Failure is good— a lot of role-playing for me, at least, is the experience that comes with failure and the fact I challenged myself to do it which as a byproduct kept my rhythm. Much like any social hobby a lot of activities within it are trial & error situations where you build your social network and learn from the experiences. I’ve tried the same RP three times in this year and I’ve walked away from it without despair as I attempt to look forward. 

Have hope and carry on.