My fingers drummed on the steering wheel as I waited for light to switch to green. My body seemed to be humming, quietly excited for what was to come. I had needed this. More than I realized until now. Though I kept myself busy, it wasn’t satisfying to me. I needed to explore a new mind, new memories. To witness the effect, to observe the reactions, to learn what makes a person tick. It was addicting. It was my addiction. The light finally turned and I was that much closer to the facility that held my new drug. It had been awhile since I had entered these doors, but much to my chagrin they still new me. Welcomed greetings of Dr. Jacobs filled my ears. I smiled in return but kept my voice as I made my way to the common rooms. I quietly opened the door numbered 7, frowning at the number like it was mocking me. I shook my head before schooling my features as I entered the room, a session already in progress. The group leader and my source of invitation turned to look at the newcomer. He smiled at me before turning back to the circled group.
“As I mentioned a colleague of mine would be sitting in with us today, observing only. Please welcome Dr. Jacobs.”
A murmur of quiet welcome filled the room as their eyes fell on me. It took every ounce of will not to straighten my dark grey suit jacket, to squirm under so many eyes. I hated crowds. Hated people in general to be honest, but unfortunately one of the most fascinating brains was in humans. My green eyes traveled over each patient sitting in the metal chairs, men and women within a range of ages, as I spoke.
“Thank you Dr. Chase for this opportunity. Please do not mind my presence. Your doctor is a wonderful mentor and I only wish to observe and learn.”
I found a chair and sat outside the circle, behind Dr. Chase as he began the session again. With most of their focus back on him and the current patient of focus, I studied each person until I came across the man I had truly came to see. The true reason I was here. And as the session continued, I watched this man with interest, observing his reactions and listening closely.