Ed tried to open his eyes but every attempt was tough. It felt like opening a can of sardines with his bare hands but with minimal strength being exerted. Maybe it was the bright lighting that forced him to shut his eyes down or perhaps the bed where he was resting on was just too comfortable. Regardless, he didn't even notice where he was not after acquiring the familiar scents present inside a hospital. Ed finally managed to open his eyes, squinting for the first couple of seconds before spotting a familiar face sitting right in front of him.
"Thank goodness you're awake." Robert said with great relief sailing within the tone of his voice.
Ed ignored him and quickly got himself up on his torso, moving his head from left to right. He noticed a few IV poles surrounding his bed and an equipment that monitored his vitals and beeped at several intervals. Every turn built a tension inside him but he couldn't describe it. It made him breathe faster and harder which immediately lured Robert's attention.
"Hey," Robert assured Ed with a pat on his shoulder. "Everything's fine. Just calm down and relax. I know last night was quite disastrous but you should put that thought away for a while."
"C-Charlene....where's Charlene?" Ed's voice shivered. Apparently, he remembered well of what happened and he certainly wasn't happy that he did.
"Her situation is devastating and I--"
"You think she'll make it?" Ed was only eager to know if she will or not. Whatever Robert would say that doesn't concern it wouldn't matter.
Robert slowly shook his head as he closed his eyes and wore a frown. He planned to take on Charlene's situation slowly on Ed but he knew that in the end, it would still be the same; a loss that was unwanted. Robert felt sorry for himself but he knew that there wasn't anything he could do to avoid the loss. What scared him was Ed and how he was ready to blame himself for what had happened.
"S-Sh-Shit." Ed felt a suffocating sensation from his lungs, as if someone's hands were wrapped around his neck and tried to choke him to death. He didn't want to cry but then after his thoughts swam on saving Charlene in the first place, eventually ended him in sobs. "If only I saved her..."
"Don't blame yourself Ed. It's not your fault. None of it ever was."
"It is Robert," Ed paused to rub the tears that blurred his vision. "and don't tell me that it isn't because you weren't there."
Robert stared down from Ed. He had no intentions of starting an argument.
"Okay look, just stop crying because it's the first time I've seen you in tears and it honestly doesn't fit you," Robert paused for a short gasp. "and second, you need to relax. You have a humanities report on Friday and a press meeting for your upcoming forum. You need to prepare for that."
Ed seemed to have his attention drifting from the things Robert said. He still sobbed, with his right palm wrapped around his mouth.
"Ed. You don't have to worry. I also express my sincerest sorrow for Charlene since she's a good friend of mine. But you shouldn't act as if you deserve the same fate as her. People die but I know deep inside that they don't wish to be mourned forever. A loss is a loss, the dead cannot go back to life. You need to look up Ed and move on because that's what life is."
Robert smiled and caressed Ed's shoulders. Surprisingly, it worked. The words that came out from Robert somehow managed to stop Ed's sobbing. He went quiet after a few seconds then laid himself back on his bed.
"Rob? can I ask you a favor?"
"Anything! but don't ask me to cover up your meeting schedules with ridiculous excuses because the doctor said you'll be out by tomorrow and you just can't be absent after that."
"No." Ed rolled his eyes. "Just don't tell my dad about what happened to me. He'll go crazy for sure.""
"Of course, that won't be a problem."
Ed fixed a glance on the patient's table beside him. He pondered back about last night, about Charlene. He could have saved her for sure if he used his powers a little earlier. A part of it all was truly his fault but he just couldn't admit it entirely. Either he was afraid or just wasn't expecting a tragedy to happen, it will remain to haunt him for a time he won't know when will last.
"Thank goodness you're awake." Robert said with great relief sailing within the tone of his voice.
Ed ignored him and quickly got himself up on his torso, moving his head from left to right. He noticed a few IV poles surrounding his bed and an equipment that monitored his vitals and beeped at several intervals. Every turn built a tension inside him but he couldn't describe it. It made him breathe faster and harder which immediately lured Robert's attention.
"Hey," Robert assured Ed with a pat on his shoulder. "Everything's fine. Just calm down and relax. I know last night was quite disastrous but you should put that thought away for a while."
"C-Charlene....where's Charlene?" Ed's voice shivered. Apparently, he remembered well of what happened and he certainly wasn't happy that he did.
"Her situation is devastating and I--"
"You think she'll make it?" Ed was only eager to know if she will or not. Whatever Robert would say that doesn't concern it wouldn't matter.
Robert slowly shook his head as he closed his eyes and wore a frown. He planned to take on Charlene's situation slowly on Ed but he knew that in the end, it would still be the same; a loss that was unwanted. Robert felt sorry for himself but he knew that there wasn't anything he could do to avoid the loss. What scared him was Ed and how he was ready to blame himself for what had happened.
"S-Sh-Shit." Ed felt a suffocating sensation from his lungs, as if someone's hands were wrapped around his neck and tried to choke him to death. He didn't want to cry but then after his thoughts swam on saving Charlene in the first place, eventually ended him in sobs. "If only I saved her..."
"Don't blame yourself Ed. It's not your fault. None of it ever was."
"It is Robert," Ed paused to rub the tears that blurred his vision. "and don't tell me that it isn't because you weren't there."
Robert stared down from Ed. He had no intentions of starting an argument.
"Okay look, just stop crying because it's the first time I've seen you in tears and it honestly doesn't fit you," Robert paused for a short gasp. "and second, you need to relax. You have a humanities report on Friday and a press meeting for your upcoming forum. You need to prepare for that."
Ed seemed to have his attention drifting from the things Robert said. He still sobbed, with his right palm wrapped around his mouth.
"Ed. You don't have to worry. I also express my sincerest sorrow for Charlene since she's a good friend of mine. But you shouldn't act as if you deserve the same fate as her. People die but I know deep inside that they don't wish to be mourned forever. A loss is a loss, the dead cannot go back to life. You need to look up Ed and move on because that's what life is."
Robert smiled and caressed Ed's shoulders. Surprisingly, it worked. The words that came out from Robert somehow managed to stop Ed's sobbing. He went quiet after a few seconds then laid himself back on his bed.
"Rob? can I ask you a favor?"
"Anything! but don't ask me to cover up your meeting schedules with ridiculous excuses because the doctor said you'll be out by tomorrow and you just can't be absent after that."
"No." Ed rolled his eyes. "Just don't tell my dad about what happened to me. He'll go crazy for sure.""
"Of course, that won't be a problem."
Ed fixed a glance on the patient's table beside him. He pondered back about last night, about Charlene. He could have saved her for sure if he used his powers a little earlier. A part of it all was truly his fault but he just couldn't admit it entirely. Either he was afraid or just wasn't expecting a tragedy to happen, it will remain to haunt him for a time he won't know when will last.