As the blond stared at the test tubes in the basement of the Shinra Manor, the library of books behind him the very sames ones that had driven Sephiroth to insanity years prior, he reflected on the monster that he had become. It all started here, shortly after the one winged angel's fall from grace, after the mind boggling upset of an infantryman vanquishing the most powerful SOLDIER to have ever graced The Planet with his presence. It was here that Professor Hojo had conducted experiments on him and Zack, and though the latter was immune to them thanks to being a member of SOLDIER Cloud hadn't been so lucky. Between the JENOVA cells and being drenched in pure Mako he suffered a terrible case of Mako Poisoning, it being a miracle that he even survived. Hell, without Zack he probably would have died due to being deemed a failure by Professor Hojo. That aside the only thing he could be grateful for was the cells passing on Zack's traits to him, turning the weak infantryman into a SOLDIER First Class in ability at least. Despite this, it'd only caused him trouble and despair.
In addition to the new body, his broken mind from the experience combined with the PTSD of losing everything and everyone he loved were aided by the cells in molding a new personality and history for the infantryman in his head. Whenever confronted with things from his past however he'd break, and become easily controlled by Sephiroth. This had nearly ruined their missions in the reactors, caused him to beat Aerith at the Temple of the Ancients and hand over the Black Materia to Sephiroth at the Northern Crater. He was a liability, a puppet to the almighty Sephiroth. With the help of his friends he had been able to overcome this, so he'd thought at least, and defeated the One Winged Angel deep within the Planet's Core. However this was only the end of the first saga of his life, the experiments of his past would return to haunt him again.
This time new JENOVA cells had infiltrated his body through his arm, exposing themselves as Geostigma. Before this he had slowly begun to rebuild his life with Tifa, helping take care of the kids (Denzel and Marlene) and with making sure her bar 7th Heaven had the supplies it needed to keep going. He was learning, slowly, to become more social and bargain for lower prices when he could. His confidence was slowly returning, but he was haunted by his failures to save Zack and Aerith. This was compounded later on by his Geostigma, which signaled to the blond that he was truly nothing but a failure and needed to accept his fate in death. He continued getting the bar what it needed at least, and in time he found himself involved with Sephiroth once more through his remnants. Through the struggle that followed he battled through his insecurities and stepped up to protect The Planet and those he loved one more time, and thanks to forgiveness from those very people he was able to return home and continue his path to redemption.
Though the new JENOVA cells had been cleansed from his body, the alterations to his genetics from the dips into the Lifestream and years of carrying the cells within his body had already taken their tole. He in a way was no longer human, at least in the way that the other members of AVALANCHE were. He was just as human as Sephiroth was, interwoven with a monster that gave him the strengths and abilities he had. After years of dormancy they finally decided to rear their ugly head, and out of his left shoulder a large leathery wing was born. Thankfully it was in the middle of the night, so Tifa and the kids were none the wiser to it. Surely they saw the blood in the bathroom after he'd fled, but there was nothing he could do to fix that now. Still, this proved he was just a monster as he'd once thought and there was no telling what would happen if he stayed around them. Maybe he'd end up like Sephiroth after all, and he wanted to keep them safe so he fled.
He should've seen it coming, he'd had nightmares for weeks alluding to such. Cloud never told Tifa of course, not wanting her to worry about him, keeping it as his own personal burden to bare. In then Sephiroth spoke to him as well, reminding the blond that he was the conduit which allowed the SOLDIER to traverse back from the Lifestream into the world of the living. What was even worse, he'd returned and was biding his time for his next ploy. This time though he would need a helper in Cloud, so he gifted him the full potential of the JENOVA cells inside him. Whether these were just a dream or premonition Cloud didn't know, but the chances of it being the latter was too real for him to ignore. The one place he thought that he could gather Sephiroth's attention the best was at the Northern Crater, so there he waited for his so called 'master' in order to end this once and for all. His plan? Not only to kill Sephiroth, but to die in the process so that he could never return again.
