[quote=@souleaterfan320]
Hey guys.


So uh... I got some news.

Im.... gonna take a break once I finish this arc.

And I'm done roleplaying as Shinji after this.
Shinji was supposed to represent a physical insertion of me into Myriad Reality, and has become something so emotionally draining that I can no longer use him without spiraling into old bouts of depression.

Its physically making me sick to use him. I'd channel these emotions so accurately that is litterally killing me, and reopening old wounds of mine that shouldve stayed closed. 

I need to take a hiatus after I finish this arc to focus on bettering myself. Maybe one day when I can handle again, I'll bring shinji back. But once this ends....Im probably done for good with him.


Im sorry if this bothers or upsets you, but its negatively affecting my personal life.

Also... I've said it before but I'm going to get therapy soon. My own issues have sucked me into such a deep low that...I've been thinking of suicide quite often... I...I even told my dad today that if things got so bad that I felt that way that thered be nothing to stop it and he shouldnt blame himself.


I've been lying to you all... the truth is, I'm not okay. I havent ben. Ever. I've been better at times, but never truthfully good. Just stuck in a never ending cycle of mostly self inflicted and uncontrollable pain.


I even almost got back into drinking irresponsibly, in a way that I'd drink to kill pain instead of socialize. 



I'm so sorry, y'all. I love you guys, I really do.. .but I cant take it anymore.
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Can't say I've experienced exactly the same, but I too have and do contemplate suicide, so I know how you feel.

You'll find no opposition from me Soul, take what time you need, this will still be here.