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A Silent Voice is great.
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fabricant i don't know you that well but in between your waifu tastes and your calling out centrists i have come to respect you
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"By long tradition, the elder speaks first."
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[ "Four-Legged Frog" ]




[ "Eight-Legged Day" ]




[ "Twelve-Armed Wheel" ]

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The Witnessed Day was called forth from his pseudo-slumber by a shrill, mouthy noise. He stood up, allowing his full figure to take shape, and allowing the robes around him to flow as they were intended to. His eyes struggled to find their vision in the Real, but quickly settled on a shape. He did not approach, he did not wave, he simply stood. How long had he been humming, before this small thing approached him? Had he the physiology to, he would have grunted. Instead, his mind thrummed with agitation, too buried beneath obstructions to be heard. He called forth the memory of the noise sensations, putting them together. He considered the words of the lesser creature before him; had he a mouth, he would practically be chewing them. He did not speak for a few moments, considering what sort of impression it might be best to make.

“I suppose this to mean we are comrades.”

Without a mouth, the thought had to be directed to the mind of this lesser being. The Witnessed Day hoped that it was advanced enough to process the thought without it breaking into fragments, or better still, without overloading the poor thing’s mind. The thought itself was seeped in agitation, and the posture of The Witnessed Day was outwardly defensive. His eyes had forgotten the sky, they had forgotten the grass. The only thing within vision was being estimated. It proclaimed itself friend, but it might very well be foe. As per his standard mode of operation, The Witnessed Day erected a series of barriers within himself, on the off-chance that this creature would try to probe his mind. Such an invasion would be a relief – proof of other forms of life worth interacting with – but it would still be most unwelcome.

“I am The Witnessed Day.”

At this thought, The Witnessed Day’s defensive posture grew even more so. His eyes widened, to take in more of the surroundings, but still retained their focus on this possible threat. Agitation thrummed loudly within him, and for a moment, seeped into being. His eyes took in the bow, presented to him in a fashion that suggested peace. He did not offer one in return for two reasons: (1) He did not trust this creature. (2) He was this creature’s superior. Instead, he transformed his stance into the ritualistic greeting of the Nebula Shaman:

A stiffening of the form to present authority, followed by a curt nod in the general direction of the being that is being acknowledged. There is no eye contact made through the course of the gesture, for eye contact is forbidden in most Nebula Shaman rituals. The arms remain crossed at the chest, and in the case of The Witnessed Day, the second pair crosses over the lower torso, as if forming an armor of arms – this was supposed to represent a defense against the world. As his head tilted, beads clashed as if offering a greeting of their own.


This was, of all the greetings he knew, the most obscure, but also the friendliest he was willing to dispense on most occasions. It was a sign of acknowledgement, but that was the furthest it went. If this creature before him was well-versed in such ritualistic greetings, but not their cultural connotations, it might take offense. If this creature was well-versed in the greetings, as well as the obscure culture of the Nebula Shaman, it would understand that this is deeply respectful gesture that meant something like, “Keep to yourself, and I will do the same”. If the creature was not versed in either, as was oft the case, then it could be taken in whichever way the observer wanted. At the end of the gesture, drawn out as it was, The Witnessed Day let out a weary hum. This time, it was like a sin wave drawn out to the ends of time. In certain spots, it was accented with restrained frustration. His thoughts did not wander, for a stray thought could lead to a hole in the wall. He was not one for many words (especially because he preferred sensations that lesser forms of life couldn't interpret properly), so this was the most he offered. In his weariness toward the stranger, The Witnessed Day forgot nearly all else, and his legs, unattended, collapsed beneath him. Bitterly, he stood quickly, remembering how to.
Most of the readings I've done in the past year have been for philosophy classes I've been taking, but I've managed to squeeze in a few that are for fun. Here's three books which I really like, starting with two of my absolute favorites (Philosophical Investigations, and Beneath the Underdog), and something which I think is a worthwhile read all around. It's 2 AM, so I'm not going to go too in-depth with them, but here's tiny synopses which don't do the books any justice at all anyways.


Philosophical Investigations
By Ludwig Wittgenstein

Language is a game, and we all have our own set of rules. That's such a poor summary of the ideas in the book, because it's pretty much the ranting of a disgruntled philosopher that grew tired of the philosophical community. The book itself is interesting if you want to learn more about how we use language, but it's a philosophy book, so it's on the drier end of the spectrum (unless you're me/have an obsession with the guy). If you want to get better at language games, this is the book. Seriously, if you're not familiar with it by name, it's been fed to you by the culture around you whether you like it or not. If you've ever thought about stuff like, "What is the definition of is?", or "Is language descriptive or prescriptive?", then you'll take a lot out of this. I could go on about this book for ages, but I know I won't do it justice.


