Felix raised his folded hands up underneath his chin to prop up his head as he took a moment to ponder the answer to the question. 

"I'm not quite an old man yet, Nemo. But is it very strange to feel ancient without having spent many years on this earth? My life has felt slow recently, as compared to how fast it felt when I was younger. Things are no longer easy for me, at least not as easy as they once were." Felix paused and adjusted his glasses, then placed his hand back under his chin. 

"I'm not talking about magicks... No, magic seems like the only simple thing in my life. I am talking about thought processes and decision making... I find myself over analyzing my actions before I take them. And when I am not doing anything, I find myself pouring over my previous actions. More and more as I look back, I find myself second guessing my previous actions. I have realized over all else, that the way I handled most things in life was wrong. The people I've discarded for the selfish pursuit of success... The people that I never gave a chance because I thought I knew that I was right and they were wrong..." Felix closed his eyes for a moment before continuing. 

"The church duped most of us. And I have seen all sorts of lies and deceptions from them. And while most of their doctrine is wrong, they do still have a few kernels of truth dispersed here and there. One of those kernels of truth is that love is absolutely necessary. First Corinthians chapter thirteen verse two talks about that. Too many times I have approached situations without love." Felix placed his hands behind his head and leaned back in his chair.

"I think back to all our exchanges we have had together. Do I see flaws? Sure. Darkness and evil intentions? Maybe. But I have looked inside myself and found darkness and evil, so to hold you in contempt for that seems a bit hypocritical... I don't know..." Felix sighed and then dropped back down to level with his chair.  "I do know this. When I look back at our previous exchanges, I no longer see an evil villain that was an affront to God Himself. I see a person who was disenfranchised, and lived according to all he knew. A person in need of, sure love that's the ultimate goal, but there's even a first step that was missed. Hmm... yes! I see a person in need of acceptance in need of comradery. I figure that letting you rot in a jail cell, no matter how long you were incarcerated would never change your mind. The only way to change your mind was to make you a friend and show by example that humanity isn't a lost cause." Felix finished.