Kyuki, I don't know you. But, I can't tell you or ever express in words how much this distresses me. This pains me, it hits me to the core. 

I have never gone through what you have just described here, but know plenty who have been bullied pretty badly. And, I have a few friends who have had severe depression. One threatened suicide. Both of them are still here today. One is in college as a business major and is doing well for himself. He's already had an internship under his belt and is on his way to a good life. The other has had a less than ideal life, but has gotten himself together and is pushing to get into college now. 

My point is, I understand how you feel. Alienated, alone. You said people have called you a "selfish bitch", and on top of the UNDESERVED, UNJUSTIFIED, BULLSHIT, and DISGUSTING acts that have been done to you… I can tell you, it's not your fault. You may believe it is, but I hope one day you can believe it's not. And, the main point is, for my friends they felt it was incredibly awful. But, they made it through and are so much happier now. Things can get better. You have to be a part of that process, too.

Many of the things said, I agree with. You can press charges. Make sure to have something you can defend yourself with. I know how hard it is to vocalize your own problems with someone else, but try to do it. Even something as little as reaching out to us online here, that's something. 

Kyuki, if you were in front of me right now… I'd give you a hug. A big hug, and I wouldn't say anything else. Knowing that someone cares is so much deeper than words. Hang in there. Me and everyone else here is with you. 

Keep being you, Kyuki. And being you is awesome. You are an awesome person. Know that.