[quote=Wayne]
I really don't know what to say that hasn't already been said. If you can find a weapon... gun, knife, stick, improvise, make your own weapon, whatever... and you are legally allowed to injure or kill them for the sake of your own self-defense, that's what you should do. If not, and I'm really hesitant to say this because I have trust issues and possible legal problems with the police... get the police in on this. They might be able to help you, because as far as I know you probably don't have shit on your police records like I do.
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I like this stick idea. 
[quote=Drakel]
While being surprised about this happening was stated, the main point I'm trying to get across is that overall you did not deserve any of that and that none of this was your fault. Is sickens me that they did all this to you but it sickens me more that you blamed yourself in any areas of it when it wasn't your fault. You're a nice and kind person and you didn't deserve that at all. You saying you want to kill yourself means you gave up and they win but you're strong Kyuki, you've proven it before and I think you're still in danger even if you keep silent so the best thing you could do is never walk alone again (Be with more family if you can) and fight back against these people and fight hard, else you'll be substance to further abuse from them. We all care about you Kyuki and this makes all your friends here both sad, sick and pissed off. We want you to talk to someone and be safe and currently the choice to be silent isn't safe for you or anyone at all. You have all of our hopes and prayers. I wish you the best luck that anyone could ever possibly have Kyuki. *Hugz*
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Thanks, Drakel

[quote=Raxacoricofallapatorius]
Oh Kyuki, there's not much I can add other than to affirm what others have already said. All I want to say is empower yourself. Do not blame yourself for any of this, and do not let any of these events make you feel powerless. If you can't get a gun, buy yourself pepper spray and don't be afraid to use that bitch. Press charges, don't back down, if not for your sake then for the sake of other innocent people who have and/or will also become victims of these monsters. You're scared and you have every right to be, but don't let that fear incapacitate you, don't let it dictate your choices or keep you from doing what's right. Get professional help.I think you already know what you have to do, you just need to be brave and do it. If I could help you along the way I would, hold your hand and walk you through it. But you do this. Don't let those worthless animals take away value as a the beautiful and kindhearted human being that you are. Your story brings tears to my eyes, and if I was in your place I don't know if I could be as strong as you are right now. You strong, your are powerless. I think I speak for everyone here when I say that and our hearts are going out to you right now. You are and more than worthy of that love.So keep your head up, be brave and face your fears because you make it through this mess. I'll be praying for you every day, that's a promise. Don't you dare give up, or give in, and don't ever question your worth because of this.
[/quote] thanks, I do know what I should be doing but what I should and can do are two completely different things. Especially when I'm filled with a lot of doubt myself. Not to mention I'm constantly being told by people in my everyday like that I'm overreacting and that I should just let it go. Because somehow since it has been about two weeks since their last attack that means they haven't done anything in ages.

[quote=rpg101]
Others have said it in far better ways then I can, but you did not deserve any of this. You are one of the kindest and absolute best people I've ever met (real life or online), and in NO way is any of this your fault. Nothing you've done, or even have done, would make anything those bastards did justifiable. You did wrong. You did not bring this upon yourself in any way, and who said you did is wrong. This is not your fault. You need to press charges. Your silence is what they want, and with it they can go on without a consequence and possibly even do this to someone else. Please, show them that you are not going to just let this rest. You deserve to be so much better off, and I'm so, so sorry you're going through this. You are amazing though, and you can still do so much. We are here for you, however we are only a few, unprofessional, people. We can, and support you and stand beside through (if only through text), but professional help may be a good idea if its possible.. All being said, press charges, carry some pepper spray or a tazer, and remember, you are one of the sweetest and smartest people I've met. You get through this.
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Thanks, Rpg. I just hope I will get through it. And I don't know how sweet I am because according to them and several other people in my life who like to remind me I'm a selfish bitch.