[@Ennui]
I'm the type of person that prefers to keep things to himself/herself. I dont like to bother other people with my problems, so i usually try to take care of them myself. Its very, very hard to me to lose my calm, but when i start to lose it, leave me 5 -10 minutes alone and it doesnt matter what happened, i'll come back to you laughing and smiling. As if Nothing ever happened.

But sometimes its not enough. Sometimes you can't keep it up with all the stress, with all the fcked up shit that happens in your life and in the world... you get angry and cry at the same time... call it a mental breakdown. Its kinda of a... normal part of the cycle that makes me able to be the "always smiling" person that everyone likes. It doesnt happen often, it only happens if i'm passing through some very stressfull things, but even thought, its very rare for it to happen.


Usually when i feel that i'm not very well, i dont even get out of home, i keep it to myself, as i always do. But sadly, its not always like that... sometimes it just happens... it already happened to me when i was in an important business meeting, and i just started to cry and get irritated without reason.

Even if i havent done anything to anyone, i felt that it was necessary to explain and apologize myself.