The Ramblings of the Riddle

[CaughtInTheRiddle]

It’s raining.

Maybe I’m pissed off because I can’t find a job. Maybe I’m sad because no matter how many jobs I apply for, I don’t even get one email back. Maybe I’m lonely because I have no friends left to talk to – simply because I drive them away. Maybe I’m worried because my life is spiralling downwards and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Anxious. Angry. Frustrated. Confused.

I’m lost.

I don’t know what I’m supposed to do to pull myself out of this giant bottomless pit I seem to have dug for myself. I’m lost – I don’t know where to go or what to do. I don’t know what stops me from sitting down with my parents once in a while to eat dinner; maybe it’s my past with my father. I don’t know what stops me from even talking to the man – but hey, each to their own, I suppose. I don’t know what stops me from picking up the phone every once in a while and calling my best friend’s mother – maybe it reminds me too much of her; it’s not like I even visit her grave, let alone know where it is. I visit another friend’s grave more often, and I hardly knew him. Does that make me a bad person? The fights. The painful words. The broken bonds. My lost friends.

Who am I?

I try to change myself to suit everyone. One day I might be a happy bubbly girl who likes shopping; the next, I hate the world and just want to sit inside and write stories. I don’t even think I know who I am anymore – I’m always in my own world, thinking of ways to write the next scene of my story, thinking of the characters and how they would deal with the situations I put them in; thinking of myself and how I would deal with the situations I put my characters in. I always try to give my characters a colourful background, heaps of devastation in their lives, action, adventure – like a giant emotional rollercoaster. I sometimes find myself envying them, because, although they have less than me, worse lives than me, they have experiences, things which have happened in their lives which distinguishes who they are today. Identity. Deception. Lies.

I don’t have a right.

I don’t like to think I have the worst problems in the world. I have a bed to sleep in, food to eat, a roof over my head. I don’t want your sympathy, to be told that things will get better with time, to be comforted. I’m not trying to seek attention – even though it may seem so. I just want a place to speak my mind and remain anonymous. This is my new safe haven, a place where I come to write what is on my mind. I don’t blame you if you want to tell me to get over myself, if you judge me and criticise me. I most probably deserve it for posting this in the lounge – but please, I ask one thing of you; remember that I’m human too, and I do still have feelings. Not only will I rant and rave on here, I’ll most probably criticise movies, books, quotes and songs on here too. This is me. My story. My blog. My thoughts.



These are the ramblings of the Riddle.

[Slendy]

At least you know how to organize your thoughts. For some, it's impossible. You're getting somewhere. ^^;

[Fantasia]

I'm highly interested. You say what i think in my mind. One peice of advice as you set out, although i reckon you don't need it;

Speak out. Hold no fear. Hold no doubt. Least in self. Every word is an ornament on a timeless shelf.x

[Fantasia]

Edit: (Strangely double posted.)

[CaughtInTheRiddle]

Final Fantasy - Turn based at its worst


I swear to God, if I have to sit through another hour of watching my friend play Final Fantasy XIII, I think I’ll put a gun to my head and let him watch the pretty pattern my brain makes on the wall. I honestly think Square Enix has thrown their hands up and said: “Fuck it!”

A twenty-five hour long game should have at least some playable action which is at least enjoyable, but no; they just seem to like watching their customers bang their heads against a brick wall as they attempt to fight a turn based battle and then listen to some random kid named Hope complain for the entirety of the game. It’s like a twenty-five hour long movie with the worst gaming system ever.

Don’t get me wrong, Square Enix has made an awesome series of Final Fantasy; they don’t make the horrid mistake of following the same story line and the same characters for thirteen long and tedious games; they create completely new worlds and completely new characters as the games develop. They have very good stories and spend so much time on the plot lines, it seems as if once everything to do with the story and graphics is finished, they throw the towel in and do the absolute minimal.

Personally, I don’t hit someone and turn around and say: “I hit you, so it’s your turn to hit me back!” no, that’s not how I roll. I would hit them again and again and then I would attempt to dodge whatever they threw at me. I think I sat there for most of the game saying to my friend: “If you were able to dodge that, you would have won,”

Honestly, whoever came up with the idea, Final Fantasy should be a turn based game, is a ‘Class a Prick’ or a sadistically challenged bastard who very well may be the Devil himself. I don’t care whether it was you or the richest person in the world, whoever thought of that, should be taken to the backyard and shot.

