All the new people are lame.

Mono, tell them I think they're super lame. I'm not going to tell them myself because I am a very fearful and frail person, my facade of strength and confidence exists only in my gift of gab, which is itself manufactured and falsified. Like Holden and Max Caufield, I am myself, a phony like those I scorn. My lament is an existential and selfish over-analysis of my own standing and an ultimately barren search to provide some subjective, non-existent cosmic 'point' to my own being, instead of me just being here being enough. If any ultimate truth could be viewed as a punch line, then my life is a joke without one. I am unsure of most things, but I do know that occasionally I house the capacity to harbor a deep contempt for myself.

I'll send you a PM in a day or two Aeon, I'm on vacation atm.

Tl;dr the new people are lame but haha not really I just suffer from an actual untreated illness of the brain and I'm lost in this world, this capitalist hellhole, that I was "forced" in. Complaining only makes me hate myself more, you aren't lame, you are probably nice people. You all deserve love and respect and I want you to achieve some semblance of happiness, love, passion, and purpose in your lives. You're all great, please keep doing your best and have a good day.

Tl;dr tl;dr I hate myself, I think you're great.