That is something you are totally right about! Always follow your own instinct and you will get where you have to be :)   About the feeling that your country doesn't know what it wants I can say: I know that feeling.. the politician's are wanting less people from other lands like turkey and Morocco and Syria and such / much more  in our country but they keep the gates open for everyone.. They complain about the criminal records and so but treat the 'villain' as a king during his prison time..