[@FernStone][@NoriWasHere] Weaknesses for Too Hot to Handle so you two virgins can leave me alone.

[quote][b]WEAKNESSES  ⫻[/b] (Fuck yo color gradient) By activating Too Hot to Handle, Linqian and Aryin's movement speed is slowed to a crawl, and they can only accomplish a leisurely walk. By glowing hot like magma, the two make themselves a very bright and noticeable target. The spell's super-heated state makes it highly vulnerable to cooling effects like water, ice, or cold/water magic - which can lower the heat and effectiveness of their durability. The Spell also doesn't differentiate between friend and foe, and can easily injure friends or disrupt their magic just as well as the enemies. Too Hot to Handle also poses a significant stamina drain, and can leave the two exhausted afterwards.[/quote][hr]For fun, I wrote up Kari's relations.

[hider=Kari's Relationships][table][row][cell][h3][color=f4eb93][b]Britney[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Williams[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/viOvXFI.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"How could you do this to us?"[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 36:[/b] [i]Britney. Williams. Even writing your name makes me angry. I trusted you - we [b]all[/b] did. How could you? You were supposed to be our [b]best.[/b] Our [u][b]champion[/b][/u]. If it wasn't for you, we wouldn't even know the Apparition Killer [b]existed[/b]. But I guess your idea of protection was a lot different from everyone else's, but who knows what you were thinking. Forcing people to bond with Apparitions. [b]Cursing them?[/b] You acted like you had the[b] right[/b] to play God with people's lives. You ruined Luca's life, you know that, right?

The worst part was how you tried to justify it. It was all for the greater good, and we should all just accept that [b]you[/b] had to make some "tough choices." But who gave you that right? Who? Who decided you could play with people's lives and then wash her hands of the whole thing? Yeah, that's right. [b]No one did you bitch.[/b]

And the worst part? You [b]still[/b] don't get it. You think making a few apologies, a few gestures, will fix everything. You [b]ruined[/b] things for everyone, and [b]you're[/b] the reason we couldn't trust each other. You [b]ruined[/b] something beautiful, the only place I felt like I ever belonged.

So, Britney, if you ever read this [s](you never will)[/s]: know that you can [b]never[/b] undo what you've done. You can't just apologize and think it'll fix everything. I'm not sure you even realize the [b]damage[/b] you've caused but let me stop here. I need a minute to calm myself myself.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=3874f4][b]Drake[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Blackmore[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/Zw9wfIE.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Father Wolf should have taken you instead of Jade."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 172:[/b] [i]Drake Blackmore. You're an idiot. Nothing but an overgrown man-child- Do you even [b]think,[/b] Drake? Is it [b]all[/b] about showing off your magic? It's always been about you, is it?

You were the one who charged off without thinking, the one who couldn't be bothered to listen to anyone else's plan because you were too busy. You were some sort of superhero. But heroes don't get people killed. You do. You couldn't even save your own [b]father.[/b] Saskia is dead because of you, Drake. Saskia's blood is on your hands, and you don't even seem to give a shit. You're too caught up in your own little world. 

[b]Fuck you, Drake Blackmore. You should've [u]died[/u][/b]-[/i] (The rest of the sentence is not legible)

[i]Did you even think about her, about how much she mattered to Lisa, Ella, and[b] me?[/b] No, you were too busy living in your own fantasies, playing knight in shining armor - that you will never be - without any regard for anyone else. Even after all of that, you have the audacity to run around like you're Batman, and hurt more people? Yeah, I know all about it. I'm all-knowing. [b]All-seeing[/b], remember? [b]Or is your head that far up your ass![/b] Kenshiro is wrong to think that you're anything more than an idiot.

Now, you're trying to avenge Jade, when you couldn't even save her in the first place! When I went to her funeral, I couldn't even look you in the face. Jade deserved better. You're not a hero, Drake. You're a danger to everyone around you. And the worst part? You won't even [b]admit[/b] it. You're just a broken boy with magic and no sense. And I can't forgive you for taking Saskia away from me.

So yeah, Drake, and keep acting like everything is [b]fine[/b]. Keep pretending you're some sort of savior. When it blows up in your face, don't act like nobody told you! And don't you[b] dare[/b] forget that Saskia's death is on [u][b]you.[/b][/u] You might never understand what that means, but I can only hope it haunts you until the day you die.

Just to close this out one last time... 

Fuck you Drake.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=White][b]Alizée[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Altieri[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/ZGUJ1xQ.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I hope you win this battle, Alizée Altieri. I hope you get rid of that parasite before he leads you to your death."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 922:[/b] [i]Hey Alizée, I get it. I know there's a higher chance of getting struck by [b]lightning[/b] than you ever read this, but [b]I,[/b] Kari A. Wilson, understand... [u][b]You never asked for this.[/b][/u] The Void Heart is scary. And what he was making you do was... scary. But, the Old Coven should've [u][b]helped[/b][/u] you, not demonized you. But instead, they just pushed you away and ignored your silent cries for help.

You hurt people. We can't get around that. But, you didn't have a [b]choice.[/b] If the Void Heart wasn't in the picture, things would have been different. We could have given you one of the artifacts I found, and everyone would be okay. You should've been a hero, but instead, you became the problem, and none of that was right. That’s the thing; no one understands how [b]hard[/b] it is for you. They just see the night-stalking, the dangerous stuff, but they never see your battle. You have to deal with that apparition [b]every. Single. Day.[/b] Its whispers, its demands. It's always there tempting you like a devil on your shoulder, and you're supposed to just... [u]ignore[/u] it? 