Whether from Sephiroth sensing this or from simple bad luck. Cloud's chosen opponent never came. Weeks went by, and slowly the combination of loneliness and thinking about the changes to his body were driving him insane. What kept him attached to his inner humanity was the thought of Tifa and the kids, knowing that they loved him despite this he just... Couldn't risk their lives by being around. The longer he was alive, the more likely something horrible would happen because of him. The longer he was alive the more times Sephiroth would be able to return... And with that thought, he finally turned his sword against himself. Vincent and the others could defeat Sephiroth, they'd been successful against Omega WEAPON and DEEPGROUND without him playing a pivotal roll. They didn't need him, so it was best for him just to end his life now and make that battle against his nemesis truly final. Unfortunately the JENOVA cells refused to let him die, and even after laying in a pool of his own blood like Sephiroth and Genesis before him he slowly recovered. This broke his spirit even worse, not only was he a failure because he couldn't protect his family or The Planet, but he couldn't even die properly. There was only one thing he could hope for, and that was for someone else to kill him. They wouldn't though, not if they knew it was him, not unless...
...Not unless Cloud became a monster, embracing what Sephiroth wanted. If he did that, then they'd had no choice but to stop him. They'd kill him, and if Sephiroth came to the rescue he could aid them in finishing the battle before he died. So with a heavy heart, he left the Northern Cave and donned a cloak to hide who he was. The only hints would be the large sword he carried, and the leathery wing protruding from his back if anyone could make the connection. Still he didn't want to completely fall to this, he wanted to only take out someone that had harmed him even if they'd earned forgiveness. Shinra himself and the Turks he couldn't, they were doing too much good for The Planet now. His home town, well, the rebuilt version of it had served as an illusion to hide the nightmare of his past. Everyone in that village belonged to Shinra and was part of the conspiracy, they were the reason what had happened was nothing but a secret. Focusing on this one reason alone, he descended upon the village and committed an act of evil that made him physically sick. It made his stomach turn to kill everyone there, and at first he didn't know if he could pull it off. His first strike had missed, the Imaginary SOLDIER a teary mess as he accepted his fate. Once the first was cut down however, it was easier to finish the job.
By morning news of the atrocity would reach Edge or Rocket Town, and AVALANCHE would be here to investigate. He left clues where to find him, breaking the door to the mansion and the front door of it. With the hidden passageway leading down to the underground open, it would be impossible for them to miss where he was. They'd find him and they'd fight, hopefully without knowing it was him, and then the nightmare would be over. It would crush them, hurt those he loved but... Well, it was better for them to be alive and hurt than dead.
So here he was, blood still wet on his weapon as he stared into the tubes with reddened eyes. He couldn't live with himself, he hated himself so much but there was no other way for this to end. He couldn't die like anyone else, he had to be cut down more than he could do to himself. If all went well Sephiroth would arrive as well, bringing an end to this sick legacy once and for all. Cloud just needed to wait, and see who would be first to come...
In addition to the new body, his broken mind from the experience combined with the PTSD of losing everything and everyone he loved were aided by the cells in molding a new personality and history for the infantryman in his head. Whenever confronted with things from his past however he'd break, and become easily controlled by Sephiroth. This had nearly ruined their missions in the reactors, caused him to beat Aerith at the Temple of the Ancients and hand over the Black Materia to Sephiroth at the Northern Crater. He was a liability, a puppet to the almighty Sephiroth. With the help of his friends he had been able to overcome this, so he'd thought at least, and defeated the One Winged Angel deep within the Planet's Core. However this was only the end of the first saga of his life, the experiments of his past would return to haunt him again.
This time new JENOVA cells had infiltrated his body through his arm, exposing themselves as Geostigma. Before this he had slowly begun to rebuild his life with Tifa, helping take care of the kids (Denzel and Marlene) and with making sure her bar 7th Heaven had the supplies it needed to keep going. He was learning, slowly, to become more social and bargain for lower prices when he could. His confidence was slowly returning, but he was haunted by his failures to save Zack and Aerith. This was compounded later on by his Geostigma, which signaled to the blond that he was truly nothing but a failure and needed to accept his fate in death. He continued getting the bar what it needed at least, and in time he found himself involved with Sephiroth once more through his remnants. Through the struggle that followed he battled through his insecurities and stepped up to protect The Planet and those he loved one more time, and thanks to forgiveness from those very people he was able to return home and continue his path to redemption.
