What's bothering me? .....well, I am back being friends with a girl I've been friends with for almost 9 1/2 years...... she thought I was shacking up with her boyfriend just cause he and I started being friends.. so after they broke up, she saw how close her ex and I got and then she went after my ex, actually slept with him and then called me a bunch of uncalled for names...........................when her and her ex got back together, I backed out of the friendship he and I had cause I didnt wanna complicate things for him and wanted to respect her.....even after all the shit that happened, when it finally hit that we werent friends anymore, I cried and felt as if a part of me had been ripped away from me....................................................now that we are trying to repair our friendship again, it just feels super different (i know its not supposed to be the same as it was before all the bullshit happened....but....).. I feel as if I am walking around in a dream... almost like I dont know what's reality anymore, and its just....mentally and emotionally exhausting.