Aisling said
"I was wondering if I could help you get settled in the routine here at Caldwell's and perhaps even be your friend. " Roisin began to speak as she sat down next to Chastity.
Chastity's sharp tongue was about to whip into action, but she stopped herself. She was tired, tired of always being angry, tired of playing the bad girl. To be honest she didn't want to do anything, because anything she did always led to disaster. Maybe routine would be good, monotony, just getting from day to day. The realisation that Chastity had no control made her just want to give up, why bother when you can never change what's going to happen. That, mixed with all the things that had happened to her in the past month, really depressed her. She could really use a friend right now, but she didn't believe she deserved one.
While looking at the ground she said. "Thanks, but don't just be nice to me out of pity, or as a way to combat my hostile behaviour. To be a friend means to actually want to get to know that person, and I may not be as bad as I first appear, but I am still pretty bad. Who would want to get to know that?" Chastity sighed, she said that to protect herself later, because if Roisin actually did get to know her and saw things she didn't like, Chastity would once more be abandoned and she never wanted to go through that again. But even though it's true that you can't lose friends you don't have, it's also true that if you don't have any friends you might as well have lost them. So she added one last thing. "I'm just saying that don't go pretending to be my friend and then plan on dumping me later, okay? I don't think I could deal with that again."