[quote=@Etcetera]
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I [i]wish[/i] there was pain. Pain would be great. Guilt, sad, any of those. I don't care.
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Because you’ve had too much for too long. If I went and asked you when it all first started, I would bet the numbness hadn’t set in yet. None of that went away. You just got used to it, and you never deserved to have to.