Though the new JENOVA cells had been cleansed from his body, the alterations to his genetics from the dips into the Lifestream and years of carrying the cells within his body had already taken their tole. He in a way was no longer human, at least in the way that the other members of AVALANCHE were. He was just as human as Sephiroth was, interwoven with a monster that gave him the strengths and abilities he had. After years of dormancy they finally decided to rear their ugly head, and out of his left shoulder a large leathery wing was born. Thankfully it was in the middle of the night, so Tifa and the kids were none the wiser to it. Surely they saw the blood in the bathroom after he'd fled, but there was nothing he could do to fix that now. Still, this proved he was just a monster as he'd once thought and there was no telling what would happen if he stayed around them. Maybe he'd end up like Sephiroth after all, and he wanted to keep them safe so he fled.
He should've seen it coming, he'd had nightmares for weeks alluding to such. Cloud never told Tifa of course, not wanting her to worry about him, keeping it as his own personal burden to bare. In then Sephiroth spoke to him as well, reminding the blond that he was the conduit which allowed the SOLDIER to traverse back from the Lifestream into the world of the living. What was even worse, he'd returned and was biding his time for his next ploy. This time though he would need a helper in Cloud, so he gifted him the full potential of the JENOVA cells inside him. Whether these were just a dream or premonition Cloud didn't know, but the chances of it being the latter was too real for him to ignore. The one place he thought that he could gather Sephiroth's attention the best was at the Northern Crater, so there he waited for his so called 'master' in order to end this once and for all. His plan? Not only to kill Sephiroth, but to die in the process so that he could never return again.
Whether from Sephiroth sensing this or from simple bad luck. Cloud's chosen opponent never came. Weeks went by, and slowly the combination of loneliness and thinking about the changes to his body were driving him insane. What kept him attached to his inner humanity was the thought of Tifa and the kids, knowing that they loved him despite this he just... Couldn't risk their lives by being around. The longer he was alive, the more likely something horrible would happen because of him. The longer he was alive the more times Sephiroth would be able to return... And with that thought, he finally turned his sword against himself. Vincent and the others could defeat Sephiroth, they'd been successful against Omega WEAPON and DEEPGROUND without him playing a pivotal roll. They didn't need him, so it was best for him just to end his life now and make that battle against his nemesis truly final. Unfortunately the JENOVA cells refused to let him die, and even after laying in a pool of his own blood like Sephiroth and Genesis before him he slowly recovered. This broke his spirit even worse, not only was he a failure because he couldn't protect his family or The Planet, but he couldn't even die properly. There was only one thing he could hope for, and that was for someone else to kill him. They wouldn't though, not if they knew it was him, not unless...
...Not unless Cloud became a monster, embracing what Sephiroth wanted. If he did that, then they'd had no choice but to stop him. They'd kill him, and if Sephiroth came to the rescue he could aid them in finishing the battle before he died. So with a heavy heart, he left the Northern Cave and donned a cloak to hide who he was. The only hints would be the large sword he carried, and the leathery wing protruding from his back if anyone could make the connection. Still he didn't want to completely fall to this, he wanted to only take out someone that had harmed him even if they'd earned forgiveness. Shinra himself and the Turks he couldn't, they were doing too much good for The Planet now. His home town, well, the rebuilt version of it had served as an illusion to hide the nightmare of his past. Everyone in that village belonged to Shinra and was part of the conspiracy, they were the reason what had happened was nothing but a secret. Focusing on this one reason alone, he descended upon the village and committed an act of evil that made him physically sick. It made his stomach turn to kill everyone there, and at first he didn't know if he could pull it off. His first strike had missed, the Imaginary SOLDIER a teary mess as he accepted his fate. Once the first was cut down however, it was easier to finish the job.
By morning news of the atrocity would reach Edge or Rocket Town, and AVALANCHE would be here to investigate. He left clues where to find him, breaking the door to the mansion and the front door of it. With the hidden passageway leading down to the underground open, it would be impossible for them to miss where he was. They'd find him and they'd fight, hopefully without knowing it was him, and then the nightmare would be over. It would crush them, hurt those he loved but... Well, it was better for them to be alive and hurt than dead.
So here he was, blood still wet on his weapon as he stared into the tubes with reddened eyes. He couldn't live with himself, he hated himself so much but there was no other way for this to end. He couldn't die like anyone else, he had to be cut down more than he could do to himself. If all went well Sephiroth would arrive as well, bringing an end to this sick legacy once and for all. Cloud just needed to wait, and see who would be first to come...