If the Coven had helped you, things would have been different. Maybe you wouldn't have to act like everything was fine when it wasn't. I think they should've tried to understand and [u][b]help[/b][/u] you instead of making you feel like an outcast. But I guess that was just another failure of the Old Coven. It's not your fault that the apparition does what it does. Ashley demanded you leave and look what happened to them? The Coven fell apart, [b]while you still had to deal with the Void Heart.[/b] They could've done more for you, should've done more for you.

Anyway, I just want you to know that someone understands. I get that [b]you’re[/b] not the villain here. I hope you find a way to deal with it, a way to get back some control. It’s not too late to turn things around, you know? 

Maybe one day, they’ll see that.

Love you, friend, even if you don't know it.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=CD5C5C][b]Linqian[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Han[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/1o7sydk.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I kept my distance from you for my own safety."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 387:[/b] [i]Jinhai. What a guy. He always had this charm, you know? Tall. Hunky. And smart. It was just how he carried himself that made me like him. But there was more to him [s](There always is)[/s]? It always felt like he was playing a game, and he was the only one who knew [i]how.[/i] He never put himself in danger, even when the rest of us were out there, risking our lives against the Snake. I guess I can't say much because I was the same way. I was never a fighter, my White Lux was useless out there, I was too valuable, or whatever lie I told myself. Soooooo... whenever someone came at his neck about that, I felt like I was getting too! Even though a lot of the Old Coven [b]adored[/b] me for everything I did, and nobody in their right mind would ever criticize[b] me.[/b] That's why I was there defending you. 

[sup]Notice me.[/sup]

But then there's your twin... Linqian. She's a whole different discussion. Everything about her was so jarring... and I just couldn't stand her hot and cold attitude, I'm sorry. One day she'd be all smiles, the next, she wouldn't even look at you. And she had this way of causing all these [u][b]problems[/b][/u], you know? Like, she'd just start an argument out of nowhere, and it's all downhill from there! I just think she did it all for the attention. There was too much drama and too many fights, and I had enough on my plate without getting involved in... whatever was going on with her that particular day. I just couldn't deal with it, I'm sorry! 

But Jinhai... yeah, it's a shame he left the Coven. If he had stayed, maybe things would've been different - but what's done is done. Even if he was a bit too self-serving for his own good, he just had this vibe about him... 

... It made you feel like he could handle[u][b] anything.[/b][/u][/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=6B8E23][b]Luca[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Oliviera[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/w5vRg9v.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Despite it all, I still love you, Luca."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 312:[/b] [i]Luciano... Luca. You're one of the Old Coven's many mistakes on legs... no, let me rephrase that, I'm not trying to say that [b][u]you're[/u][/b] the mistake. But, I wish things had turned out differently for you. I remember when Britney brought you to the Sycamore Tree coven, looking like you had just had the worst day of your life! It was hard not to feel for you—you didn’t deserve to be stuck with that apparition...

I tried, you know? I spent hours scouring the All-Verse, looking for any clue, anything how to help you. It felt like I was looking for the Apparition Killer again! But, I never found anything that could get rid of that thing, but I didn't give up. I would never give up on a brief. You never did, either. I admired that about you. Even when it was bad, you kept that smile on your face and kept trying to see the positive side. It must have taken a lot of strength...

[b]... [u]But then you joined the fucking 8th Street Coven. [/u][/b]

I get it. You just wanted to be rid of that damned Apparition, but Emily... she is [b][u]evil,[/u][/b] Luca. She's a cancer on everything she touches. She bullied Lisa, Saskia, and Ella, for fun, and I'll [b]never[/b] forgive her for that[s] (Especially now that they're gone. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.)[/s]. She's a manipulative monster, and she [b][u]will[/u][/b] ruin lives just to get ahead even if it's a little, and you're not like that. You're too kind, too trusting. Maybe 8th Street seemed like your best shot, [b]but you should have given me more time.[/b] All I needed was more time.

That's why I turned my back on you. Was I the wrong one? Probably. But, I miss you. I wish I could go back and find a way to fix all this. But, at the end of the day, you made your choices, and I made mine. 

Take care, Luca. I hope you can keep that positivity, even when it seems hopeless. Don't [b][u]ever[/u][/b] let it get to you. Find something, anything, to make it all worth it. And remember, I did try. I really did. 

I just wish it had been enough.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=Silver][b]Sloane[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Faris[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/MoGapjb.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"We had something good once, but you threw it all away because you couldn't be bothered to care about what other people went through."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 442:[/b] [i]Sloane, I thought we were on the same page here. 

We spent so much time working together in the Old Coven, at least as much as anyone can with you. I know you were serious about your work, and you were just trying to keep us all grounded. But did that [b]really[/b] mean you had to be so stone-cold about everything? I always felt like you never understood people, or maybe you just didn't care. Your attitude was unbearable sometimes, I'm sorry. Did you ever think about how your words came across sometimes, or did you just feel like you were just more important than everyone else and, thus, disregarded other people entirely?

I can't tell you how many times you made things harder than they needed to be. Yes, your whole thing is maintaining order in the face of chaos, and we needed that during the war with the Snake more than anything - but that doesn't mean you had to be [u][b]sooooooo[/b][/u] harsh [u][b]all the time[/b][/u]. It's like you lived in your own world where everyone's just a piece on a chessboard, and if they didn't move the way you wanted them to; you threw them away. You demanded [u][b]respect[/b][/u] but never gave any back, not really. You were always rolling your eyes, sighing, or crossing your arms like everything was a burden to you. 

