She would not believe it. She would not tolerate it. No, she was done. Eve was already snapping, but this was something else. She asked two people for answers and got three people to reply, a bombardment of replies, all of which were unsatisfactory. And Bloodstone was once again ignoring her. All of the replies, along with the commander's lack of one, raised the anger in her, but this last comment...
" 'Us'." Her voice had gone down, but it was very clear from her expression, clenched fists, and glare that she was still seething. The single word started off in a mocking tone, but as she continued on, it was soon replaced by anger.
" 'Us'," she repeated, her pitch and voice rising steadily, "'Us'? What do you mean, 'us'!? Since WHEN was there still an 'us!?'" There is a 'me' and there is a 'you', but 'us' ceased to be once you so blindly decided to follow Aquamarine! And for what? Because she was NICE!? And you," she sharply turned and pointed an accusing finger at Reggie, "Got his word? Seriously!? What do you mean, got his word? That's your justification!? Y-You," she said, her voice broken by laughter of disbelief, "You, you who knows this guy is a liar, got his word and actually expected him to keep it!? Neither of you can be SERIOUS!"
Well, he was just offering to let you go according to Chromite, so apparently he's not a complete lia-I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. THIS IS STUPID, REGGIE'S STUPID, I'M STUPID, BLOODSTONE ISN'T MAKING ANY SENSE, JUST DON'T.
A few more harsh bursts of laughter, but there was a different tone to it now. Disbelief, now joined with Regret. Bewilder. Mockery. And yet genuine amusement as well.
"DAMN, and I thought I was an idiot! We're BOTH idiots! What the bloody hell were you THINKING!? Wha-what the bloody hell was I thinking!?"
No more laughter. No sound. Only the anger in her eyes and the sensation of her nails digging into her clenched hands remained.
"...What was I thinking indeed." Much quieter. Barely above a whisper.
What were you thinking? Nothing, apparently. Calm the bloody hell down, Eve. You sound just like Emerald right now. And Amber. And that's not a good combination.
Eve went silent once she came to this realisation. She let out a huff. A harsh, loud huff.
This isn't changing anything. You're letting your emotions get to you. Acknowledge them and then let them go. Don't let them cloud your judgement and take control of your words. You've screwed up, but don't need to keep screwing up.
There wasn't denying that. At the same time, she wanted to be angry. She wanted to continue to throw a fit. But there was no denying that, and the logical side of Eve, the side which didn't seem to be functioning so well ever since seeing Melanite with Bloodstone, began to take over. So she closed her eyes and thought for the first time in what felt like forever.
Eventually, the silence had come to an end, and with a gentle huff and a voice that slowly but surely softened, she spoke:
"Let's make something very, very clear, because apparently I haven't been doing a very good job at that." She paused to look up at Sodalite, no longer glaring, her fists unclenched.
"I am leaving the ship. Do not think for even a second that I will not. No offense, Bloodstone, sir. "
Then she paused once more, looking at Reggie.
"But I am not leaving without you. Bloodstone, sir, I'm only here to accompany Reggie. I will take no part in whatever offers you have for me. And if you have a problem with that, then by all means, I will leave this instant. But Reggie is still coming with me. I will drag him off here if I have to. And Reggie, sir...Please consider Blue Gem's offer. I don't trust Aquamarine anymore than I do Bloodstone, but you, as a human...You'll probably be safer off in her hands. She clearly cares more about your kind than her own."
With that said, she turned her back to Reggie once more and walk over to Sodalite, her face flushed yellow-green in shame.
You really took it out on her, didn't you? Poor kid risked herself to go find you. Really, Eve, that's awful. Can't get one thing right today, can you?
"I-I'm...I'm..." she stammered, struggling to find words, her eyes averted and her head hung low.
"...Sorry...That I snapped at you. Both before and earlier. I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have yelled like that. I know you were probably worried about me, and by all means, I can see why. And I appreciate the sentiment, I really do. But you shouldn't have. By choosing Aquamarine, your concern should lie with her and the newborns. Whatever happens to me now is my concern and mine only. So please, don't risk yourself for me like that again. I'm not worth the trouble."