I can’t say I hate Final Fantasy, but I’d spend a lot more time playing the damn game if it weren’t turn based or I might even watch it if it were a movie. For example, Final Fantasy VII, Advent Children – it was a good movie, good graphics, good story (for those who could understand what the hell they were talking about) and a well thought out set of characters. The only thing that needed fixing, I could pick out was the fight scenes; although they looked good and were well timed, they were very jumpy – flashing back and forth, making it almost impossible to tell who was winning until the end.

All in all, Final Fantasy would make a good series of movies; but you, yes, you the consumer, keeps investing in the bloody games, which makes Square Enix turn back to the gaming side, rather than sticking with what they’re good at; making Final Fantasy movies. You’re basically watching a long movie anyway, just carting the characters from one spot to another just so they can talk some more about their feelings until the plot actually kicks in ten hours down the track.

That is all.

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Nostalgia, Naivety and a Game of Pass the Blame


I honestly have no idea what our world is coming to – Ben 10, The Secret Saturdays, really? Children these days have become so sheltered, so overprotected it’s suffocating for even me. I mean seriously – watching a fight that’s not even violent; where does that get fun?

When I was six I was watching Dragon ball Z and pretending to use the Spirit Bomb in the playground; when I was six I was watching Pinky and the Brain and coming up with my own plans for world domination; when I was six I was watching Tom and Jerry, The Looney Toons and other funny, wacky, violent, sadistic and wild cartoons – not this turning into alien crap!

Maybe I’m just nostalgic, maybe I was one of those few kids who had the common sense not to run off the edge of a giant cliff, because I knew I would get hurt, unlike Wylie Coyote who seemed to be indestructible in every way possible. Maybe I just find it unfair that kids these days don’t get to see what we saw, get to laugh at what we laughed at... God I feel old, ranting about this sort of stuff.

I want the originality of children’s cartoons back! Ben 10 is like a boy’s version of Sailor Moon, and you want to know a secret? That had already been remade! It was called Mew-Mew Power, and it was on the air for a total of twenty-something episodes before it got shut down because of its low ratings.

You know what annoys me the most; all these TV show’s I’ve mentioned are hardly ever showed anymore due to the amount of violent content in them. Looney Toons is hardly shown on the air anymore, and when it is, it’s when the kids are in bed or at school. I want to know why kids aren’t allowed to watch things like Dragon ball Z anymore, simply because it’s “too violent”.

Fuck that! You can’t blame the violent culture of today on TV; you need to start blaming the things which deserve to be blamed: bad parenting, bad society, bad communities, the war, the hatred, the gangs, the rapes, the murders which take place in our world today – ourselves. You can’t blame the disoriented morals and the twisted views of right and wrong on kids TV!

These days you can’t even tap a child on the hand without going to court; where is the discipline – within words? I’m sorry, but sometimes actions speak louder than words – and you people sit there and blame the crime today on TV. It just shits me to see people blaming everyone else instead of taking responsibility for their own mistakes.

Did you know Bert and Ernie from Sesame Street were supposed to be banned because they implied homosexuality? Who cares if people fight on a cartoon? Who cares if two of the characters are gay? The only people we can blame for the rise of crime and corruption are ourselves and our parents for the neglect and lack of consequence.

That is all.

[LentWhiteninja]

Dragon Ball Z for the win!

Anyway, totally agree on the TV bit. That's not what's corrupting the children, nor the video games. It's the parents either not caring (they never learn right from wrong), or breathing down their necks until their twenty (being watched 24/7 would drive me up the wall, I know for sure.)

Back on topic: nice blog! I'm going to be reading this...

[ladybella]

lol i like this blog,

WHAT?! Bert and Ernie, really? That's so stupid...they were my favorite!!!!! Minus the grouch in the trash can....

[CaughtInTheRiddle]

Yeah, and the cookie monster was ment to be changed to the vegie monster.

[ladybella]

WTF!? Thats just wrong

[CaughtInTheRiddle]

I know -_-

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What should I review or rant about next?