[quote=@Etcetera]
<Snipped quote by Stratocracy>

Nnnnnn—I want to find a way to live that makes him wish he did not choose me. [i]Real spite.[/i] Then I can die like you all want me to.
[/quote]

The way a person like him thinks? The only way to make him regret choosing you is to prove that you are stronger than what he did to you. Letting it hurt you until your last breath, means he wins.