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@Shoryu Magami Ah, got ya.

Well, glad to here that you're persistent. Not so glad to here about you're workload, however.
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@HaleyTheRandom
Pretty much. I'm not the type to ever yield to anything, but I'll also be the first to admit the state of my workload is not the slightest bit optimistic. All I can really do is keeping pushing on and try to start making more steps forward than I make backward.
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@Shoryu Magami Well hey, that's a good attitude to have. If you ever want to just rant, I'm here.
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@HaleyTheRandom
I'll keep that in mind, since I'm bound to have my days where it happens. I was in a particularly foul mood when I first woke up actually (speaking of which, I'd normally go to bed around the same time as Ailyn so I could be heading off at any moment).
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@Shoryu Magami Aw. That sucks. But seriously, I am here for ya.

(Haha. Gives me and Sammi some time to knock you guys down a few numbers.)
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@HaleyTheRandom
I planned on talking to Ailyn about it (it was a combination of a dream I had last night, my PC deciding to break down on me a few minutes after I got up, and some other things that were bothering me more than usual; long-distance struggle things more or less), but she was clearly way to sleepy when she got back home and she's already nodded off. I knew the moment she got on the phone she'd be out like a light pretty fast.
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@HaleyTheRandom
Well, I keep telling people how my luck is notoriously bad when it comes to everything seemingly going out of its way to try and make me lose my work, and then... "speak of the devil". Something happened as a result of me responding to that post I just finished (in the role-playing discussion forum) that made me lose some work I was storing. I could very well end up not being able to fall asleep now thanks to this.
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@Shoryu Magami Oh wow >.< What the heck is wrong with your computer? Like.. for real.

I would suggest sleep, but I understand the pressure, so...
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@HaleyTheRandom
This is one of the rare times that it was my own fault, rather than my PC... I'm just too tired/stressed, really. Basically, I had a bunch of ideas that I planned on pasting into a notepad. I'd more or less only been holding them using the copy function, and I'd yet to actually paste it anywhere. When I decided to reply in that thread, I forgot about it temporarily since there's too much on my mind. Right before I posted... I hit copy to protect my post in case the site messed up... So yeah, now I'm stuck trying to remember all the thoughts I've had for the last hour or so, hoping none of them were too important. Just a normal night for me.
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@Shoryu Magami Oh wow >.< I am SO sorry.
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@HaleyTheRandom
Yeah, it's times like this I usually want to call Ailyn so I can talk to her, just to calm myself down and help switch off a bit more, but I shouldn't wake her up... I'm already a very demanding and intense person most of the time, and I'm aware of that.
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@Shoryu Magami Awww. That's sweet <3 Minus the demanding part, of course, but it's still really sweet.
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@HaleyTheRandom
It's who I am, really... Honestly, real relationships don't work unless people can be demanding/genuine anyway, since being too "chill" about a relationship is one of the reasons people don't grow close. She's mentioned it's fine for me to call her, and I've told her the same, but meh... I prefer to leave it for a worst case scenario.

I've probably recovered a bit of what I lost, but I'm still missing pieces. I technically need to be up in 4-5 hours.
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@Shoryu Magami Well I wasn't saying being demanding is a bad thing, just... I think you know what I mean. Hopefully.

It's still sweet.

That's good! Like.. really good. Maybe you could just take a few deep breaths and think about it a bit more.
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Don't worry, I understand. I wasn't trying to defend myself there or anything... I just can't switch off (like I keep saying to people); I feel like I need to go into philosopher mode every time I see the smallest detail that I have two cents to give about, so that was more me speaking in general. I'm not good at relaxing. I probably seem composed to everyone... cool as ice, but inside I'm like a volcano that's always on the edge of erupting.

We'll see... I'm thinking.
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@HaleyTheRandom
Alright, well I've done all I can at this point (headache has progressed to the point where I can't see), so I'll need to see what I have to work with once I get up...

Even when I was writing that post in the role-playing discussion forum, I could barely think straight or see the screen in front of me, so I don't even really know how helpful I was... but I definitely knew what it was like to be in their shoes, dealing with people who were too full of themselves to give a "no name" a chance.

