Anger Issues

[Robeatics]

Lots of stress-inducing stuff this week. I haven't gotten enough sleep, I'm getting into e-fights that may as well amount to several people chasing each other in circles, my anxiety is beginning to hike up again with the recent time change (and therefore quicker nightfall), and I have a half-finished art project due tomorrow. It's 10:30 PM.

You ever get that feeling--it doesn't have to be so specific as this--where you just want to pick up a glass bottle, squeeze it until it shatters, and just keep squeezing until the shards are jammed all into your hand and your bones break with the force of your grip, and you imagine how hardcore you'd feel and look? Physically impossible? Yes. Would it hurt like hell and feel absolutely like a bad idea as soon as even any one phase is executed? Yes. But imagining my hands mangled beyond use because I could finally find a wholly relieving outlet for my fury is...relieving, in itself.

As I reread this it sounds worrying, but the last thing on my mind is to hurt myself or others because I have some anger problems. I have a psychologist I see once monthly whom I have been seeing since I was in 5th grade, I have a loving and supportive family, and I am fairly comfortable with my current lot in life. I don't want any kind of diagnosis, maybe just some advice. Is this just teenage angst catching up all at once or is this something I should try to seriously work on?

[Gwazi Magnum]

Is this a common occurrence?

If so I would be inclined to say there's something more serious going on. But if it's a rare thing that's fairly normal. Everyone has their really bad days like that.

[Robeatics]

Hard to say. I tend to fluctuate between frustration/anger, emptiness, feeling well-adjusted (rare but definitely welcome), and anxiety. Of course, my feelings only serve to make me more anxious or furious, which in turn hikes up my stress and makes me not want to sleep. The not sleeping bit probably also doesn't help. It's an awful, vicious cycle.

[Gwazi Magnum]

Is this general anger and stress that you passively feel regardless of your surroundings? Or does it tend to be triggered by something?

If the former, I'd suggest consulting in some kind of expert. Stuff like this is normally what leads people to self-diagnose/google diagnose themselves with something like depression. And that is something serious enough you do not want to ignore it if that is the case, or leave it up to google to decide.

If the latter, my advice would vary by some extent depending on the trigger. But generally you should try work to either remove yourself from the trigger or learn coping techniques to better handle yourself when around said trigger.

[Robeatics]

Thanks for the advice. I'll see what I can figure out.

[aza]

To be fair one of them ended hilariously

good job

[Hank]

Robeatics said my anxiety is beginning to hike up again with the recent time change (and therefore quicker nightfall)

You're afraid of the night?

[Robeatics]

Azarthes said
To be fair one of them ended hilariously
good job

Hank said
You're afraid of the night?

That's usually the time when I get most nervous, yes.

[aza]

I hear that [HURRHUURGOTREFERENCEDURRLOLIMSOFUCKINGORIGINAL] so I getcha.

[mdk]

Someone needs a hug.

[TheMusketMan]

Sometimes I feel like that. Just bat-shit anger over things that aren't that big. Especially when I feel stressed out with school or work or something. Get a punching bag. Or find a place with a punching bag. Like a gym. It helps.