*CRACKS KNUCKLES* Time for me to whine about my own fucking stupid fuck ups!


I'm annoyed at myself for letting a really amazing guy just pass me by because I didn't have the balls to ask him out and I waited and waited like a fool ... I know I can be independent and outspoken, no wonder he was probably a bit intimidated when it came to "the question" ... 

To make it worse, I imagine he's totally forgotten I've existed by now and he told one of my friends he had a crush on me when we were in high school ... Should have just asked him, to hell with the consequences but now [b]I'M[/b] being a pussy ... I know we have great chemistry as friends together and would probably be great dating one another but now its just too late and Im in a whole other city and actually feeling very lonely sometimes ... Everyone I know is coupled off and I had a perfect opportunity to hang onto a really awesome friend and now I don't know if he ever thinks twice about me. We wouldn't have to be a couple but I just wish we still talked and hung out ...