[quote=idlehands]
Jesus. Get away from all of them. Report it to the police. I know it's hard, especially if you feel alone and backed against the wall. There is help out there and it might not be much of a comfort but you are stronger than this and you will get past it. Your family should be ashamed of not taking your side but that is on their conscious. Please press charges against those that assaulted you.
[/quote]My thing is... I am terrified of going to the police to report it because there is no telling what they would do at that point. (Which has been my constant fear in all of it) There is always a next with them. I /always/ have to wonder what is going to happen next.

[quote=mdk]
I hope you've done this already, and I'm sure you don't need a stranger to nose in and tell you what to do, but on the off-chance it can help.... I found () () that offer actual professional personal help for people just like you. Because there are people just like you, and you're worth helping. I don't even want to hold you up with more text -- get in touch with somebody in a goddamn hurry.
[/quote]Thanks and please nose in all you want. You. A stranger. Has shown more support in this post than any of my supposed "friends" did while this was all occuring on campus. I went to the counseling center and res life before the assault occurred and told them I felt like I was being tortured... and nothing was ever done. My counselor told me I was overreacting and res life told me to commute. Meanwhile my "friends" were telling me to stop being a bitch and stop being so emotional, and etc. 

[quote=Rare]
I agree with mdk and idlehands, get help right away and report to your local police right away. Press charges, give out names of the guys, anything that you know tell to the officers. Your family and friends should be ashamed of themselves and not help you at all. I just going to say this: I hope that you're going to be fine and please go to the police ASAP.
[/quote]I wasn't going to press charges but I have been considering it more and more lately. Like I said before though... I'm afraid of the what-if

[quote=Azarthes]
I quite literally stunned out of being able to form words that make the coherent sense things.
[/quote]:3

[quote=Cpt Toellner]
Don't give them the satisfaction of knowing you died because of what they did, live a full, happy life and be better than them.It's the greatest insult you could possibly make.
[/quote]I just wish I could actually live a happy life. Seems like whenever I start to feel okay again I have days like this.