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I know you said to drop it, but as GM I feel the need to at least voice some of my opinions on it. And if I can lift the spirits of someone who seems to feel like I do some of the time, then I'd rather say it. (And no, I'm not getting Smash Bros for 3DS. I doubt I'll even get it for Wii U since it's a game I'm not ALL that into. I'll play it. It's just... expaaaansive.)

If you want my honest feelings on the artwork for Athalia that you ALL have been doing, I have to say that I feel honored. It makes me feel all fluttery inside to know that people are gaining inspiration and then acting on it from my ideas. It's kind of unreal for me to see someone draw my character no matter how well or poorly it's not. Just the fact that someone took time out of their day to draw MY idea. Because I cannot draw Lily to save my life. Hell, when you drew her I even put her in my signature for a good while. (The only reason I took it off was because I get bored easily and like to change thing up. I'll change my sig like... 5 times in a month if I'm given the chance.)

Now, as to why I don't really comment on things. I [b]hate[/b] two-faced individuals and liars. I was one at one point and I will never go back, at least not as a choice. If I don't say anything, it's because I don't believe anything I could say would be real. It's not that I don't like it, but I don't want to lie and say, 'Oh well... it's mediocre.' I find stuff like that mean. And so, normally one would lie and say, 'Wow, that looks nice!' Or ,'Great Job!' I find shit like that disgusting. I'm not going to say what you want to hear and lie. Now, I also can't say anything bad about the work because I don't honestly believe I could do any better and have no room to judge. 

So, even if I don't comment on OOC things, I always read them. I do so so that I can check for things like this. Problems people might have... And to avoid missing posts. Now, IC is something different. Some of you write really long posts that I don't necessarily have time to read if we want to keep moving. So, if I know it doesn't affect my character, I will skim over it. But that just comes down to how much time I have and what kind of mood I'm in. If I'm in a mood to read posts, I will. But if I'm in a crap mood and just want to watch TV rather than read something that... I don't really want to read at the time, then I won't. I try to stay true to myself. Because this is supposed to be fun. It's not suppose to feel like work. And if I'm forced to read every single word you all post, I'd be failing college. 

If you aren't affected by my post, I don't expect you to read it. If I feel that you might not read my post, I'll let you know OOC that my character has interacted with one of yours. 

NK, I know you're busy as well which is why I have commend you on being able to read everyone's post and stay on top of everything. Clearly, you're a better GM than me since I really don't. I tend to dislike going through powers since it kind of... takes a long time and bogs me down when I have other things to do. What I do love, is the character however. I love looking at a character figuring out their role, what to do with them, the possibilities are endless. 

I guess it's kind of like Facebook. People make posts all day long. Does that mean I comment on every single one of them? No. I comment on the ones I feel compelled to comment on. Dude, the Dragon guy looks fucking badass. So are most of the other stuff you do. I feel like it becomes less meaningful if I tell you that every single time. 

I guess that's what I'm getting at. My sister gets made at me for it, my boyfriend gets mad at me for it. I truly believe that the more you use a word, the less valuable it becomes, the less it means. 'I love you.' loses a bit of it's luster the more you use it, so I only use it when I feel the moment deserves it. 'Happy Birthday.' That's so shallow to just post that on someone's wall. It's so easy and so frequently done that it almost means nothing to me. I'd prefer a phone call or an inperson 'Happy Birthday' over one on Facebook. So... I don't really say it. Part of it is me being forgetful, and part of it is me just... feeling like it doesn't really matter. I shouldn't have to say I love you for you to know that I do. I shouldn't have to say Happy Birthday for you to know that I'm there for you. And... I feel like my comments don't add up to much because well.. they don't have much depth to them.

NK, you are an amazing artist. It's great what you can do and I like being able to see you grow as an artist. I think it adds something to the RP. And I will miss you posting your work on the thread. It was kind of something I looked forward to, much like looking through pinterest at all the pretty anime artwork. It became the norm for me. Same with side stuff you guys did. In truth, I may not have always read it because I'd rather focus on using what little time I do have to making post to move the RP along. I'd hate it if you guys stopped that because then that means that you've lost interest in Athalia and that breaks my heart. I LOVE seeing you guys do stuff like that. There are no words I could say that would prove to you how much they do in fact mean to me. I can't say anything for other people, but this is what I feel.

Without you guys and what YOU do, Athalia would not EXIST. It would just be another stupid idea in my head that never took up off the ground. Like many of them. Trust me, I have moments where I feel like I shouldn't even try, that I'm useless. That I can't do anything right and... I have my low moments. Moments where I just need some warm to hug and a shoulder to cry on. 

Now, I can't help you on inspiration. That something you have to find yourself. I can, however, try and convey how much you all mean to me, each and every one of you. I got Chik-fil-a before coming here and I haven't eaten a bite of it yet because I wanted to make SURE I got this out to you guys. I hate seeing people feel like what they do isn't appreciated or seen. Because it is. It is an integral part of Athalia. Knowing that someone is making a comic out of an idea I sparked, I helped create, is.. I literally can't describe it. And I hope that all of you feel the same way. Someone took what you helped create and is making something REALLY cool out of it. If you aren't in awe of that, then I really don't know how you function.
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Anyway, my food is getting cold... and I have work I need to do because college SUCKS. Otherwise, I'd be here. Doing more. But ye. Gatta do what you gatta do.