Cody didn't answer for a while, probably long enough that it would seem to Gerswhin that he wasn't there. Or wasn't awake. How could he explain? It seemed to complicated, but the realisation he had come to would eat him up inside. He sifted, and gave a heavy sigh, before trying to think of how to say what he needed to. 

'I didn't really eat'

It seemed lame to start with that. And perhaps he should continue from there, anyway. He hugged himself, thinking on the night he'd been captured, hearing the shouts, the screams, the cut of whine of his puppy. His stomach twisted, as if it wanted to rebel, but being pretty much empty, there was nothing to bring up. 

Which was probably worse, in a way. 

'I didn't really feel well. I still don't. We aren't going to get out of here, without blood shed, are we?'

His voice was soft, but it still seemed easy to hear. He closed his eyes, but that seemed to make everything worse. the thought of truly harming someone was repugnant to him, and he shuddered lightly, remembering the feel of his own blood on his skin, the rough feel of the motivators hits. 

He wasn't happy. Pretending that he was, trying to be happy, was getting him no where. He was miserable. He was hurting, constantly. He wanted to be home, with his own enthronement around him. Here, everything seemed hard. Home, he had everything soft, easier on his skin. The constant uncomfortable sensations were drowning him with weariness. 

'I don't think I can kill someone'

Yet how could he explain that...there was a part of him that could kill, if he wanted to. He didn't know. He didn't know if he could live with that part. He dropped his head into his hands.

'But I know if I stay here, and give them what they want, I won't ever get out, I won't ever be able to return to my life, small as it was.. I want them to pay, for what they have done, not just to us, but to the others before us.'

[hr]

Agent Caits nodded in returned to Agent dioxide, as if she was doing just what she should be. Heading down to guard duty, and merely being polite to someone she passed. 

'Evening. Do us a favor, and check in on Subject 30 in a little bit. His behaviour seems subdued and withdrawn. I'm afraid he might try something'

Again, it seemed apart of the act. To discuss the subjects with ease, and request what should be done. 

'I'll catch you late'

Agent caits wanted to get into position, so she could appear at ease and not concerned with anything. So far, she had managed to fool the Big boss, but if Baoning had given anything away, this whole situation could be a trap. it was something se was willing to risk. 

Taking over rthe guard position, she let herself relax, listening to what was around her for the sounds of footsteps.