And you wanted to be a [u]leader. [b]Really?[/b][/u]

However, despite it all, I knew you weren't as bad as they made you out to be. There is good in you. They voted you out, and as much as I tried to fight it, I couldn't fight against the tide of the Old Coven. Despite that, you [b][u]still[/u][/b] wanted to protect St. Portwell. You wanted to take artifacts out of the hands of monsters, and other bastards that hurt people. I [b]agreed[/b] with that. I helped you find these artifacts before they could be used to hurt people. It always felt like you were using me. You never called to ask how I was doing or if you wanted to hangout. No. It was just all business, but you were doing good. I thought that maybe, in time, you would lighten up and get some much-needed [b][u]perspective.[/u][/b]

But then Emily G. Reed started harassing me to join 8th Street, and when I asked you for advice, you suggested I just join them. [u][b]Really, Sloane?[/b][/u] Did you forget what Emily did to Lisa? She damn near drove Lisa to [b]suicide[/b], and not only did she show no remorse, she kept bullying her - and Saskia and Ella, too. Did you forget how I feel about those three? Or did you just not care?[u][b] It felt like a slap in the face.[/b][/u] You [u]know[/u] how much I hate Emily, and yet you suggested I join them like it was nothing.

So yeah, fuck you. I had to do something [u][b]drastic[/b][/u] just to maintain my personal autonomy. You can be all about honor and duty and whatever, think you're the smartest person in the place, and delude yourself into thinking you're doing the right thing (You know who the fuck else thought they were doing the right thing? Lemme give you a hint: it starts with a B), but you don't get a free pass to treat people like trash. You need to learn some empathy. 

Or you're just going to end up a lonely and miserable woman, surrounded by a bunch of artifacts.[/i]

[/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=DE198A][b]Tayla[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Choi[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/Y2NoC6c.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"At some point, I just couldn't watch it anymore."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 889:[/b] [i]It's hard to write this, but I guess I need to. I remember when we used to hang out, back when we were fighting the Stygian Snake. You were always so full of life, even if you had that edge to you. It made you fun to be around, and I think you knew it. But then things changed after James died. That was a turning point for all of us, but for you, it was like the world just crumbled beneath you.

I watched you start slipping, bit by bit. I tried to keep an eye on you with my Observation spell, the Loving Eye - Okay, I know it was fucked up to spy on you like that, but I just wanted to make sure you were [b]okay.[/b] It was my way of caring, even if I didn't know how to say it to your face. You were already slipping into darkness and I thought that maybe I could find a way to help you. But the more I watched, the worse it got.

The drugs were your escape. I get that. It was a way to numb the pain, to forget what you'd lost, I watched you fall deeper into that hole, and it scared me. But you didn't want help, or maybe you just didn't know [u][b]how[/b][/u] to ask for it. I just stood there, watching from a distance, hoping you'd get better. But you didn't. You just kept sinking, and I couldn't watch anymore.

I don't remember what was the last day I used The Loving Eye on you, but I know I did it. I had no choice. It was starting to hurt [u][b]me[/b][/u] and I already have my [u][b]own[/b][/u] demons.

I just hope that one day, you'll find your way back, not to the Coven because there's... nothing to come back to anymore, but to[u][b] yourself.[/b][/u] To the person you used to be before everything went sideways. Because that person is still in there, beneath all the pain and the scars. And I want to believe that one day, you'll see her again. 

You deserve a second chance, and if that's not enough; a third and fourth.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=FFC1CC][b]"Edict"[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Devola[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/EWBD7FA.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You made your bed, and now you can lie in it."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 582:[/b] [i]Greyson, do you even know what it's like to be in the background? Because that's what I was to you: just another face in the crowd, not worth your time to say so much as [b]hello[/b]. We were in the Sycamore Tree Coven together, in this fight as one. It was all about you, wasn't it? You manipulated everyone to get what you wanted. You never cared about the rest of us, just about how you could stay on top. It was wrong for the Old Coven to use you as they did, but I couldn't help but feel like you deserved it, as fucked up as it sounded. Then, you started taking our channelers - items that were [b][u]important[/u][/b] to us - and held them hostage. I was against voting anyone out, but I made a special exception for you, Emily, Hagan, and [b]Britney.[/b] Oh, I heard you and her were a thing after you got booted. I wonder how [b]that[/b] worked out for you.

You know what's sad? Even after all that, some part of me still hoped you'd come back and at least [b][u]try[/u][/b] to make things right. But then I realized you probably don't even remember my name. I was just someone to be used and thrown when I was no longer helpful. I [u][b]wanted[/b][/u] to believe there was more to you than that, but I guess I was wrong. So go ahead, keep playing your games, and keep working on your deals. Don't ever come to me asking for a favor, because I know a rat like you eventually will. [/i]][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=6644ff][b]Jack[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Hawthorne[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/NvqYYuh.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Come home Jack. We need you."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 666:[/b] [i]You know, I gave this page an edgy number... you know what, forget about it.

You always had that vibe that made everyone stop and think, "What's he up to this time?" You were the one who could pull off stunts that the rest of us couldn't even think of And it always made me worry. [u][b]"What if you got yourself into something that even you couldn't get out of?"[/b][/u] I always had that thought whenever I soooo much as looked at you. I know you probably would take that as an insult, but think about the people around you for a second.

From the day we met, you were doing things that most people wouldn't try—and I'm not sure if it was bravery or just recklessness. I mean, during the battle against the Stygian Snake, you followed that beast while we were trying to figure out what the hell we were going to do next. You lost your arm, and I remember thinking, "That's it, he's done." But you just made yourself another one, and I was like, "Cool." I admired how you just keep pushing, but it also made me wonder how much of you was still... you.

I know how you felt when you lost Reza. Believe me, I'm still dealing with it to this day. I understood why you left, but I was watching over you the whole time you explored the All-Verse. It was like I was right there next to you! It was fascinating, but also nerve-wracking... I never knew if you'd ever make it back.