Beneath the Underdog: His World as Composed by Mingus
By Charles Mingus

Without a doubt my favorite composer, Charles Mingus was a jazz musician that grew up in California during the 1920's. The work is an autobiography, but it's a wild ride. While there's probably a good chunk that's exaggerated, it still offers insight into the mind of Mingus. He talks about being a pimp, struggling as a Jazz musician, racial tensions, signing himself into an insane asylum because he wanted a place to sleep, and a lot of sex. It's honestly one of the few books that captivated me entirely, and I read it over the course of three days. It's a relatively short read, but it offers a huge amount of insight into the west-coast jazz community, if you're interested in that sort of thing. The narrative itself is wild as well, and the book is assembled in an almost haphazard way. It'll also give you a tail of great musicians to follow, if you haven't already. The book is filled with wisdom from a bygone age, sad recollections of what was, and bitter optimism for what will be. Overall, it is a poetic account of a struggle-filled life.


Ishmael
By Daniel Quinn

I wouldn't be surprised if you knew about this book already, it's pretty popular, but I only actually read it this last fall. I could say so much about this book, but I think this captures it pretty well:

"Teacher seeks pupil. Must have an earnest desire to save the world. Apply in person."

And if that doesn't get you...




One, two, three – forward. Two, four, six – support. Two, four, six – forward. One, two, three – support. Hold.

Shuffling along, tired eyes watched the synthetic grass dance. Beads dangling down from a pair of developing antlers would, in some contexts, symbolize a prolific Nebula Shaman, but here, it represented a dream out of place. This was the spot, wasn’t it? A peaceful place where even the ghosts of the long dead sang softly into the wind, glad to have lived. Or perhaps, it was just another fabrication of the mind. The Witnessed Day watched the world pass by for a moment, taking the time to let his mind rest. His legs were far from tired, having been dreamed for walking, but his mind was exhausted. When he finally slept, he would be sure to dream a more complex mind. But, as it was now, he was dozing off. Dozing? Dozing. That’s how the word had entered his mind; he was here in Dozing.

Perhaps, if he sat long enough, he would melt into the grass.

Words entered his mind, but they were not his own. This, he knew. Melodic words, accompanied by string spirts, wood spirits, and brass spirits. Then, they disappeared. He had no quarrels with this. The newfound lack of words allowed him to tune into the primitive words of the nebulae around him. The feathered nebulae reminded him, vaguely, of his youth. He held them hostage with suspicious eyes, wondering what they were up to. His eyes followed them, trying to find their words, but quickly found themselves lost in the architecture of the ruins around him. Ruins brought him a sort of melancholic longing, but he could not understand why.

Dozing in Dozing, The Witnessed Day wondered at whom he might meet. The thought started with the present: “Who will I meet upon this living ship?” However, the thought quickly spiraled out of control. “Who will I meet in this cycle of wakefulness? What about the next cycle? Will there be another cycle? Am I doomed to incompleteness for the rest of time? What happens if I do not dream? Will I die? Can I die from staying awake? What is it like to be lesser? Can a lesser being stay awake this long? Does reality break down when they do? What do you think?” The last thought was directed toward nothing, but perhaps he thought to direct it at someone. He worried not if someone heard it, for he was no longer focused on walking, and his mind was free to wander as his legs no longer did.

He sat as if a yellow totem. His features were etched hard into his face, but unchanging. This was the closest he could get to sleep, so it was a quasi-retreat into himself. His sensory memory still functioned, but he relegated it to the depths of his active conscious, trying to forget what it was like to be aware for a few moments. The wind brushed his ceremonial beads, bringing forth distant memories of the day he took his name. He did not try to call his name forth, letting it rest at the depth of his soul. It was important that it rested, lest it bring him unpleasant thoughts. Such was the burden of a name, truly bound to one so intensely that it keeps the one tethered to a reality it seeks to escape from. He thought of it almost as a shackle, sometimes forgetting the value it holds. But such thoughts might rouse the name from its slumber to seek retribution for such an insult. The truth is that the name was him. Well, a snapshot, at least. A guide. A way to find the parts which had fled. It was only a shackle so long as he remained incomplete.

At such heavy thoughts, The Witnessed Day laid down in the grass, easing the load from his back, and letting the sky meet his eyes. Shapes danced beyond his vision, but still within his awareness. His thoughts turned to fate, and his eyes turned from hopeful dreaming to bitter malcontent. The feeling emanated from his being, more profusely than any amount of language. Even the dancing grass seemed to falter in its service to the wind, but perhaps that was just his imagination. After this quick marathon of thoughts, The Witnessed Day found true rest. He stopped thinking about such things, and instead let his mind hum. A simple hum, like a sin wave sleeping on a pile of dreams. If one were to inch close enough to listen, they might hear his inner thoughts, which were a discordant melody, which sought to explain perfection, but by its very nature was imperfect.
I'll have a post up either late tonight or sometime tomorrow.
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If you can watch the following without grinning, then you aren't a weeb. :D

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Oh shit.


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