Pardon me, I know it's too late for us to really talk
And I know that I never met you.
But I saw you a lot
And I see now that I'll never forget you.
I used to see you all the time,
Doing so well. So good at what you'd do.
Miss popular and all the lovely
Ladies you would talk to.
And we all knew
That they adored you.
And perhaps I did my share of adoring too.
But I never took that chance.
I didn't dare.
You were out of my league,
That much was clear.
So far above my lowly level.
You stood in a spotlight
Like it would shine on forever.
As if you were an archangel and I were a devil.
But that separation might not have been real.
Like the height you stood at in your stiletto heels.
But at that time it was something as solid as steel.
So if it were an illusion, it was the kind you can feel.
Yet never once did I test it.
I at least could have tried.
Yet not once did I attempt it
For fear of hurt pride.
Because you were a star in the heavens on high.
While I knew that I wasn't that much of a prize.
But I just read your letter, that note that you left.
And a guilt overwhelms me. A lump in my chest.
My heart nearly stopping from the shock and the stress.
I don't know if I could have helped, that's true, I confess.
But now I'll never find out, and that's even worse yet.
But you had so many friendships,
Your laughter seemed endless.
I looked at you envious,
And still you chose death.
See, I don't know if I could have done anything
To change your fate in any way.
But the fact is that I hadn't done anything,
And it's for your forgiveness that I now pray.