Then you took off to the Void, and I lost track of you completely. The Observation spell doesn't work there. You were gone for what felt like forever, and I couldn't help but worry... I can only hope that you're still alive. So... Take care, Jack. I know you'll do the right thing, even if it's not what we expect. 

And that's more than enough.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=goldenrod][b]"Sully"[color=2e2c2c].[/color]McPherson[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/Sp7PIxV.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Sometimes, Sully, [b]the right thing[/b] to do is to say "no." To draw a line and stick to it."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 3736:[/b] [i]Sully... You had this way of making everyone feel like they[u][b] belonged,[/b][/u] even the shy kids like me. I'll always remember how you encouraged me to speak up and be myself. I wouldn't have become who I am without you pulling me into the circle and showing me how to loosen up and have some fun. For that, I thank you. I remember you always had the "king's cup" with you, this big silver goblet that you swore could fix anything. You had something special with that Chalice. 

You always had this gift for making people feel [u][b]welcome,[/b][/u] no matter where they came from or what they believed in. When I exposed Britney's secret, I thought [b][u]you'd[/u][/b] understand. I figured you'd be angry like the rest of us. But you weren't. You defended her, said she was trying to make things right, that she deserved another chance. You made excuses for her, Sully. I couldn't believe it. After everything she did, you were still willing to give her a free pass. I knew you always saw the good in people, but Britney wasn't just pushing boundaries—she was crossing lines that shouldn't be crossed. She was (and probably still is to this) dangerous. You said that she meant well, that she deserved another chance. 

Meanwhile, The Rot is still adjoined to Luca... regardless of how I presently feel about him.

You [u][b]always[/b][/u] prattled on about second chances, but you do realize that [u][b]not everyone deserves them, right? Right?[/b][/u] Sometimes, the best thing you can do for someone is hold them [u][b]accountable[/b][/u]. Otherwise, they'll never learn... I... I just don't know who you are anymore. If you won't see the harm someone like Britney caused, then I'm happy to never speak to you again, Sully. 

I still don't feel bad about trying to vote you out with her.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=FFC1CC][b]Leon[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Richoux[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/FSxFXhZ.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I used to look up to you, but my personal autonomy [b]is[/b] the most important thing in the world to me. So, it is what it is..."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 284:[/b] [i]I remember when Leon first joined the Coven. He was an entire giant—like,[i] huge[/i]—and it was kind of scary. But, Leon Richoux, you made people feel safe just by being around, and people put incredible things on my name but even I couldn't do that. I really liked you then. I was scared for you when I heard that Lady Lelou was sealed into you. 

When the Coven broke up, you started changing... or maybe you were always this way. You started talking about the Temple and how it could help people find direction [s](something, I, to this day, desperately need)[/s]. I thought you were just being a friend, maybe just offering some advice. But then it felt like you were trying to [u][b]recruit me[/b][/u]. It was like you were trying to convince me that it was your way or the highway [s]when its not[/s].

You were pushing your mother's agenda on me. I know what she wants: she knows how powerful I am (It's like a curse!), and knows I'd elevate her plans to new levels. But I am [u][b]no one's[/b][/u] pawn - my autonomy and independence are the two most important things to me, and I will never let anyone take that from me. So, I had no choice but to cut you off for my own sake.

I hope you find what you're looking, Leon, but I cannot help you find it.[/i]][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=00FF98][b]Stormy[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Carson[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/YPix3H6.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You have my number, STormy, I know its hard but maybe we can pick the pieces up [b]together.[/b]"[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 112:[/b] [i]Stormy, you're one of the best. You stuck around until the end, even when others (including [b]Daisy[/b]) cut and run. You could've left when the Coven began to fall apart, but you stayed, and I can't help but respect that. I know I can trust you because you've proven that when things get tough, you don't just vanish like so many others. I still remember how you gave Britney hell for what she did. You made it clear that she couldn't get away with what she did to Luca, and how she gave Emily new avenues to be a monster. [u][b]That made me believe in you, Stormy.[/b][/u] I can't put into words how much the Coven owes you for not just protecting us with your shields, but [b]caring[/b].

You weren't just muscle—you were a [u][b]heart[/b][/u], and you used it well. You were always lifting others up and protecting them, even when you were having a rough time yourself. And that laugh of yours? It could make even the worst days better. I know you're carrying the burden of the people you couldn't save, but I want you to know that you're not to blame. It's people like me who were useless for doing anything other than [b]watching[/b] their friends get cut down. 

I hope you never change, Stormy. We needed more people like you.

Maybe things would have been different.
[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=9966CC][b]Anya[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Baksh[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/VvitzLT.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You're not smart as you think you are... I can see through you, Anya."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 492:[/b] [i]Anya, you've always talked like you have it all figured out, but as I got to know you, I knew you were just playing an angle [s](They always are, I hate it when people only want me for my magic)[/s]. You were never outright rude or anything— you just had this way of [u][b]pretending[/b][/u] to be friendly, and it always drove me up the fucking wall. I thought for the longest time, you were just being nice, but the more time I spent around you, the more I realized it was all a game to you. One big, fucked up game. I hated it, [s]I hated you.[/s] 

You only kept people around until they weren't useful to you anymore. You were always trying to get the upper hand because, just like Edict, you only cared about coming out on top. And the worst part? You'd make it seem like you were doing [b]us[/b] all a favor. You never shared anything [u][b]real[/b][/u] about yourself. Everything was fake. Fake. Fake. Fake. [u][b]You're fake.[/b][/u] You never wanted anyone to see the real you.

