[quote=@ArGavryiell]
<Snipped quote by Etcetera>

Tell me... you are still holding onto the holy scriptures from my heaven's decree... you looked disappointed over them when Akella gave them to you but you were still curious. What were you thinking then?
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If you'd be so kind as to indulge me in a few of my own questions, my answer might make more sense.
*Looks the book over in my hand silently for a few moments and sets it on a nearby table*
Were you aware of those foreign beings entering your domain? Do you blame them for your own departure?