I only cut myself when I did something wrong and I'd hear my mom's lovely (barfs) vioce in my head tell me how bad i was. I felt i needed to punish myself. however you never grew up like me or Blue or anyone that had cut themselves so you wouldn't know exactly what it's like to go through stuff like that. Also I don't like talking about it cause it gets me depressed and I was kicked out by my mom I lived on the street and still went to school. (believe it or not it's not that hard to do). And after i was kicked I stopped cutting myself. Cause I didn't have my mothers influence over me anymore. Also the only reason I even brought it up is one Blue i consider a friend and two i feel if people that need the help hear how bad i had it will wise up and stop cutting themselves or feeling bad for themselves and it has worked most the time. (I dont' mean to sound rude if i am, and I'm not saying it worked for blue, but it has helped others). Also for some odd reason when someone does reveal their past it seems to comfort some people cause then they say I'm not the only one.