And being around you was always a chore because I always had to second guess [b][u]everything[/u][/b] you did. Everything you said. Every gesture. I just had to be on guard around you at all times, and it was sooo exhausting. When it was time to vote you out, I abstained [s](like I always did)[/s], but they voted you out anyway, and you know what? I think we were better off without you. Yet I can't help but feel sorry for [b]you[/b]. You put on this act like you have everything under control like you are one step ahead at all times. But deep down, you're just insecure, and that insecurity made you [b]desperate[/b] to stay in control. 

I hope you grew as a person. I hope you found something better to do with your life.[/i][/cell][/row]
[row][cell][h3][color=F08080][b]Evelynn[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Serenelight[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/zXGJQom.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You'll always have a place in my heart, even if we aren't currently together."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 628:[/b] [i]Lynn, it's hard to write this you know. I wish we met under better circumstances, I really did. If it were different, we'd be together to this day. However, we found each other in the Old Coven during the darkest days... you were there for support when I lost all three of my best friends. You were the best. However, as time went on, those feelings for you weren't genuine, I was like some parasite using you for emotional support... only to ultimately toss you away. And I admit, that was my fault[s] it's always my fault[/s].

But I'm getting off track, Lynn. You have this lightness, even with all the weight you carry. It's hard to jot down, but that's what drew me to you. [u][b]You were something else and I ruined it.[/b][/u] Hold on, let me get back on track... We had a connection, Lynn—one that most people dream of finding. We shared the same fears and fought the same battles. Being with you made me feel whole, and it made everything else seem less important - even my grief.

But we both had so much trauma, [u][b]so [/b][/u]much baggage and I thought that being together would help us both heal. But it felt like we were just clinging to each other, trying to keep ourselves from drowning. And I had to let you go. I didn't want to, but I knew it was for the good of both of us. It's obvious that neither of us were ready for a relationship. 

I miss you, Lynn. I know you’ve moved on, and I’m happy for you, but I wish it could've been different. I wish we could've healed together instead of falling apart. You'll never read this, but I want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't enough. I'm sorry I led you on. I'm sorry for all of it and I hope you find someone better than me.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=DA70D6][b]Lila[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Blackwood[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/CCk7att.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You're a whole new person now, Lila."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 372:[/b] [i]You were Lynn's friend, but we never really connected. I remember you as that one person who was really shy... that just followed the first person who knew what they were doing [s]we all did really[/s]. After the Snake, you changed everything about yourself... and it was finally free to be whoever you wanted to be. You were someone with big goals, you wanted to create a space for LGBTQ+ youth in St. Portwell. Because lord they need one. 

It felt like you were trying to leave a mark. I know you were close to Lynn, and that mattered to me because she cared about you. But you never really opened up to [b]me,[/b] though. Like you had something to hide, and that was fair given my Abstraction. But, you had this confidence... and I wondered if it was real or if you were just putting on a show. You were always around people, but it felt like you were keeping everyone at arm's length. It sounds oxymoronic until you're the one who has to witness it. Maybe that's why we never got to know each other.

Maybe that's why you and Lynn clicked, you both had things you didn't share with everyone else.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=98FB98][b]Jasper[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Wilde[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/PaqYK3h.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Jasper, you've always been this strange thing to me... like a piece of art I didn't have the brain cells to understand."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 347:[/b] [i]You always seemed like an interesting guy, Jasper. You had this creative energy that was barely contained in a person. Chains on your hips, button-up shirts, and that gold chain peeking out from under—it felt like orderly chaos. I think you were more comfortable with that chaos than most people would be.

I didn't know you as well as some of the others, but I never got why you always hounded Sloane. But forgetting about that, you always had this charm, even if you were battling your own demons. Lynn said you had this dream of living self-sufficiently, and it made sense. You always seemed to be doing your own thing, like you weren't a fan of the whole structure that the Coven had. You left early on, probably because of how... messy it got. That didn't surprise me.

Your art was impressive, though, and it wasn't just the magic that was cool; it was the way you talked about it. You had [u][b]passion[/b][/u] for what you did, and magic just expanded our horizons. I think that's why people liked you. You had this vibe that made people want to be around you, even if you didn't always want to be around [u][b]them[/b][/u] [s]something we have in common.[/s]

I wish we had more time to get to know each other, but things got crazy. I can't blame you for leaving. [/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=fd8a6c][b]Adora[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Phoenix-Prescott[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/eL8NcDg.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You're not alone in this, Adora, even if it feels like it, [b]you're not[/b]. I know you don't want to hear that, but it's true. We're all trying to pick up the pieces of what happened, and maybe we can help each other. You know where to find me, and I am never going to turn my back on you. And I am with you, [b]where ever [/b]you go. Just don't do anything you can't come back from."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 7:[/b] [i]I bumped into Adora at the grocery store yesterday, and it was like seeing a ghost. She looked so distant, so lost in her own thoughts. I approached cautiously, not wanting to startle her. She was surprised to see me and [b]almost[/b] smiled before retreating back into her shell. I remember how Lisa's death hit her hard. I mean, it hit all of us hard, but you were right there and saw it with your own eyes as Lisa was ripped apart. In a way, I was right there, too, but... you had this fire in you, and now it's gone. But now, there's a heaviness in her heart, a sadness and trauma that weighs her down. It's like she's lost a piece of herself that she'll never get back. I tried to engage her in conversation, but I was really just talking to a wall. She's so distant now, it's clear that she's still haunted by [u][b]that day. [/b][/u]

Despite it all, I can still see the old Adora in there, just little pieces of it that appear and disappear like a flash. She's still fighting, still trying to find (No, [b]fight[/b]) her way back to the light. And maybe, with time and support, she'll get there. The Coven turned their back on her, but I won't.[/i]

[b]My Notes Page 727:[/b] [i]Okay, I have to dedicate two pages to Adora. Funny, ain't it? I just didn't think that last entry cut it, so I had to add more. But... You know I've always thought the world of you, Adora. Back in the Old Coven, you were one of the strongest. When you stepped into a fight, even our strongest members couldn't help but look on in awe. Even if we don't act like it anymore, we appreciate and love all you did for us, Adora. You saved so many lives, and for what? You had the power to just run and leave us to hang, but you [b][u]didn't[/u][/b]. There was this [b]fire[/b] in you...

