Kosara Sal Valas
Location: Deep Space->Orbit around Jedha
Kosara's journey in hyperspace wasn't the most pleasant one. The same doubts and waking nightmares that plagued her earlier returned while in transit. She didn't have much to do while waiting to arrive at the destination. Luckily she wasn't too far, given she had picked up the signal as faint as it was. Still, it made her depressed and with her irritated mental state, she found it difficult to start calming down, lacking the guidence of her long time partner.
" What was the mantra again...?" She tried to remember, giving herself an anchor in the chaotic sea of her mind and thoughts. After a bit of thinking, closing her eyes and refocusing just enough to find her answer, she took a very deep breath before speaking out.
"There's no emotion, there's peace..." She spoke to herself in slow, but stable voice and breathed in and out. It didn't quite help, sure they can proclaim that you should detach yourself from emotions, but if you did, what did that left you with? What was a man without emotion? Should she forget her grief and the origin of those emotions?
" There is no ignorance, there is knowledge..." Still with eyes closed, she cursed out silently. Knowledge... where was the knowledge about what was to happen? She regretted everything, the what ifs returned as a flood, flashes of her partner's face rushign through her mind. She cared for her more than she had ever admitted and sadly will not get a chance to admit.
" There is no passion, there is serenity..." She tried dammit, she very well darn tried, but serenity was the last thing she could achieve right now.
"There is no harmony,..." The galaxy was set into a silent inferno with it's protectors being killed off like dogs. With Vala dying just because she saved her when she was being silly and not paying attention!!! No there was no harmony it seemed.
" There is only c..." She froze, eyes snapping open. What was she doing? She asked herself in shock and confusion. This was not what Vala would have wanted, not what Kosara herself wanted! She let herself wallow in self pity and regrets. Into her own anger because of her own weakness. A shiver ran down her spine as she realized what nearly happened in a single slip of the mind. She was not a trained jedi or a padwan, but that didn't mean the darker side of the Force didn't affect her just as much. The force was in her just as well. Vala had told her that she was sensitive and she'd sneak her some training after the war... Did she... just nearly let in to the dark side because of her own regrets and anger?
" NO!" She stated firmly as it was as if a veil lifted.
" There is no chaos. Only Harmony. There is no death, there is the Force" She fixed her statement. Vala was gone in body, but the force was eternal. She tripled her efforts. There was a planet to visit and likely fight to save jedi to die in!
Much later, after she stopped counting the minutes and track time, she allowed herself to almost fall into a trance like state, repeating the mantra over and over again. Feeling distinctly better, Vala was gone physically, but she'd never be trully gone. The force was in everything and everyone. As the fighter finally exited Hyperspace, she had set the exit coordinates to be behind planet NaJedha. She was certain the clones likely had a good deal of forces above and on Jedha itself. So the plan was to appear behidn the planet and use the planet to hide initially before slipping into the atmosphere to provide some measure of scanner protection and hten approaching the moon.
" Alright buddy, I know Vala gave you the know how on how to run this bird silent. If we are lucky, they will be too preoccupied to notice us approaching from the planet. If not... well.... I'd be a fun ride." With that said, she put the helment back on, turned off her transponders, leaving the droid to monitor the communications for anything relevant, she turned down the heating some, feeling her body chill right away. Finally she lowered the power levels on the engines. Kosara wanted to run this as low profile as possible. If she wore proper protection suit, she might have even shut down life support, but as it stood, she needed the life support systems, so she hoped the lowered power signatures from the fighter wouldn't be detected right away and with the help of the planet's atompshere and mass, maybe, just maybe, she'd get a chance to scout this properly before having to make a mad dash for the moon's surface.