Oh Kyuki, there's not much I can add other than to affirm what others have already said. All I want to say is empower yourself. Do not blame yourself for any of this, and do not let any of these events make you feel powerless. If you can't get a gun, buy yourself pepper spray and don't be afraid to use that bitch. Press charges, don't back down, if not for your sake then for the sake of other innocent people who have and/or will also become victims of these monsters. You're scared and you have every right to be, but don't let that fear incapacitate you, don't let it dictate your choices or keep you from doing what's right. Get professional help.

I think you already know what you have to do, you just need to be brave and do it. If I could help you along the way I would, hold your hand and walk you through it. But you [i]can[/i] do this. Don't let those worthless animals take away [i]your[/i] value as a the beautiful and kindhearted human being that you are. Your story brings tears to my eyes, and if I was in your place I don't know if I could be as strong as you are right now. You [i]are[/i] strong, your are [i]not[/i] powerless. I think I speak for everyone here when I say that [i]we believe in you[/i] and our hearts are going out to you right now. You are [i]loved[/i] and more than worthy of that love.

So keep your head up, be brave and face your fears because you [i]can[/i] make it through this mess. I'll be praying for you every day, that's a promise. Don't you dare give up, or give in, and don't ever question your worth because of this.