But now, it's like you're carrying around all the ashes from that fire. I can see it in your eyes, the way you get uncomfortable when I mention Lisa [b][s](I miss her too, believe me, I'll stop but it eats me up inside, too)[/s][/b]. I remember the day we lost her like it was yesterday [s](Because it was my fault)[/s]. You watched as she got ripped apart, and you broke. And I don't blame you.

It breaks my heart to see you struggling just to get through the day. The way you used to inspire everyone around you to fight, that there was hope in a hopeless fight. And now you're just a shell of your former self. I know that's a bit harsh, but it's true. Even though there are some occasional glimpses of that person... [u][b]you are not the Adora that fought in the Trinity anymore.[/b][/u]

But I want you to know, [b]I'm[/b] still here for you. I'm still your friend, and I'll always be. I'm glad you're letting me help, even if I feel like I don't know the right words to say to make you feel better. I don't know how long it'll take, but we [u][b]will[/b][/u] get through this. You don't have to do it alone. You're still strong, Adora. It might not feel like it, but even after everything, you haven't given up. And that's what makes you amazing.

So when you're ready to be that powerhouse again, I'll be right there cheering you on.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=7ABBFF][b]Layla[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Hyacinthus[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/N7lXXfC.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You had this habit of fading into the background like you were trying to disappear. Made me wonder who you were hiding from."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 1112:[/b] [i]You were always so quiet and kept to yourself. It was like you didn't want anyone to know you were even there. Honestly, that made me suspicious at first, but as time went on I figured you were just intimidated or just wanted to stay out of the Coven's many dramas. I was too busy trying to keep the peace to look into you much. There was always something going on that needed my attention more than you [s]. I know that sounds shitty, but it is what it is[/s]. I think most of the Coven didn't even realize you were [b]there[/b].

Now that I look back, I wish I’d taken the time to talk to you, maybe ask about those roses you carried around. But I didn't, and now I guess I’ll never know what was really going on with you.  You always had this look in your eyes, like you'd seen things we couldn't believe. I think that’s why I stayed back.

I had enough on my plate.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=bcbcbc][b]Luna[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Inoue[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/JvQ05SQ.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"If you have even a shred of decency left; stay away from me. I have enough problems as it is."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 23:[/b] [i]I can't believe you'd do this to us. We trusted you, and you sold us out. You were always kind of shady, by my admission but I gave you the benefit of the doubt. After everything we've been through... the battles, the chaos, the loss... and you sell us out to your stupid mafia? And for [b]what?[/b] Money? Your little boss patting you on the head and saying [b]you did a good job?[/b] What could possibly be worth betraying us? People who put their lives on the line to save you.

What the hell were you [u][b]even thinking?[/b][/u] Did you even stop to consider what your actions would do to the rest of us? I'm valuable, Luna. I know that. You know that. Everyone knows that. My Observation Spell is a gift - and now it seems like a curse, because now I'm looking over my shoulder every minute. I'm wondering if the next face I see is going to shove me into a car so your boss can [b]force me [/b]to work for her. Or just take me out so she can keep her business in the dark. You know what that's like? To be constantly on edge? I bet you don't. Because you only thought about [b]yourself,[/b] and your stupid little mafia.

But let me stop here: good luck with your new family, Luna! Mafias aren't known for their loyalty by the way, but in that case, you'd fit right in.

Right, Luna?[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=white][b]Aislin[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Rose[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/HKitH8d.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You made everything feel a little less heavy."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 25:[/b] [i]It's been years, but you know why we're still close, right? You were always such a cool person, with your smile and art, you made everything alright. I can't even count the number of nights we spent just talking, laughing, and trying to make sense of the chaos.

Your positivity and creativity kept me sane when things got bad. I never told you that [s]and I'll never have the courage to[/s], but it did. I don't know how you do it. Despite everything we've been through, you still find[b] beauty[/b] in the world [s]when I sometimes have a hard time myself[/s]. Your graffiti and drawings all have this energy that I wish I could replicate. You remind me that there's still good in the world, even when all hell is breaking. I know you don't like to talk about the past, but I want you to know that it's okay to feel the way you do. What happened with the Stygian Snake, and all the deaths that came with it— I get it. You don't have to carry that burden alone. I've got your back, and I always will.

You forgave Alizée, even though I wouldn't have blamed you if you didn't. I remember when we first met in the Coven. You were always drawing on something, even when we were supposed to be planning, training, whatever. I'd find you scribbling on napkins, walls, and even the floor of our old lair. It drove some people crazy! I always thought it was great. You brought color and life to the place, and we needed it. 

So let's make a pact. No matter what happens, we stick together. We create our [b]own[/b] light, just like you do with your art. And if you ever need me, you know where to find me. 

I'm not going [b]anywhere.[/b] 

Say the word and I'll come.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=7B81B3]Kenshiro[b][color=2e2c2c].[/color]Murakin[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/D4xTZM7.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I love you."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 551:[/b] [i]You know you're everything I could ask for, right? I don't say it enough, but it's true. I mean, you're just... you're like the perfect blend of everything I adore. Mysterious yet familiar, strong but gentle. And you make the world a better place with just a smile. I love how you can be all serious and focused one moment, then switch to playful and teasing the next. It's like being with you is always an adventure, and I can't get enough of it. Okay, I could go on forever, but I won't. Just know that you're my favorite person in the world, and I can't wait to see you again. 

