So...
When did everyone start rping, where and who was your first character? Mine was on a browser game that also had forum rp going on. I was a Jaffa called Tul'ak I think his name was
I started off on Superhero Hype in 2003 as a member, then joined the game "World Of Heroes: The DC Universe RPG" as Nightwing in it's second season. I was 13 or 14 at the time. Then around 2008, I played Batman for the first time by... starting my own game with the very first Ultimate DC game after lobbying hard to play Batman in World Of Heroes, much to the chagrin of the player who actually played him. My first run wasn't very good at all, so when UDC rebooted a few years later, I really made the character my own. Then, years later, when that player disappeared and Batman became vacant in World Of Heroes, I got my shot and immediately blew it by being a lazy piece of shit.
So, lesson learned. If you think you want something and obsess over it too long, maybe try sticking with what you've got instead. Because you might just screw up what you originally wanted all along, if given the chance.