N A M ESamantha Rose Carrington
A G E42
G E N D E RFemale
O C C U P A T I O NGallery Owner/Painter
S E X U A L I T YHomosexual
R E L A T I O N S H I P S T A T U SIt's Complicated
F A M I L Y M E M B E R SSam is bringing along Jesse Valentine, her girlfriend, and her son Sylvester Carrington.
A P P E A R A N C EA life of partying is never truly evident on a face as pretty as Sam's. Though her teeth are yellow form cigars and her body is much frailer than most, she has managed to keep a pristine look about herself. Green eyes glare out through fashionably-hooded lids, stark in color compared to her pale skin and dark hair. A straight nose, large lips, and angular, painstakingly painted eyebrows draw her looks together into a lovely collection of scowls and smirks. Makeup, of course, is the only thing keeping her from looking like a living corpse.
Sam has a lithe, small frame, procured from lack of eating and general avoidance of a healthy life style. Frailty and Samantha Carrington could be synonymous for each other. Being so thin-boned, she is easy to break and much quicker to bruise. Even the slightly knock of a coffee table against her knee can summon large, colorful bruises. Her pale skin only makes the sights worse. When shes hosting a party, she can usually be found in cocktail dresses and heel, but when she is working coveralls and white, paint-splattered shirts do her well.
P E R S O N A L I T YWhy are old woman always so bitter? Well, like Samantha, they have a strict diet of black coffee, cigarettes, family issues, and olives. Being the first daughter to the Carrington household, her life was sort of a test run. A cautious tale of give or take, watch or ignore, love or neglect. Mommy and Daddy really, really tried, they know this, Sam knows this, and yet she still left the house at eighteen to wallow in all kinds of negativity. Samantha is depressed, simple as that, and her own rash actions and the Carrington's "hands-off" parenting are the leading causes.
Having gone from a rich, pampered high school graduate to a poor painter over night long, long ago, Sam has learned to fend for herself. It's a dog eat dog world, and those with weak wills won't survive. Sure, most nights she drowned her sorrows in alcohol and drugs, but during the day she fought for her place among the San Fran artist community. Her artwork was always a clear window into her soul, splashes of colors and lines that drew together to create something worth admiring. Sam's natural hot-headedness and general stubborn will kept her meagerly afloat in her beginning years, and then a strive to get better, to feel better, brought her to the "splendid" life she holds now.
Of course, having a pent house at the age of twenty-eight had its perks. Sam became quite the party-thrower. Having been a general nightlife junky, as she started throwing her own shindigs she began relying more and more on substances to feel alive. Depression and stress was forgotten with a few chugs or tablets. Flashing lights and soul-thumping music swelled life into her, inspired her art, choked her sadness and quelled her long-lasting rage. The party animal Sam was the drunk Sam, the loud Sam, the bitterless, pastless, richest Sam.
How do you cure something that doesn't wish to be cured anymore?
Sadness aside, Sam can constantly be found in a state of pouting. She holds the razor-sharp tongue of a sailor and the wit of a comedian, with her dark eyes passing on every unspoken word as easily as one could with a single glare. Drinking doesn't really mute this unbridled rage, only numbs it, so it is always best to stay on the good side of the artist. Despite this, Sam holds an odd protectiveness to younger children and small animals. She's motherly, though it is hard to see through the mounds of depression and rage and alcohol, and though she doesn't seem like it she truly wants to get better so she can be a positive light in her son's life. Sam wants to raise her boy better than her own parents raised her, but old habits die hard, and old wounds just never know when to heal.
L I K E S- Traditional Art
- Photography
- Bitter coffee
- Sylvester
- Smoking
- Alcohol
- Clubs and bars
- Nighttime
D I S L I K E S- Tea
- Mathematics and sciences
- Sweets
- Authority
- Country music
- Being alone
- Being sober
- Mornings
H I S T O R Y"You want me to be something I can never be, mom! I just-- I can't be what you want!"
Samantha was the first in a long line of mistakes or almost-mistakes. The oldest child, the responsible one, the angel, the spoiled princess. Never anything else, just "the first". Cassiopeia tried her hardest with Sam, tried to fight passed her own family issues to give her daughter the mother she deserved. Of course, there is something superficial about getting advice from dozens of parenting books, something cold and unloving about it. Not to say Cass wasn't loving, oh no, she loved her daughter like she loved the rest of her children, but it was just hard for her to show Sam couldn't see it, and because of that, she could never be able to understand it
Sam was always the right-brained type. She loved painting. She loved color and words. She loved everything that had nothing to do with her family's business and the some. Of course, her father would always be critical of her attempts at artwork. He was a strong-willed man who sought perfection, and Sam thought she would never inspire him or please him. She grew jaded from his criticisms, callouses caved in over her heart to try and protect her fragile interest in her hobby. He was a key factor in her meltdown after graduation.
Sam lived alone, basically, from birth to her teen years. Cass and Lee were always so busy with work, she was left to play with nannies and cleaning ladies and babysitters. Sam focused mostly on her artwork, while trying to dodge all business related-work her parents would have liked her to partake in. They pushed course son he rin high school, offered to hire her tutoring for her failing math and science and business classes, and the stress of it all just grew and grew until the night of graduation. Now, Sam had been quite the rebel in her youth as well, and she just barely squeezed herself onto that stage to get her diploma. Obviously, her folks were annoyed, tried to get something like understanding out of her, and all they got was an outburts of rage and stress and fears.
"You want me to be something I can never be, mom! I just-- I can't be what you want!"
She left soon after the fight simmered, took her old Mustang and drove, drove, drove all the way to New York City. She left behind her brothers and sisters, her family, in a wild tantrum, and she often brags that it was the best decision of her life.
It wasn't.
But Jesse Valentine was. Jesse was a Brooklyn native, a butch inspiration, a hand to hold. Sam fell for her slowly and then all at once, feeling that she had finally found her muse in those brown eyes. The two moved in together and suffered through starving years and the fought to find themselves. Without college, Sam had a much harder time getting her paintings sold or getting her name out into the world.
And then she met Ernie. At the age of twenty-four, she started dating and eventually married this man after Jesse left to join the military despite Sam's worries. He owned an art gallery, and helped her gain momentum in the NYC art scene. He also gave her a child, accidentally, drunkenly. This mistake cost them their marriage, and Sam, now burdened with another life along with her own, sought comfort in other bodies and drinks and smokes. She neglected Sylvester at first, and oh what a mistake it was. By his fourth birthday she had tried to swear off her needs and wants in favor of protecting her son, but, again, old habits die hard.
She still tried, though. She still loved and wanted to be loved back. Sam had decided one night, mutely, as she tucked Sly into bed, that she could and would die for him. That was how much she loved him. That was a mother's thought, a mother's wish, and a mother's burden.
Jesse was an ever constant variable in Sam's whirlwind of a life. She was gone, yes, but they always fell back together somehow. Arizona and New York weren't that far apart, if you compared distances through cell phone calls and train fares and fights and fights and fights. With each call, and each trill of her son's voice as he cried "Aunt Jesse" into the phone, Sam found herself falling even harder for her now-distant "friend". Of course, when she got the package from her family, Jesse was the first one she called, and of course, she was the one Sam wanted to bring along.
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