I know you left on your big adventure through the All-Verse and wanted me to join, but my place in the world isn't exploring the universe but finding my place in the world. That hasn't stopped me from watching over you with my Loving Eye—it's like I'm there, by the way! Maybe once I am in a better headspace, I'll join you. I wish I could show you my notes, but the life you live would make you a liability. I'm a liability too, but I won't stop.

I know dangerous things, Ken. Things that should stay hidden from everyone, even from you. My observation spell lets me see places I shouldn't, but it's a part of me now, guiding me toward the truth in ways that can sometimes be frightening. But don’t worry, I have a plan to keep you safe. 

To keep [b]everyone[/b] safe. [/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=00BFFF]Ayrin/Aaron[b][color=2e2c2c].[/color]Thorne[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/gBPPomE.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"Take care, Aaron. Or Aryin. Whichever feels right. I hope you find the peace you're looking for."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 517:[/b] [i]Hey Aaron, or should I say Aryin? I always get confused with which name to use when I talk about you in my notes. You always wanted to keep people guessing? I didn't get to know you all that well when we were with the Coven, but I remember seeing you on the front lines. It was impressive, really [s]you saved lives. I was a bystander[/s]. You had this way of adapting to whatever the situation called for. I admired [b]that[/b] about you.

I always wondered what it was like for you to live with two personalities. Was it exhausting? Or did it give you an edge? And then there was the whole thing with Emily... It takes a lot of strength to keep doing what you do and I never got the chance to really ask you how you were holding up.

I hope you're doing okay now that the Coven's not around. I heard you've been hanging out at the 317, getting involved with some of the folks there. That's good. You need a place to belong, even if it's not with the Coven. It must be nice to have some kind of community. 

I might not have been the closest to you back then, but I get the whole "trying to find your place in the world" thing.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=789caa][b]Amara[color=2e2c2c].[/color]King[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/WmdEpkp.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"You might not remember me, but I'll always remember you."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 448:[/b] [i]Remember that time we were in the Old Coven's lair? You were putting the final touches on some battle plan, and I just feeding you information while reading a book. That was a weird dynamic, looking back. I mean, you were this... unstoppable force, always charging into battle without hesitation. I was just... watching you do your thing. You made it look [u][b]sooooooooooooo[/b][/u] easy.

I remember the way you’d walk into a room and take control. People [b]respected[/b] you. Even when they disagreed with your plans, they listened. You had this aura of authority that was hard to ignore. You were intimidating, I can't lie about that. Even the way you talked was enough to make me nervous. But then I'd remember those moments when you let your guard down. When you’d sit back and just talk about life, about the things you missed out on because of all the fighting. I think that's when I realized that you were a person... a good person. You always took the time to ask me if I was okay, even if it was just a quick "Hey, you good?" It meant a lot, especially when everything around us was falling apart.

I don't know if you'll even remember me in a few years because of how the Army of One works (don't get mad but I tested some of my Intuitive Perception spells on you), and that's okay. I guess I'm just grateful for the time we spent working together. You made me feel like I was part of something like I wasn't just some background character in someone else's story. I'll always remember you as one of the bravest people I've ever met.

Take care, Amara. I have no clue where life took you after the Coven fell apart, but I hope you're happy.[/i]][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=A299FD][b]The[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Void[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Heart[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/xl8H0Im.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I can't wait for the day when you're just a distant memory."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 923:[/b] [i]I don't even know why I'm bothering to write this, I'm only going to make myself mad and I wrote enough angry entries down into my journal. But, I can't believe what you did to Alizée. You turned her into your puppet, you sucked the soul right out of her. You know, she could have been something else, [b]someone[/b] else, if it weren't for you. Alizée could have lived her life, made her [b]own[/b] choices, and found herself. But you stole that from her and that is the true tragedy. You made her your pawn in some twisted game, pushing her to do your bidding, to hurt people.

You saw her as a tool to help you satisfy whatever sick obsession you have with opening some "gate of paradise." Let me tell you something—there's no paradise where you're headed. Just an eternity sealed in some pen cap. You call yourself the Void Heart, but I think you're just void. Empty. Hollow.[b] Nothing[/b] but a parasite that feeds off the pain and suffering of others. You're not welcome here, Void. You never were. The sooner you're gone, the bette- [u][b]I have to stop myself here. I'm just making myself mad.[/b][/u]

So, here's my final message to you, Void: Leave. Go back to your Void—or wherever you came from—[u][b]and don't come back.[/b][/u] 

Play your sick games somewhere else. [/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=764820][b]Lisa[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Turner[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/SNoeSAk.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"I've already fallen..."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 1:[/b] [i] I don’t—I don’t even know. I can’t—I can’t believe you're gone. It’s not real. It [b]can’t[/b] be real. Why did this happen? How? How did this happen? It’s not fair, Lisa. It’s not fair. This wasn't supposed to happen to you. Not to someone who had [b]so[/b] much life to life. It’s all wrong. All of it. I can’t—I can’t even think. I don’t understand. Why did this happen?

I can still hear you laughing, talking about your spiders, and it’s not real. It’s not. You’re not there anymore. You’re gone, and I can’t do anything. I should’ve—I should’ve done something. I should’ve been there, but I can only[u] fucking [b]watch[/b][/u]. All I'm good for is finding things! I should’ve saved you, and now you’re not here. It’s my fault. It’s my fault, and I—I’m so sorry. I’m sorry, Lisa. 

