[@Mistress Dizzy]
Well, I certainly feel like an idiot for not reading deeper into what you said in your previous comment. Sorry for my late reply, the holidays got...hectic, to say the least. Trust me on this though Diz, what you're feeling now is temporary. All pain is temporary, be it physical, spiritual, or mental. The sense of nihilism you're currently feeling at the moment can be brushed aside by finding something that can fill that void you're currently experiencing, be it work, a hobby, anything really. Remember that you're also not going this alone; you've got your significant other and you've got friends and family.  They may be a bit overbearing or blunt in how they choose to help you, but those that are trying to help you ARE trying to help you. As always, i'm here if you need to talk, even if I may not be able to respond as quickly as i'd like to.