[color=silver][b]Question 1:[/b] How does player reputation affect you?[/color]

I believe that the reputation of others have some degree on my roleplaying experience. Generally I like to see first hand the problems that occur so that I can avoid some players, but out of the entire community, there's are only a minor few I wont RP with. This is mostly because of the way these people have treated me or my friends.

If you swear at me and ridicule me, if you make sexual advances in OOC to a friend, if you troll an RP you've been booted out of, then I can say I am quite happy to not spend time with you and I would rather spend time with the ones that appreciate my work and company.

On the flip side, there are some people that I am so sad I'm not in the same RP with them anymore. Mostly cause they are amazing writers and good people. Dropping a few names here, but [@Vash], [@McHaggis], [@AirBender], and [@Esoteric] would be some that come to mind as people I once Roleplayed with and enjoyed my time with them. :)

	[color=silver][b]Question 2:[/b] Are you influenced by how the RP community looks at you?[/color]

I suppose you would be stupid if you didn't even consider what the community thinks of you. Unlike many other forums this sites where people just discuss topics and voice their opinion, this site forces you to interact with another human and create a collaborate work. It's very difficult to have a group roleplay when you have a shithouse reputation.

So how does this affect me? Well I simply try the best I can and while I, like any other person, will have my up and down days I generally have good intentions and try hard to make my characters work, to contribute to a story, to get along with the members. I do this because I don't see the advantage in "not" being a positive member of the guild.

	[color=silver][b]Question 3:[/b] How important is learning from your reputation?[/color]

And now the part where I unfortunately rip shreds into myself. I am a pessimist. So to understand where I can learn from my reputation I have to "know" what my reputation is, and for me I view myself as an outsider, someone who can't always be relied upon, someone who seems to always be around when shit goes south, and a terrible GM.

Pretty much everyone of my GM roles are something I view as a failure. GMing affects my anxiety, my anxiety changes me into a different person, and before I know it I am the one that has to ditch the RP since it literally drives me insane. (Hence why my created stories now stay in 1x1s and I have only characters in group RPs)

I don't think I'm a good writer, so I sometimes find it hard to believe that people actually enjoy my work.

To sum up how important it is for me to learn from my reputation... well I need to actually learn to view myself in a better light and not believe that the large majority of you do not wish to have me in one of your roleplays.