Kyuki, you have to continue reporting what's happening. If it has gone this far, it's unlikely to stop by itself. It's better to have the cops on your side, at least. If you don't report it at the time, there's no record of it and they literally cannot do anything. As hard as it is to open up to a complete stranger about everything that's happened to you, you need to report each new thing to them as soon as you can and thus keep an accurate, documented log of the awful shit that's been happening to you. And then, when the fucking bastards slip up, [I]you'll have them,[/I] and all the evidence you could possibly have gathered. You can even carry a voice recorder on you, to capture any further incidents. In the meantime, you can get support from the places MDK mentioned. Again, I know it feels you're just going to antagonise these sick people by looking for help, but the exact same people you're going to have all the experience in the world in dealing with cases like this - and in the end, they're probably more powerful and influential than these cunts. They can support you and advise you; they will be on your side, and that's what you need. These people are trying to isolate you because you can't fight them alone. Don't let them. Most importantly, please, do not end your life. There is an end to this. There's no knowing exactly when or on what terms that will be, but it will come. You're ridiculously smart, Kyuki, you could have gone to fucking [I]Princeton[/I] when you were just seventeen. You will survive, you will heal, and you will live a good life, and you will contribute so much more to society and to the people around you, whoever is lucky enough to have you care for them, than these people ever will. Your future is bright enough to be worth tolerating this darkness. You're worth it; believe that, believe in yourself. Now I sound like a cheesy musical, but it's true. And don't ever be afraid of talking to us. When we fight, it's about the stupidest shit and nobody really means it all that much. Anything serious, and we will all band together. You're one of us; we might not be able to do much practically, but we will always support our own if we can. I think I comfortably speak for almost everyone in saying that.