside me, but there is a lot more than just that. I'm still a very happy optimistic person, but occasionally I have to sort out thoughts like these. I can't pretend that I'm not sad, because I am. But sadness has its perks, because then you get to have friends reassure you that everything is gonna be alright, and then you get right back up guns firing.

Yeah, I know how you feel. x) I've given up on stuff like relationships and such for now. Definitely healthy to vent sometimes, I do it often. :P

[★LunaLight★]

Yeah, I know how you feel. x) I've given up on stuff like relationships and such for now. Definitely healthy to vent sometimes, I do it often. :P

I still want someone.

[Foxes]

Never mind the age question. Actually, I'm not going to participate in this at all. If I took the time to write a post, I'd be asking why having a boyfriend is so goddamn relevant to what are pretty clearly issues of self-esteem and the need for validation, and that finding a solution to these problems should not entail having an orgasm dispenser on call, but I'm fairly certain you'll nod your head in agreement with me and then go on to do absolutely nothing to change your circumstances. That's how Spam's angsty teens always handle it. Why waste the effort, eh?

[★LunaLight★]

Never mind the age question. Actually, I'm not going to participate in this at all. If I took the time to write a post, I'd be asking why having a boyfriend is so goddamn relevant to what are pretty clearly issues of self-esteem and the need for validation, and that finding a solution to these problems should not entail having an orgasm dispenser on call, but I'm fairly certain you'll nod your head in agreement with me and then go on to do absolutely nothing to change your circumstances. That's how Spam's angsty teens always handle it. Why waste the effort, eh?

Do you want an answer?

[Foxes]

Do you want an answer?

I didn't really ask a question, but hey, shoot.