I vehemently agree with everyone here. The idea that you deserved [b]anything[/b] that happened to you is complete and utter [b]bullshit.[/b] And if you believe you are to blame then you are wrong. I don't care what you think you did. You did not cause any of it. Press charges. Get help. And please, please don't kill yourself. There's always someone who cares, even if it's just a stranger over the internet.

I wish I could do more. But all I can do is tell you what others have already said, and let you know that this community cares about you and is here for you. .