Part of me wonders if I should've just tossed up my status message (since it seemed to have made several people realize that Oliver's post existed, though I've deleted it now since it was just for him to know I was replying) and gone to bed, since I might not have be helpful in my state, but meh... I don't believe in regrets. I felt I needed to make a point that even if social maturity is important in a role-playing community there are definitely plenty of long-standing members of communities who have an entitled sense of prestige.

I haven't been on this site for that long, so perhaps the problem isn't as major here and Oliver was being problematic for those GMs, but I didn't like the idea of seeing someone go through what I went through before... especially since in my case the GMs were definitely being assholes and an entire site dying due to them is further proof of that. Technically, my truly enriching role-play experiences were with a close circle of people who thought on a similar wavelength to me, so I have less experience role-play with a wider variety of people, but I'm a writer before I'm a role-player; I mostly role-play as a way to improve my writing. Besides, no matter what, telling someone to dumb themselves down or hold back their writing is never acceptable in my eyes. I actually willingly pulled out of the one role-play I had registered for on this site so far (I even got my character accepted, on my first try), simply because the direction of the role-play was going to be far too shallow for my tastes... I thrive on depth and detail; without them writing serves no meaning to the poet and philosopher in me.

Anyway, I'm probably rambling, so take care. I guess I'll be around in a few hours if all goes as planned.

Edit: ... and now I'm hungry. Life's a bitch, isn't it?
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Don't worry, I understand. I wasn't trying to defend myself there or anything... I just can't switch off (like I keep saying to people); I feel like I need to go into philosopher mode every time I see the smallest detail that I have two cents to give about, so that was more me speaking in general. I'm not good at relaxing. I probably seem composed to everyone... cool as ice, but inside I'm like a volcano that's always on the edge of erupting.

We'll see... I'm thinking.


Hey, no problem.

@HaleyTheRandom
Alright, well I've done all I can at this point (headache has progressed to the point where I can't see), so I'll need to see what I have to work with once I get up...

Even when I was writing that post in the role-playing discussion forum, I could barely think straight or see the screen in front of me, so I don't even really know how helpful I was... but I definitely knew what it was like to be in their shoes, dealing with people who were too full of themselves to give a "no name" a chance.

Part of me wonders if I should've just tossed up my status message (since it seemed to have made several people realize that Oliver's post existed) and gone to bed, since I might not have be helpful in my state, but meh... I don't believe in regrets. I felt I needed to make a point that even if social maturity is important in a role-playing community there are definitely plenty of long-standing members of communities who have an entitled sense of prestige.

I haven't been on this site for that long, so perhaps the problem isn't as major here and Oliver was being problematic for those GMs, but I didn't like the idea of seeing someone go through what I went through before... especially since in my case the GMs were definitely being assholes and an entire site dying due to them is further proof of that. Technically, my truly enriching role-play experiences were with a close circle of people who thought on a similar wavelength to me, so I have less experience role-play with a wider variety of people, but I'm a writer before I'm a role-player; I mostly role-play as a way to improve my writing. Besides, no matter what, telling someone to dumb themselves down or hold back their writing is never acceptable in my eyes. I actually willingly pulled out of the one role-play I had registered for on this site so far (I even got my character accepted, on my first try), simply because the direction of the role-play was going to be far too shallow for my tastes... I thrive on depth and detail; without them writing serves no meaning to the poet and philosopher in me.

Anyway, I'm probably rambling, so take care. I guess I'll be around in a few hours if all goes as planned.

Edit: ... and now I'm hungry. Life's a bitch, isn't it?


Hey, I liked your post.

Yes, yes it is.
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Well, hopefully one day I'll have faith in myself and will actually not hate myself, that's always a good thing, I think atleast.

So, uh, how's everyone?
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Finally up. @CrazyShadowy There will never be an end to me hating myself. lel
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Glad you're awake, hating one self seems to be common. Not a good thing but it's still common.
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