Hello Spammers, it's time we had a little chat. Not long, but important . T.Y.

[Turtlicious]

As my time on the guild starts to become threatened, and I realize my position here becomes more tenuous, I start to realize certain unalienable facts about myself, and introspection had become rampant. I have used the members here as my emotional punching bag because I'm upset, I realized that wasn't right but did it anyways. If you had asked me why, I would say it was my right. That I alone could say and do whatever I wish, for reasons I do not think I can ever adequately explain, (though I'm sure elitism, fear of change, and my own personal problems had a lot do with it.)

I have the desire to change that now, I'm tired of this new facade, these charades I play where I tout myself as a bumbling aggressive idiot. That time is at a close, some of you knew how I was before that, some of you don't. The ones who do, know I can be charming, intelligent, and incredibly perceptive. I plan to become myself once again, but before I do. There are some burnt bridges I must try to re-build, and some people who could have been affected by my attitude, who I need to apologize too.

So I've made this thread, as a public apology to the denizens of Spam, and more importantly RPG. It is a contract and a reminder to myself that I can not lash out at my friends when I have so few of them, on or off the web.

I promise to become a better person here, and participate in a better way.

So I'm sorry to all of RPG for my recent behaviors, and to the following people.

I've called you both Spergs, (short for Aspergers,) as an insult, it was uncalled for and even though you seem to have let it slide, I'm sorry.

I told people you have high function autism, even though I have no proof. You can be fun when you're being Normal.

I treated you like shit for 4 months, even though I've gotten better, it is still not right.

I've acted like a douche to you and have been over-sensitive, you are one of the few people I can call a friend.

I called you many things, an elitist, a bible thumper, an overly zealous idiot who would rather glass a nation then pinch a penny, and probably more. Not to mention recently I've been in an escalating... whatever the hell that was. I'd like to call it off if you'll allow me.

When you were pretending to be suicidal for attention, that really bothered me for personal reasons. It was also transparent, but that didn't give me the right to snap at you the way I did.

I'm sorry you didn't make it into the above list, it's because I either didn't want to seem insincere, or I've forgotten what I've done to you. Which is the worst thing of all.

[HaloAssault]

I wondered what had happened to you. You seemed to have changed so much between the last time I was active here and now... massive kudos for being so honest with yourself, and for having the decency to apologise to those you've wronged. Hoping you'll come back the bizarre but decent person you were when I became active here.

[Turtlicious]

Well that's what I hope to do.

[TP]

Maybe now I won't call you a cunt.

[ActRaiser]

I'm sorry you didn't make it into the above list, it's because I either didn't want to seem insincere, or I've forgotten what I've done to you. Which is the worst thing of all.

[Jorick]

Cool. Let's hope the contrition and desire to change your ways remains after some of your infractions expire and you regain a buffer against a permaban. I'm the last person to call bullshit on someone being a dick if they're playing it for humor or at least being entertaining about it, but your recent activities have been awful. I hope you do get back to acting like you circa a few months ago, because that Turt was bearable.

[Kyuki]

Turt this is great! c: If you ever need to talk, I'm always here. It takes a lot to apologize. Nice work. <3

[Scribz]

Wurd Turts. Wurd c:

[Omega]

[Turtlicious]

XD I was really expecting, "Oh Turt you're such a jerk F*** YOU!"