I start feeling a guilt arise in me... [i][color=f6989d]it's all my fault... it's never going to change... I break everything I touch... I'm going to ruin Odin's perfect happy ending... I should apologize before I go to sleep..[/color][/i] I get out my phone and text him [color=f6989d]I'm sorry... all of this is my fault.... I can understand if you never wanna speak again...[/color] and then sit off my phone and then, for added pain... I go into my bathroom and take some rubbing alcohol out and put it on a cotton ball. I then rub the rubbing alcohol-soaked cotton ball all over these new wounds and cry while smiling... 
[i][color=f6989d]if I can't have him....[/color][/i] I think, [i][color=9e0039]then no one can....[/color][/i]