[quote=Wreck]
i think that's what i was trying to say. when river died, i didn't feel angry or resentful about him killing himself. i didn't know he did it but if that was his choice then i'm glad he's at peace. the last thing i wanted was for him to keep living with so much pain/or whatever. some people think they can't be helped. i didn't think anyone could help me and i didn't see the point. i was tired of reaching out to people that weren't interested in helping me, and i felt like i was bringing everyone down when i brought it up.
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I understand, and I'm sorry you ever had to feel like that. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me.