I can’t—I can’t stop thinking about what happened. You shouldn’t have had to go through that. It’s not right. You didn’t deserve it. You deserved—oh God, you deserved [b]so[/b] much better, and now... now you’re just gone. And [b]I can’t fix it[/b]. And I [b]FUCKING[/b] hate it. I just want to hear you one more time, okay? Just one more time, hear you talk about whatever spider or weird ass thing you got into. I want you back [b]soooooooo[/b] badly. It’s not fair. You were the best, Lisa. You made everything better, and now everything is just... empty. You should be here.

I’m so sorry, Lisa. I’m so sorry. Believe me, I'm so sorry. I should’ve done more. I should’ve—I should’ve-I should’ve—oh God, why didn’t I do [b]more?[/b] I should’ve done something. [u][b]It’s my fault.[/b][/u] And now... now you’re gone, and I don’t know what to do. I’ll never forget you, Lisa. I promise. I promise I’ll never forget you. I’ll keep fighting because that’s what you’d want. You’d want me to keep going, but it’s so [b][u]FUCKING[/u][/b] hard without you. I just want you back. I want you here, and it’s never going to happen. And I don’t know how to deal with that. I don’t.

[s][b]Why am I such a fucking failure?[/b][/s]

Goodbye, Lisa. I... I’ll see you again, okay? When it’s my turn. I’ll see you then. Just... just wait for me, okay? I’ll be there. I’ll find you. I promise. Just—just wait for me. Just wait. I’ll see you again. I will. I promise. I... I just miss you, okay? I miss you so much. Goodbye, Lisa. Goodbye. I just—I just can’t. Goodbye. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I just... I just can’t. Goodbye. Goodbye, Lisa. I’m sorry. So sorry. I miss you. I miss you. So much. Goodbye. I’m so, so sorry.[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=e77fbf][b]Ella[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Brooks[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/SxVqX5P.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"... I can't drive my head..."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 2:[/b] [i]Ella... Ella... You were supposed to be here, with all your energy, and you’re just [b]gone.[/b] You shouldn't be gone, you didn't deserve it. It's not fair, it's not fair, it's not fair... I can't stop thinking about your smile, and your laugh, and the way you made everything seem like it was gonna be okay. You had that magic, you know? I'm not talking about your abstraction but you could light up a room just by walking in, and I just... I just want you back. I need you back. You were the best of us, Ella. You were the best of us.

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I should have been there, I should have done something, I should have stopped it. [u][b]Why didn’t I stop it? [/b][/u]WWhy didn’t I see it coming? You shouldn’t have been alone, not like that. It’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault. I should have done more and you would still be here with me. You know what I miss the most about you? Your voice. You always had something to say, always talking about anime and manga, and you always made it sound [b]so[/b] amazing.

I miss you, Ella. I miss you so much. I miss your hugs, your stupid jokes, your ridiculous transformations, your smile,[b] everything[/b] about you. I just want you back. I'm sorry, Ella. I'm sorry I let you down. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. [u][b]I just want you back.[/b][/u]

Please come back. Please. Please. I'm begging you. Just... just come back. Please. I miss you. I miss you so much. I miss you. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I should have saved you. I should have been there. I should have stopped it. I’m sorry. I miss you. I miss you so much. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I’m sorry. I'm so sorry. I miss you. So much. So much. I'm so sorry. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you. Goodbye. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. I’m sorry. So, so sorry. I miss you. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. I'm sorry. So sorry. I’m sorry. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. I miss you. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. I miss you. Goodbye. I'm sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you so much. Goodbye. Goodbye. I'm sorry. I’m sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you. I’m so sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I miss you. I'm sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. I’m sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you. I’m sorry. Goodbye. I’m sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye. I’m sorry. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I'm sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I'm sorry. Goodbye. I miss you. Goodbye. I’m sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. I'm sorry. Goodbye. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye, Ella. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. I’m sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. I miss you. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye...[/i][/cell][/row][row][cell][h3][color=DC143C][b]Saskia[color=2e2c2c].[/color]Otten[/b][/color][/h3][/cell][cell][/cell][/row][row][cell][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/vFf4Tvv.png[/img]

[color=eac6ae][sup][i]"... It's [b]so[/b] hard wanting you."[/i][/sup][/color]
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[color=2e2c2c]...................................................................[/color][/cell][cell][b]My Notes Page 3:[/b] [i]I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

[b]Everywhere [/b]I go I keep seeing her face. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I should have been there. I should have done [b]something.[/b] I couldn't—why didn't I do more? I keep saying I can only [b]watch[/b], but I have the power to write this down, I could have done [b]something.[/b] I should've—I should've stopped her from going. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's like a loop in my head, and I [b]can't[/b] stop it. It keeps going round and round. I'm sorry. I keep saying it, over and over, because what else can I say? She's gone. And I can't—I can't fix it. I can't make it right. I can't—I can't do anything, and I'm just stuck with it, stuck with this.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I can't stop saying it. It won't—why won't it go away? I just want it to go away. I'm sorry. It's my fault. I should've been there. I should've stopped her. But I didn't. And now she's gone, and I'm here, and it doesn't make sense. None of it makes sense. Why did she have to be the one? Why not someone [b]else?[/b] There were [b]so many[/b] people that deserved what happened to you... Why not me?

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

It never ends. It just keeps going and going. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't—I can't fix it. And I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I keep saying it because it's the only thing that feels right. It's the only thing that makes sense. But it's not enough. It won't bring her back. It won't change anything. And I'm [b]sorry. [/b]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.[/i][/cell][/row][/table][/hider]

Remember that she is definitely dead. Totally dead.