I don't know what to tell you guys.

I'm really sorry. I love you all, honest.

But I'm pretty keen on this.

I'm not really sure how to handle this, just...Would it be better if I just left now? Or would staying around until I do it make you happier?

I just...I don't know.

I'm sorry.

Sometimes I wished no one loved me so that killing myself could be so much easier.