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Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

Is there some specific stuff you have in there for Nathan or am I going to get some leeway with the contents of the closet? I have an outfit in mind for my post but while I'm still working on it I'd like to ask before I pick something he doesn't have.

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

As Jessica let the tears start flowing down her cheeks she, she was surprised to feel Nathan pull her in closer. The warmth of the embrace, how truly caring and calming it was. She couldn't help but start relaxing in his arms, but at the same time she felt truly awful for distrusting her best friend of all people. It did help with him telling her that he was still there, that nothing has changed. She even smiled slightly when he said that he always knew she was a princess. I told you She lost track of how long she stayed like that, and it wasn't until Nathan pulled away that she realised that she understood that she did have feelings for her best friend. But it would be a nightmare trying to get that to work out right now. She at least wanted to start hormone treatment before she worked on a relationship.

She was shocked that Nathan asked for the name she chose for herself, but not entirely. She was about to answer when Nathan pulled her to her feet and started pulling her toward the bedroom asking for her not to judge him. "I have no reason to think badly of you unless you're a murderer or something like that. Not after how supportive you've been." But when Nathan opened his closet and revealed the clothes and wigs and accessories, she immediately closed in on the closet and began looking closely at everything. "Do you stuff the bra or do you have falsies?" She asked nonchalantly, moving on to looking at the dresses and skirts.

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

Jess couldn't help but let a tear roll down her cheek as Nathan promised to stick by her side no matter what. She felt like such a terrible friend. When Nathan put his arm around her she kinda leaned into it. He felt so warm. She sat there for a few minutes trying to get her mind organised and her breathing steady. She felt safe like when her father held her in his arms for the first time after she told her parents. There's no way he could hold her so caring like and not be honest about still being there after. "I'm sorry I couldn't tell you sooner. It's hard not to be scared of people's reactions. All the stories out there."

"A lot of my stress is from all of the issues with the diner, making sure the house is paid up, and normal and 'abnormal' sibling antics. I'm sure Kylie has given me a few grey hairs these past few weeks." She started explaining, despite practically growling in frustration towards the end. Then she sighed. "But even all that is nothing compared to the stress I've gone through already. The stress and anxiety and depression I've been struggling with since I was about fourteen. There was a good chunk of time where I even wanted to take the "one step shortcut" from the roof of the mall. I even figured out how to get up there without getting caught. And before you start worrying about that, I'm no longer at that kind of point. I haven't been since I figured it out. The reason for the stress, the anxiety, the depression. The truth is... I'm transgender. I... I..." she said, closing her eyes in anticipation of the worst, tears leaking from corners of the closed lids.

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

Jess could tell that things weren't exactly smoothed out when she said she couldn't tell him just yet. It hurt to see the hurt that was clearly there in his eyes. He was only one of two people left that she trusted, but it still didn't change the fact that she was afraid. Not so much that he would hurt her, but that he would push her away. That he'd call her a freak, a liar, attention whore. The same scenarios that have played out in her head for the past six or seven years. Even more so after she learned the truth about herself. He was one of her brothers as far as she cared. When he simply hit play on the movie, she curled up on the opposite end of the couch, only barely watching the movie.

When it ended, and Nathan asked what she wanted to do next, she froze again. "I think... I think I can tell you the truth. I am scared of telling you because you're practically my brother, and I've lost too much family lately. I'm not sure if I can lose anyone else. I... I'm t... I'm still too scared of losing you to say it." she said as she sat up and pulled her knees to her chest. "Promise me you still be there for me, please. she finally managed to say, her voice barely holding out to tell him. It was much the same way when she told her parents, being so scared to tell them, and making them promise to still have her back before she could work up the nerve to tell them.

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

Jess was happy to hear that there were snacks available, and was about to reach over and grab some of the popcorn her best friend had brought out. However she stopped in her tracks when Nathan asked if everything was alright. Asking if she wanted to talk about it? She just froze, paling slightly from being caught off guard like that. After a second or two she managed to shake it off. She didn't know what to say, she couldn't afford to lose her best friend, one of only a handful of friends. Her oldest friend.

I... I can't tell you." She eventually said. "Not right now. Soon, but not right now." A hint of fear and anxiety creeping in on the edge of her voice. "I..." Her voice gave out and she kinda shrunk into herself. She was tired of lying to her best friend of all people, and even though she made a promise to tell him it still weighed on her. She hadn't felt so vulnerable for since Olivia discovered the truth and before that when she came out to her parents. And she lost her parents before she could find more support, which indirectly did a lot of damage to her self esteem. She felt alone even when surrounded by family and friends and she didn't want to go back to that.

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

I've started working overnights with Amazon so my schedule just became a lot more problematic for posting. I'm still willing to keep up with this, if you're willing to have the patience. I'm working on my post right now, before my shift. But I figured I'd give you a heads up about it.

Ban the Person above you

Banned because I'm insane and said so.

Ban the Person above you

Banned for banning people for no good reason.

Descendants of Time

Would you have any issues with a regular vamp siding with the Guardians or do they end up being mutually exclusive?

Secrets: Nathan and James/Jess' Story

Jessica smiled when Nathan said he wouldn't mind watching Mean Girls that's what she wanted. He didn't know about Jess or that it was actually one of her favorite movies and didn't say anything about it. Instead she popped on The Avengers, it had been so long since she had seen it. She smiled as the introduction started, and began thinking as Natasha Romanov was introduced that she was probably the only one she could relate to. Not being able to have children, so easily acting as someone she's not, not being able to... Snapping herself out of that line of thought, she remembered something incredibly crucial to an awesome movie experience. Turning to Nathan she asked, "Is there anything to snack on?" It wasn't going to ruin everything if there wasn't any, but it would make it better if there was.

She took a sip of her water and paused the movie as she waited for an answer. She had to distract herself from her line of thought. She wasn't overly hungry, but she knew continuing down that line of thought would only add to her stress and that's exactly what today was about avoiding. She was here to hang out with her best friend even if he didn't know the truth. 'Perhaps it's time to start telling the truth' she thought to herself as she went and got comfortable on the couch. 'Only him and Olivia for now. I don't think I can tell anyone else yet.'